Vent and then let it go...

[Guest_1055]

Not sure about anyone else but sometimes I just need to vent, including venting any frustrations, fears, hopes, worries, longings and anything else. Most of the time I don't want any advice or any responses. Just need a way to get it all out from within me.

So thought this thread could be for those sort of things. No one replys to you with words or anything. It's a place to let it all go. Just dump whatever it is you want to say and leave it here.

So yeah no replys please.

[Harpbird]

Thanks mmMkitty, it sure is dang unfair. My head is pounding from the nerve damage in my C2, and my lower ribs have locked up Again and that makes it’s so painful to breath. My head isn’t in a good space atm. Though my dear osteopath opened up last Sunday to treat me and did it helped, but now it’s worse and I am really not coping. I did tell him what I almost did to myself . The pain just won’t go away

[Apricit123]

I get scared I wont get better and further declining with my mental health i am scared and anxious almost all the time and anxiety plagues me.

I am in a 16 year old mind set and need to get back to 34.

Flashbacks and PTSD like never before.

[mmMekitty]

Has it been so long? More than a month ago? Time goes so fast, we have an upgrade, & it's so hard, myfeet & legs continue to complain, seems more & more, can't find or chat to everyone I want to here anymore... people in floods, & homelss,.. if I think about much more I feel overwhelmed. PDr is away, my helper is sick with a cold perhaps, but away is away...

So I got new ceiling fans yesterday, (because my PDr was away), which I won't need until Summer... it's only been ten years since I first brought up the need for them, here in this little flat, where having them is essential for simply getting some air flow, & for me to have something I'm not going to knock over, or taking up kitchen bench space, or have their cords across the floor. Can't have adjust the brightness as I did with the LED bulbs I had, anymore. 

I feel faintly ill right now, just seeing some more people I haven't seen since the upgrade. Do I or don't I try to find where might be best to say 'hello' & 'how are you?' & offer some little help as I can with how the Forums work now???

I can't.

I hate to think of people leaving because they can't deal with all the changes.

Miss you too, Harpbird. I will try.

But I don't to single anybody out, do I? I don't want anyone to feel ignored, either. This is what makes this place so hard.

[tranzcrybe]

I endeavour to remove 'myself' from interacting on this site for the sake of objectivity, trusting that my experiences may receive consideration without direct correlation to particular circumstances that led to formulation of any replies - I am responsible and accountable for ensuring my privacy, while attempting to provide information that may prove of some benefit.
I have subscribed to the notion of 'giving support to receive support' wherein such support received is a mere byproduct of making some contribution to discussions. Reading up on individuals is not something that particularly interests me, but the subject matter must necessarily be attributed to the OP. As such, yes, I have followed many themes on Beyond Blue and formed opinions naturally enough on characteristics and mannerisms along the way concerning mental health and dealing with emotional and physical trauma. This is how I reconcile my own mental health issues where support is in short supply due to circumstances beyond the scope of this thread - and even the confidentiality, or lack of, on this forum.
For all intents and purposes, this is but a stage where one trumpets to the world in the hope of receiving comfort, solace, or advice.
Thank you for hearing me out in the context and spirit of this thread.

[Guest_1055]

Hi, just want to say I have read the last few posts from people. Just so you know your voice was heard.

I am totally lost with these forums. So I don't even know if I am posting in this thread. Appreciate the work people have put into the new forums. But hey.. I am definitely confused with it all. 

Things I want /need to let go. And in the process of doing so. 

I acknowledge each one. And bring it into the light. No more pushing it into myself. No more self comforting with food to try and make myself feel better. No more covering it up. No more carrying it around for it is awful and heavy. 

Sadness

Despair 

Aloneness

Stress

Unhelpful anger 

Fear

Trouble feeling 

Disunity

Hating myself

Graceless

Confusion

Lonely 

Lazy

Undisciplined 

Not taking care of myself 

Rejection 

Worthless feeling

Lost 

Not quick to forgive 

Unloving

Not committed 

Ending my life thoughts 

Not at peace 

Sickness

Pain 

Hurt

I place it all at your feet Jesus. I don't want to carry it anymore. My life feels like hell itself. Its too heavy. Too much. I know you took this upon yourself, so I wouldn't have to. So I could be free. Its too heavy and sad. My life. Myself. So burdened with it all, my soul is. 

[Sophie_M]

Hey there, 

We hope you don't mind us popping in. We just wanted to remind you that we're here, in case you'd like to talk things through at any point, and if you'd like to discuss the thoughts about ending your life you mentioned, or get some ideas for getting some support. We’re on 1300 22 4636, and you can reach us online here. There’s also our friends over at Lifeline on 13 11 14.

Thanks again for being open, and sharing your journey with the community, Guest. We know it's not an easy thing to do, but you never know who is reading, and they may be feeling less alone because of your openness. 

Kind regards,

Sophie M

[mmMekitty]

Hello dear Guest_1055,

Your words are strong & clear & heard.

Sleep well, everyone, including me!

Hello tranzcrybe 😺

[mmMekitty]

People comeing & going coming & going,.. or I have to leave them ... right now it's my GP who is gone to work outback, locum for I don't know how long, or if she will return at all. I've only known her since November last year. She is a good GP, has been really helpful - though some things are not yet sorted. 

I've got to change GPs again. The new one hasn't even been at the GP's Surgery very long either, so won't know me at all.

I begin writing about this & I realise just how much it upsets me. I have to talk to a stranger about some very intimate things. I don't know anyone who would finds this easy. I fear the new GP won't even look at the notes the Surgery holds before seeing me. & I'll have to explain everything that has happened from at least last November. & maybe more about some other things I need to have something done about. & I have this form to ask about & maybe fill in, too. We asked for a long appointment & the receptionsish said it's up to the GP - when the receptionist has the appointments made & vacant right there in front of them, I could not be assured of a long appointment! 

Okay, for  now... getting overly tired tonight, which doesn't help.

mmMekitty

[Guest_1055]

Very difficult weekend that I have had. Husband is stressed because of his work. He worked very long hours last week. The stress seems to change him into not a nice person at all. I have been trying to remember that it's the stress that is making him like this. Lack of quality sleep, etc. Anyway just got to get this out

[Gambit87]

Starting the process of buying our own home! Theres very little for the price range we are looking at and we're trying to account for additional expenses.

Just to to take it step by step i guess! it'll be right.