Meditation, Manifesting, Gratitude & The Law of Attraction

[CMF]

Hi everyone,

Not sure where to start so hope I can express myself clearly and maybe with others' input we can expand on this. I'm interested in people's thoughts/ experience with meditation, manifesting, gratitude & the law of attraction. I've recently started using the Smiling Mind app to meditate when going to sleep and sometimes when feeling a little anxious, like tonight. It is something i thought i could never do as my mind rarely stops, however, with persistence, I find I enjoy it. I guess i tend to have a negative mindset which I am determined to change.I always felt uneasy about thinking positive things as i thought i would jinx myself, and that whenever I made a positive comment or felt happy it would go wrong or something negative would happen. So i refrained from allowing myself to be too happy, I guess to 'protect' myself. Recently i have been feeling happier, stronger, expressing gratitude and taking note of when things have come to me when i needed them. Coincidence, or answers to what i put out to the Universe? I like to think the latter. A work colleague one day told me to manifest something i wanted, put it out to the universe , so I'm trying. Example, recently we needed to measure the floor space at reception so we could calculate how many people we could have in at one time. I needed a tape measure, which i did not have. At that moment our handyman walked into the office. Guess what he had? I am getting into the habit of practising positive thinking instead of thinking/expecting negatives. If something 'negative' does crop up, it can be dealt with, it's not the end of the world. I look for the positive in every negative situation. I am becoming more aware of being grateful for little things, things like getting a good car park at work, a warn cosy bed, a tidy house. I feel when i am expressing gratitude I am putting positive thoughts out into the universe and I notice more positives instead of focusing on negatives. Late last week we had internet issues at work and a colleague i found a little annoying. I've been feeling very drained, agitated, negative for a few days. This morning things were not running smoothly for me. A result of my negative mind perhaps? Little things became a big deal, my morning was crap. If i look back, it wasn't really an issue, i just did things in a different order which gave me more relax time this evening. The Law of Attraction, positive thoughts, positive experiences.

What are your thoughts?

cmf x

[CMF]

Hi therising, 

We met yesterday & I gave him a long letter. We spoke for nearly 2 hours. He opened up. O/s was very emotional for him, esp 1 particular town where his son was conceived.  He rembered going o/s on a cycling trip with his friends and really missing his wife. He wanted to feel that way about me bur didn't.  He hadn't wanted his marriage to end. It must have been so hard. He acknowledged that maybe he hadn't quite healed & couldn't give more to our relationship which I needed. It was an emotional day. So much honesty. Today I felt overwhelmed with peace. I felt emotional but more at peace. I sent a long text to express some emotions to help me heal. He said to let it all out  I said I feel a different understanding & connection with him. He said def a connection & always here for me. It was a better day, although bit sad tonight. I am scared of the connection diminishing if I don't make contact but I should allow him space. I'm not ready to completely let go. I'm scares the connection will go also.🙏

[CMF]

I'm scared he'll move on from it really quickly.  He doesn't think & maybe feel as deeply as I do. Things don't affect him like that do me. Maybe I'm kidding myself. I'm expressing deep emotions to him it might just be beautiful words. My heart hurts so much.

[CMF]

3 was our number. Reconnected after 30 years. Anniversary was 03/09. I felt 3 of us in the relationship. My special necklace had 3 charms. 

Looks like 5 has significance too.  5 years together, 5 weeks away.

"555 is rarely a bad sign and most commonly signifies difficult times within a committed relationship coming to an end and true happiness being on the horizon".

I don't have the 3rd "5" yet. I wonder what it will be?🙏

[CMF]

One of the readings I had before he went o/s revealed that when they returned they would realise they needed to go their separate ways. Wow.  That was about US not them. May be the way things were withbthe 3 of us made the readings unclear in regards to what would happen with whom. This just makes the whole 3 of us thing even more intriguing. 

[CMF]

Another sign. The store he bought my 3 charm necklace was closed recently.  Being renovated. Fresh start?

[CMF]

The lady who reads my cards says we are always where we are meant to be. She said she doesn't see this as the end of our story. She sees another chapter. Heal each other through friendship,  build from that. Everything happens is 3's. But I think he just wants to move on, sort his crap out, get on with life. It's what he does. He's not a deep thinker like me. Everything just is what it is.

[CMF]

Was just cleaning out a cupboard where I keep cups/mugs.  The ones I like...I only have 3 of them. The Universe is sending me strong signs. I'm anxious. How do I use them for my greater good?

[CMF]

When he went o/s I coloured my hair a different way. I'd wanted to for a while, just never did it. I wore another piercing that I have. Changes in ME. I cleaned out old clothes, finally. Donated things that I don't need ie dinner sets,  towels,  just 'stuff'. It was like him going away gave me room to cleanse. I love shopping but I no longer feel a need to buy cheap things I didn't need to make me feel better. Filling a void perhaps? All the signs are apparent .I really want to tell him all this but I don't want him to think 'good she's moving on' nor that I think he's thinking about me. He said I'm remarkable.  I want him to see he lost a remarkable woman. Maybe he needs someone not so 'deep' . Maybe it challenges him too much? Anxious feelings .

[CMF]

Little miss' dad just told me he thinks he should have her every 2nd weekend. It's a good thing but why now? Why now that I'm alone? What does it all mean? 

[CMF]

When we broke up I was thinking, thank God I have Little Miss. Now he wants her to stay there more. Why is this space being created now?