Vent and then let it go...

[Guest_1055]

Not sure about anyone else but sometimes I just need to vent, including venting any frustrations, fears, hopes, worries, longings and anything else. Most of the time I don't want any advice or any responses. Just need a way to get it all out from within me.

So thought this thread could be for those sort of things. No one replys to you with words or anything. It's a place to let it all go. Just dump whatever it is you want to say and leave it here.

So yeah no replys please.

[mmMekitty]

Yes, you will, Gambit. Get lots of rest & take in lots of fluid, such as water & soups. (Not really hot, of-course). Contact GP if you need more support. 😸

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I took some risk yesterday - so, I'm lying on an under-blanket of some concern for a few days....

Wish I could get more air flow through my flat.

[redroses]

sick of being alive but i don't have the courage to do anything to myself. my own psychiatrist doesn't even seem to want to see me anymore, just says the same stuff he has in the past that hasn't been helpful, as i've told him. he's the only help i can get. can't even see a GP, & when i do, they say just see him. my miserable existence sucks. i'm just a burden to everybody. i get no help, then i'm told to seek help so i try to, then this happens. looks like i'll be going back into my hole even deeper & getting no help at all anymore, after i see him next month, as my parents said make an appointment, although i didn't want to. now him & the telehealth company are lying to me about the fees & overcharging me, i get some back on medicare but i've never had to pay before, medicare has. why me?

[CMF]

My partner's sister peeves me off. She's controlling & intrusive. When she walks in & takes over I get peeved & he gets peeved at me for being upset about it but he never gets peeved with his sister's actions that upset me. He agrees with what she's like but will do nothing about it. Instead he tells me I over react.

[mmMekitty]

The audiobook I am listening to is good. It's funny, in an old-fashioned way, & you wouldn't believe it was Isaac Asimov. But the quality of the audio is so awful, I'm struggling to keep listening. & a few ads have crept in, too... 😾Not much more now. 🙀

[Doberman38]

A few world leaders, and one very particular former world leader, have been living rent-free in my head for quite some time, me just constantly obsessing over their shenanigans. I suspect they would like the attention, so I'm no longer going to give them the satisfaction 😛

[mmMekitty]

Oh I don't think it was this med - but I'm afraid to take it tonight (& I am LAE taking it,too!)

Maybe just one again... like I was doing before last night? That will be alright, won't it?

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Okay, 15 minutes, & no weird feelings... so, yes, okay, so now, let go of the anxiety, mmMekitty, & go to sleep! 🙀💤

[CaramelCrisp]

it is already so hard to do my uni work for all the personal things affecting me, but my every effort today gets underscored by someone yelling about something and i cant block it out physically or mentally

[mmMekitty]

Just have to vent:

& an hour ago, a word, one single blameless word & it is as a key to a locked box, & the lid flies off & this old memory leaps out... & the more I try to push it back the worse it is, more intense, the image in my mind, the way I felt & the thoughts, the actual memory, all of it, including how I'd like to do something to someone...How I'd like to lock these things up, really tight, & drop the lot into the deepest ocean. What good do they do me, now? Even if I could do anything to that someone, I know that would do no good either.

So, what do I do, but let it go?

Wondering, why now, today, this afternoon, when the sun has been out some & while I've been thinking of the past, I wasn't upset doing that, & writing about it, so why does this one word have this effect today?

I hate this crap. 😾🥊grrrr.!

[Harpbird]

Why can’t I say no? I put my poor body through hell to be nice . when will anyone do something for me ? I just can’t do this any more , my pain is at a 9/10 , I taken my normal meds but not touching my pain.

[mmMekitty]

Dear Harpbird, I'm so sorry it's so bad for you, that nothing is helping, & I can't do more but feel sad for you having so much pain, with no utreatment that helps...

It's so brutally unfair.

I can only hope my deepest thoughts to wish things were better, help a little.

mmMekitty