Life is hard

[Postman427]

Been to docs today told him how I was feeling depressed, anxious , suicidal , don’t know which way to turn at the moment split with partner 2 years ago , I’m from uk living in oz , no friends or family to turn to but got 2 little kids here but I’m struggling to see a future for me . Everyday for the past 3/4 weeks I’ve felt like ending my life and the most painless way of doing it . I’m ok at the moment but it’s hard living in a foreign country with no one to talk to . Maybe that’s why I’m here .

[Sophie_M]

Hi Postman427,

We’re happy you reached out for support today and trying to open up about what you’ve been going through. We’re hearing that you are in a heavy spot right now, and are unable to see much of a future moving forward. We want to assure you that things can get better and you’ve taken the first step by reaching out. You can be surprised by how things can change with being able to talk about what you’ve been going through, so we are also reaching out to you privately with additional supports as we want to make sure you’re doing okay at this moment.  
 
During difficult moments such as this one, you can always get in touch with our friends at Lifeline (13 11 14) or Suicide Call Back (1300 659 467). We hope you keep checking in with the community here at the forum to let us know how you’re progressing.
 
If you feel you are unable to keep safe, we urge you to contact 000 to get the help you need.
 

[Ggrand]

Hello Dear Postman427,

A very warm and caring welcome to our forums...

My heart goes out to you..living so far from your country, your family and friends...I am so very sorry that you’re so alone....

It’s a great step forward and also very brave reaching out to your GP...and talking about your feelings and thoughts..I hope so much that your Dr..can help you..

Finding friends can be very hard...I remember when my children were little, I used to take them to the play group held at the local school...Its a way to interact with other parents and maybe friendships can be formed...also I’m not sure but I think most libraries hold a story time for little children..just a couple of things that might help you find some friends....hobbies you like doing..maybe join a group and see how you go...

Please Postman..if you get overwhelmed or just need to talk to someone the suicide call back is a great place to ring and chat to the other person on the phone...

When the unhealthy thoughts start..please remember that that’s all they are...thoughts...and you don’t have to act on them...Depression tells us things that are not true....

I am so pleased you say you are okay now..please don’t hesitate to talk here anytime you feel up to it..This is an amazing community full of care and understanding without judgment...We are all here for you Postman...

My kindest thoughts with care..

Grandy..

[CalmCat]

Hi Postman427,

Welcome to the forum and thank you for sharing your current times with us! You are brave and you are courageous!

Just like the other bloggers, I'm sorry to hear that your solo with limited supports.

Why don't you give the Beyond Blue help line a call and just have a chat with a professional? I have many friends that have called just for a chat and that chat can get rid of the bad chatter box in your head.

Let us know how your holding up.

Regards,

CC

[Postman427]

Thankyou to everyone who applied to my post . I’ll take all the kind words on board and hopefully see a light at the end of the tunnel . Got a docs appointment tomorrow so hopefully he can get me going in the right direction

[Postman427]

Nothing hurts more than the loneliness

[Ggrand]

Hello Postman...

I really do feel for you..loneliness is the worse feeling ever..

I live alone and try so hard each day to find something to keep me busy...Today..I’m just laying around and feeling very alone...

I have 1 friend who I love very much in r/l...and a neighbour after so many dramas when I moved in here...is now being kind to me...I do volunteer 1 day a week and get to chat with the other ladies their..but then when my shift is over and I get home...that horrid feeling of aloneness overpowers me...

I can’t do anything to stop this loneliness my children live in the city suburbs and I live country nsw...and miss them more then I could ever express...

I think the thing is..that we need to find something that we are passionate about or like doing....I haven’t as yet found anything except a Internet game...that I’m wasting my life playing..day in and day out....

Please continue talking here if you feel up to it...really good friends can be made here..I have found one here..although I doubt I will ever meet her in r/l...I am grateful that we talk here and support each other....

My kindest thoughts dear Postman....Do you have any pets or something that you like doing.....

Grandy..

[Postman427]

Hi grandy sorry to hear about your problems I also live in the country . My kids only live a couple of miles down the road so I get to see them on the weekends .
im a casual worker so I don’t know when I’m working from one day to the next and I like you finish work and just sit in my bedroom with no one to talk too don’t even bother putting tv on any more .
hopefully I can get through this but tbh I’m not sure I can .