Hi everyone,I am struggling at the moment and feel I am walking a very
lonely journey as my long-term partner falls into a Bipolar episode, and
I feel unable to help him.I am not sure what I can do for him. I think
he is aware that he is changing. He...
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Hi everyone,I am struggling at the moment and feel I am walking a very
lonely journey as my long-term partner falls into a Bipolar episode, and
I feel unable to help him.I am not sure what I can do for him. I think
he is aware that he is changing. He is much more irritable, and doing
things that are very out of character for him, but more than anything he
is withdrawing away from me, being very absent, and I am finding that
very hard. We live together but he is at work / the gym a lot at the
moment, or spending 2 hours on his own at a shop instead of coming home
(and not notifying me, where as he has always rung me in the past if he
was going somewhere after work). He is avoiding people that 'he may
hurt' (His own words) by not going to social events too. He has a lot of
trouble at work at the moment, which is triggering him, along with some
episodes from my very mentally unwell episode a week ago, where she
screamed in her face. She is living with her Dad at the moment.He is not
medicated, hasn't been for a few years now and has been managing his
life very well up until now, . Happy, peaceful and content most days.
The medicaitons made him very sick, including a few that the doctors
even told him he couldn't have due to blood toxisity levels, so he went
down the root of meditation, mindfulness, therapy, etc.. And he did
really well for himself. I met him at a time in my life where I had hit
rock bottom mentally (I have PTSD from former domestic violence,
combined with anxiety and ADHD). He pulled me out of that hole, helping
me a huge amount at a time. I feel like it is my turn to give back. But
I am really struggling and it is also impacting both my mental and
physical health.My main issue is I can't seem to talk to him about
anything. If I try to bring up I am worried, or that I have noticed his
behaviour changing, and should he be going back to therapy to get help,
he just snaps at me. And with my PTSD I can't cope with that. He is not
nearly as bad as my x ever was, but it's the triggers in me. I try to
give him space but then I feel like I am losing him altogether. He has
become so absent, almost a prisoner of his mind.I miss him and I am
worried as I do not know what to do if he gets worse. He seems to be in
a depressive / hypomanic combination at the moment, what if he goes full
manic? I have never seen this in him, only heard about it from stories
from him and his mother. How do I manage that?Thank you for your help.