I can’t feel any lower

[Loser_les]

Hello

I am really struggling with life lately, I have been to the doctors and been prescribed a couple different medications for depression I am on a high dose of medication at the moment and it was somewhat helping.

my partner has decided that she is separating from me, we have an 11 year old son as well.

she is still living in the house and has just shut me out of her life, I used to work away and wanted to be at home with my family which I love dearly but once I made that decision she told me it was over.

I have never been so hurt 😭 it’s been nearly 3 months and I’m feeling so low

she says she is working and stays out most of the night

I know it is no longer my business but it is killing me inside.

I struggle to sleep at night my mind just never stops tormenting me, the other night I had a severe migraine and tried to get ready for work then awoke in an ambulance they said I had been on the kitchen floor unconscious for sometime before I was found

the hospital scanned and X-ray Ed the crap out of me, blood Test galore but found nothing

I don’t know how to help myself out this hole

I’m starting to think about suicidal things I cam just so alone and broken

[Matchy69]

Hi Loser les and welcome to the forums and seeking help.That was brave first post and you will find this community very caring and nonjudgmental .
Going through a relationship ibreakup is so hard and sometimes dosnt make any sense.Living in the same house with person is going to make it more difficult for you.I am glad you are seeking help from your GP.Maby a chat to a phychologist might help as well.Please stay safe and think of your 11 y.o son and that you need to be there for him.
Take care,
Mark.

[Sophie_M]

Hey Les, welcome to the Beyond Blue forums. We're so glad you have chosen to join us here. We want you to know that our community is a supportive and non-judgmental place so please feel free to let us know what's on your mind and how we can best support you.

We're really sorry to hear what's been happening with you. We can hear that you're in a very difficult spot at the moment. It sounds like its really hurting you to be living with your partner since separating. We can imagine it would be tough to move forward and process this separation when your partner is still so close. Would you agree with this? We would recommend that you get in touch with an organisation called Relationships Australia on 1300 364 277. They provide relationship support services for individuals, families and communities and aim to support all people in Australia to achieve positive and respectful relationships. It might be worth finding out what they can offer you.

Can we ask if you are receiving mental health support? Please do feel free to contact the Beyond Blue Support Service anytime on 1300 22 4636 or get in touch with us on Webchat 3pm-12am AEST here: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport One of the friendly counsellors can offer you some support but also provide you with advice and referrals for seeing a counsellor in a more ongoing way if this is something you feel would be beneficial.

In addition to this, there are always counsellors available via phone for your most difficult moments. Including Lifeline (13 11 14) and the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467).

We hope that you keep checking in to let us know how you're going, whenever you feel up to it.