Vent and then let it go...

[Guest_1055]

Not sure about anyone else but sometimes I just need to vent, including venting any frustrations, fears, hopes, worries, longings and anything else. Most of the time I don't want any advice or any responses. Just need a way to get it all out from within me.

So thought this thread could be for those sort of things. No one replys to you with words or anything. It's a place to let it all go. Just dump whatever it is you want to say and leave it here.

So yeah no replys please.

[Doolhof]

Hey Shell,

Sorry you are in such a dark place. My thoughts are with you.

[Doolhof]

Hi Wail,

That sounds horrendous. Hope you receive some assistance somehow!

[ecomama]

Praying for all those in pain, frustration and feeling angry right now.

The past week was horrendous. Insane, inhumane demands from work 18h days over more than 2 weeks. Not ONE day off, zero pay increase!
Just couldn't do it any more.
Tried to set up Boundaries - they were smashed down grrr.
I'll speak to my Union Rep asap regardless of whether my bosses do or do not change things for me.

Boundaries not respected on my thread. This really distressed others including myself.
It WAS a safe space. I'm not triggering so much now - I'm doing exposure therapy HERE. uck.
I employed a different strategy.

My teenager said a simple phrase to me and triggered, in classic C-PTSD style, full tumblings... had no idea what was happening for 2 whole days until my Counsellor took me back to my childhood and 2 events of extreme abuse. I was STILL working nutty hours and being triggered by more... Thank God my C made some sense of this. Then I needed time to heal but couldn't get any!

All this with an extended lock down announced. My work has gone nuts BECAUSE of the LD.

I AM SO ANGRY that ppl are without food, this creates the deepest anger in me. I'm furious and NO ONE has answers but my Church! THEY are delivering food parcels to ppl! Families are becoming homeless due to shut businesses... this is the worst part of my life. It drives me insane. I am so powerless but to go outside my Code at work and recommend my Church for food!
My kids and I are helping ONE family of 5 and can't extend ourselves financially any more than that.

No heating. Cannot repair it. Needs replacing woah! Can't do that right now, too many bills coming up. Grrrr.

My kids are doing really well! So I'm not totally ungrateful. They're rugged up like we live in Iceland! But they are going well.

Listening to a podcast now to ground me and bring me into a better mindset.

Many Blessings to everyone!
EMxxxx

[Guest_1643]

i'm angry that this man i barely know has intruded my space and made judgements about and against me... i'm angry that someone would do that to me and sort of trigger my own abuse/neglect histroy and make me feel somehow, abuseable. I'm angry that this man doens't appear or present as a harmful person, but is. I'm angry that I give him a chance and he broke my trust and that his response and "appeasing" tactic is lame and insulting.
I'm angry that there are people who don't respect others' vulnerabilities but walk all over them.

[Doolhof]

I'm rather frustrated it has taken 4 days and about 12 emails to have correct dates put onto an official letter I am requiring.

I have now received another official letter with incorrect dates from the same organisation pertaining to a similar yet slightly different situation.

Do I need to spend another 4 days and more emails trying to have this rectified? I did try using the phone and was on hold for an hour before I was just cut off. So much for my call being of value to the organisation. Obviously not!

I know in this world of COVID, wars, famines, fires, political upheaval and what ever else is going on, my issues are minute. I am just wondering how hard it is to get dates correct on an official document.

[Guest_1584]

l feel as though l have made a complete and utter mess of things and life.

l know this isn't where l was suppose to be, l know it. And as l just said in my thread, even the cards have said it. lt just isn't me and at this stage in my life , this is just not the way it was meant , l know it and feel it with all my being. The problem is , what's happened and with where life is now , has happened, it just has, and a far as l can figure out it can not be undone. The last 9yrs can not be taken back , relived , done differently , reworked what hasn't worked, or fixed.

l'm at a complete loss.

rx

[Guest9337]

Hello randomx.

I offer love and benefits. I will aim for better than "no harm"... and respond here and when/if I can find ur thread.

You are valuable. I loved your existence in the past, I love you now. I love you into your future. I will test my loved commitment to it's utter limits... I am awake now and will look for your thread immediately.

I have a busy day thursday 5th with my personal blood testing in hemo ward, but I hope my ipad will work, so that I can chat in your thread during the day.

I encourage you to redirect the energy spent in "venting" into writing 2500 characters or less, about the things that make your blood boil, your kettle turned on, be irritating, annoying. We will attend each and every point that you present to the best of my ability for as long as I breath on your behalf.

love david.

[Guest_1643]

i know its hard to sy those things rx, i feel the same in many ways and am sorry it's so hard. it shouldn't be so hard but it often is and its not fair. Sending care.

My tooth hurts like crazy, i went to the dentist expecting lectures and a filling, there is literally nothing wrong iwth it, nothing he could no, no issues, no problems, how do i imagine this? i'm so confused between wht i know in my gut and what is actually happening. i'm glad thugh its okay, and that i went, but was stressed out and confused how smething that felt real wasn't.

[Claudia_L]

Hi Sleepy21,

Thank you for sharing how you are feeling at the moment. I want you to know that you are being heard and that you will get through this. Along with this, it is completely okay to feel the way you are now and I thank you for having the courage to express how you really feel and open up to us all in the forum! It really does take a lot of courage and bravery to speak out and tell someone else how you are feeling and I am proud of you!

Happy to talk more and I hope you are staying safe.

Cheers,

Claudia

[Claudia_L]

Hi Randomx,

I hope you are well!

I want to start off by saying thank you so much for contributing to the forum and expressing how you feel as this is a big step for anyone and it does take a lot of courage to do so well done!

It is completely okay to feel as though you do not think you are on the right path in your life. I have also been in a similar situation, especially in the sense that I had my life planned out ever since I was a little girl and yet now nothing has gone to that plan. But that is okay. It is all apart of life and your journey. These things only make us stronger and allow us to progress even more.

I understand that the last 9 years cannot be taken back or done differently but that is okay. Look at where you are now and today. You have acheived so much and you should be so proud of yourself for making it this far. I am proud of you and I want you to know that you are more than what you are feeling right now. I find that when I feel the same I will begin journalling and writing a list of all of things I have achieved, the things I am grateful for and the things that have made me the person I am today. The act of self reflection always makes me feel better and allows me to vent and then move on.

I wish you all the best and I am proud of you.

Kind regards,

Claudia