Disappointment

[LittleMissAlice]

Hi, I haven't been on here for ages (which i guess is a good thing actually) and i usually only posted on the lgbtq+ forum but here we go

Anywho so this has been building up for a while i guess, my self esteem has been on a very tangible down slope which ive only been noticing recently. I guess its mostly my dad? at least thats the most obvious source? We've never had the best relantionship and normally i can just ignore his massive dickheadedness but lately i cant help but notice whenever he cant go two minutes without commenting on my utter uselessness and how completely unprepared for the outside world im going to be. This is my last year of school and the stress is just building what with car licenses and exams and independence and all that and on top of all of it ive got someone constantly reminding me that its hard as heck and im gonna screw it up. Im feeling absolutely awful and i dont know how to feel better. Im having suicidal thoughts because it just feels like the easiest way out of everything. Any advice would be appreciated.

[LittleMissAlice]

Thanks everyone, i really wanted to reply to all of you but i just dont have the energy anymore. Just writing this incredibly non-committal response is exhausting. i dont know how to do this anymore, everything is only getting worse, the pressure is building, my dads constant put downs are only getting worse and i have lost any and all motivation to want to do anything. i dont know what to do

[Sophie_M]

Welcome back LittleMissAlice and thank you for checking in.

We're sorry to hear your struggles feel like they're getting worse. We want you to know we're here to provide you with as much support, advice and conversation as you need.

We also want to remind you to reach out for more immediate support than the forums can provide if you feel you need to. We mentioned KidsHelpline upthread and encourage you to reach out to them. They offer 24/7 webchat counselling if you'd prefer to type than talk. Headspace is another great organisation. They have physical centres you can drop in to across the country and their website is packed full of information you might find helpful as it's tailored to young people like you 25 and under: https://headspace.org.au/
And please remember you can reach out to the mental health professionals at our support service 24/7 on 1300 22 4636.

[LittleMissAlice]

Thank you, sophie. im just really struggling to talk to people about it. like i said, i went to the guidance counsellor but i just couldn't bring myself to talk about it properly. i told a friend but i dont think they really understand. I'm not sure talking to someone will really help if i cant even talk about it to one of the people closest to me