Meditation, Manifesting, Gratitude & The Law of Attraction

[CMF]

Hi everyone,

Not sure where to start so hope I can express myself clearly and maybe with others' input we can expand on this. I'm interested in people's thoughts/ experience with meditation, manifesting, gratitude & the law of attraction. I've recently started using the Smiling Mind app to meditate when going to sleep and sometimes when feeling a little anxious, like tonight. It is something i thought i could never do as my mind rarely stops, however, with persistence, I find I enjoy it. I guess i tend to have a negative mindset which I am determined to change.I always felt uneasy about thinking positive things as i thought i would jinx myself, and that whenever I made a positive comment or felt happy it would go wrong or something negative would happen. So i refrained from allowing myself to be too happy, I guess to 'protect' myself. Recently i have been feeling happier, stronger, expressing gratitude and taking note of when things have come to me when i needed them. Coincidence, or answers to what i put out to the Universe? I like to think the latter. A work colleague one day told me to manifest something i wanted, put it out to the universe , so I'm trying. Example, recently we needed to measure the floor space at reception so we could calculate how many people we could have in at one time. I needed a tape measure, which i did not have. At that moment our handyman walked into the office. Guess what he had? I am getting into the habit of practising positive thinking instead of thinking/expecting negatives. If something 'negative' does crop up, it can be dealt with, it's not the end of the world. I look for the positive in every negative situation. I am becoming more aware of being grateful for little things, things like getting a good car park at work, a warn cosy bed, a tidy house. I feel when i am expressing gratitude I am putting positive thoughts out into the universe and I notice more positives instead of focusing on negatives. Late last week we had internet issues at work and a colleague i found a little annoying. I've been feeling very drained, agitated, negative for a few days. This morning things were not running smoothly for me. A result of my negative mind perhaps? Little things became a big deal, my morning was crap. If i look back, it wasn't really an issue, i just did things in a different order which gave me more relax time this evening. The Law of Attraction, positive thoughts, positive experiences.

What are your thoughts?

cmf x

[CMF]

I felt i needed a new necklace.  I feel bare with nothing. I went looking today thinking I wanted the evil eye. I found one I really liked with an eye & Hamsa Hand, but I didn't want 2 charms. Really just i just wanted the hand. Just 1. 1 for just me. I ended up at the store that stuffed up my beautiful 3 charm necklace. I connected with the sales assistant immediately. I tried a few & 1 gave me a sense of peace straight away. I bought it. 1 Hamsa Hand with the eye in the middle. 5 years of our relationship,  5 weeks of his trip, 5 fingers of the hand to protect me. Hand pointing down to open me uo to opportunities. The eye to see everything,  hopefully the things i fail to see. I love it but feel a bit nervous now that I replaced my necklace too quickly. Like I've moved on. I am nervous it is 1 charm but it does have 2 symbols in one.  The hand & the eye in 1, not separate. Should I have bought the 2 charms for 2 people? I really wasn't feeling it with that one. I play with my necklace & was worried feeling 2 charms would remind me of him, us. I've taken it off for now. Am I not ready to replace his necklace?

[therising]

Hi CMF

Sounds like the Hamsa Hand was a 3 in 1 purchase (protection, power and strength), a purchase just for you. While the hand is said to represent the traditional 5 senses, it may come to hold new meaning for you, representing more so the soulful senses perhaps - the ability to see the way forward in challenging times, the ability to hear inspiration and guidance that comes to mind without thought, the ability to feel clearly without great sadness and self doubt, the ability gain a taste for that which feeds the soul and the ability to sniff out the difference between truth and lies or freshness vs expiration regarding relationships, habits and beliefs etc. Perhaps the eye may come to represent insight. Such things offer protection, empowerment and strength.

Whether the reading is correct and this time represents a redevelopment phase in the relationship you share with him or whether the relationship has run its course, the question remains 'What have I come to learn so far?'. Perhaps the answers may be 'I have learned how deeply I love compared to others and all the ways in which I love. I've learned how deeply I feel compared to others. I've learned how clearly I see the way forward (when it comes to goal setting, adventuring, the need for change etc). I've learned how clearly I hear what comes to mind in the way of guidance' and so on. From my own experience, I'd have to say I've learned a lot about myself throughout a deeply challenging relationship. It's the challenges that exercise and develop our abilities. Often, we grow through other people's resistance to growth. We bend and flex and sway. We dive deep to find answers. We travel far within to better understand and develop through greater self understanding. We are reformed over and over through deeply challenging relationships. Perhaps every 2nd weekend to yourself is an opening for more personal growth. Yoga, meditation, adventure, a course of some kind? How will you come to know yourself further?

[CMF]

Thank you for your wonderful insight as always. I felt compelled to send a pic of the Hamsa & explain whst it represented to me.  I was still still feeling I needed to express emotions with him. I was shaking & unsure, like the anniversary message. Did he deserve to know? I really need to follow my instincts. His response was 'beautiful 🥰'. (I am aware grand final entertainment was on.) Trigger. It reminded me of the anniversary message. The one word response. It reminded me I deserve more. I took it off a put it aside.  It gave me anxiety. I looked at it & realised it was too big. I am not that big person. I didn't need to make a big statement. It overwhelmed me. I had looked at a smaller one, more dainty. I returned it & swapped it over. I was unsure if I wanted a Hamsa now but the 5 things will remind me to value my worth. The fact i showed him the other one took away what it meant to me. He was not tge person to share it with. I also said i hoped he wasn't dismissing my messages as over emotional, but all i gitcwas 1 word. Hes probably trying to disengage, whether fir hil or me. I hope he's feeling bad. I need to create space & refill my cup. It is a new month, daylight savings. I will stop communicating. No more 1 word responses or thumbs up. I am more than that. I believe i have inadvertently manifested the free weekends. My son is also house sitting for a month.  I used to wonder what it would be like to be single & free. I have been clearing things out all day. Removing what I don't need in my life. Making room for  what I do need to enter. Feeling anxious now, not sure why.

[CMF]

We were going to see thr movie Past Lives last Sunday. During the week I had a feeling he may have seen it on his own after we broke up. He said yes  he went alone which I'd fine.  Funny how I knew. This is the connection thing, or maybei just know how he ticks.   I have no doubt also his sister will move out soon. 

[therising]

Hi CMF

I think people can give us direction, in one way or another. Whether it be through deeply thoughtful responses to next to no response or whether it be through loving gestures or lack of them, we gradually come to find our way. Can be so much harder to find the way at times through a lack, that's for sure. Working things out for our self can be so hard. Can feel lonely too.

The business of looking for signs, when trying to work things out for our self, can be such a tough business (especially when out of practice). Personally, I've gotten out of the habit of looking for signs. I used to love it. It always felt like a treasure hunt of sorts. Every time I'd find a sign/clue I'd get so excited. You've reminded me of something that's been seriously missing in my life. I'm deeply grateful to you.❤️ I've been trying to work out a lot of the things that have been missing in my life and that's definitely one of them. As you'd know, signs are always there, it's just a matter of being more tuned into them. Definitely need a bit of a tune up, during what has felt like a down period for some time. You've managed to raise my vibe as I reflect on your treasure hunter nature and your granted wishes for free weekends. Will take another leaf out of your book. I will start clearing/cleansing, making room for new things and feelings.

Do you think what you're feeling could be mixed emotions, regarding the anxiousness? Bit of a recipe of emotions with a dash of excitement, a dollop of uncertainty, a pinch of fear maybe, an ounce of questioning, a cup or 2 of courage etc etc. Give it a mix and your cooking with all different types of energy in motion. Sounds like what your cooking up is some serious change that I'm wishing serves you in the most brilliant and magical of ways. Wishing you so much magic 💖

[CMF]

Hi therising, 

I'm happy I've been able to raise your vibe. Yes I do think my anxiety is a mixture of things but also showing him made it ckear we are not sharing the same energy. Just like Friday nights at his house. Ir drained me. I have an urge to get rid of things that don't serve me. They are suffocating me. Lije the relationship when there were 3 of us. 'Stuff' I'm holding onto for no reason. I DON'T NEED ALOT.  Maybe being in this relationship where I didn't need alot but couldn't have what i needed, has shown me that I don't need much to be happy. Just the main things & things important to me.. In the relationship I couldn't have that one main thing. Time with him. It was all I needed to be truly happy.  Now I will continue through life with only the things I NEED. I've realised my worth.  I don't need extra 'stuff '. I will live in abundance with out all the extras that I don't need. I never felt abundant with him. I always felt 'poor', not enough money to do things  like he had be feel  poor. So did not getting what i NEEDED from tge relationship.  I didn't feel abundant at all. WOW.

[CMF]

We hadn't had any contact for over 48hrs & last night he messaged me to see how I was travelling.  It has thrown me a bit. Doesn't help it is a rainy gloomy day.  It's lowered my vibe,  I'm overthinking it. Guess the ups & downs are normal. 

[therising]

Hi CMF

To be such a feeler comes with so many challenges. All the 'pings': Feeling messages come in, feeling the weather, feeling a vibrational shift and even feeling our own thoughts. Can get pretty exhausting, all that feeling. Can be so much easier when we're feeling with others, as opposed to feeling what alone feels like.

Next level feeling can be like 'What facet or aspect of myself is leading me to feel this way?'. Is it the inner critic bringing me down? Is it the adventurer in me trying to raise me through inspiring me to add ventures, so I don't stagnate? Is it the sage in me insisting 'Everything will be alright. You just need to trust' or is it the child in me insisting 'That person's so mean and this is just not fair'? Next level feeling can perhaps be about 'Who's chatting away up there in my head, shifting my vibe?'. Have to say I much prefer to hear from the adventurer in me, the sage, the optimist, the seer (of the best way forward) and so on. The down shifters can be such a challenge. 🙂

How's the cleaning/purging going?

[CMF]

Therising, as always your words always resonate & are thought provoking. His boys returned last night. It was a trigger, knowing that excitement & anticipation of going to the airport to get them. A feeling i had a few werks ago.  I had a rough night & didn't sleep well. Maybe another shift in alignment or things leaving/entering my vortex.Realisations? I had another epiphany this morning & I feel some peace. Him messsging me threw me. It shifted my alignment with who I am or need to become. He entered my 'space' & clearly upset any 'balance'  i was starting to feel. It took my control away as i had decided to create space to allow good to enter my life. He occupied that space again. I messaged him this morning to say I hope his boys returned safely & hope that as things return to 'normal' he can find clarity & what he wants in life. I will leave it there.  No more messages for now.

I haven't been able to clean/purge much this week as I'm at work & weather hasn't been good.  Lots of rain to cleanse & wash away the dust & stagnation in the air. I have realised more I need to clean out though which is good.  Alot of people have left my life this year.  People who did not serve me a greater purpose or with whom I had some anxiety around Even him. Clearly didn't align with me. I am gaining clarity perhaps 😌 

[CMF]

I think I may have manifested the break up. All the negative feelings, wishing it were different, wanting to be free of the set up with his sister. OMG I put what I didnt want out there & inadvertently got it. It didn't align with what I had so what I had left. All the anger & frustration I was putting out, picturing the 'peace' I wanted. It has been given to me, despite it hurting.

Wow. I feel a bit nervous lol.  The Universe removed what was not in alignment with, what did not serve me. I'm understanding more how to manifest, how we really put things out there. I was putting out there what I DIDN'T want & it was removed. Maybe to open up for what i do/did want? I used to pray in church for something to change, for us to be happy.  Guess it all worked.

Something freaky happened yesterday. I used to go to a local Cafe every day with little miss. We became good friends with the owner. The owner had a good friend who also used to go in. I was single at the time & thought this guy, friend of ge owner, was an attractive man. Turns out he has a partner so that was that. We had never really spoken anyway, maybe justa hello here & there. This guy now has a young daughter with his partner at the same school as mine. I see him picking her up from after-care but have never spoken as he wouldn't remember me & there was no need really as we don't really know each other. Yesterday we were picking up our girls at the same time, he saw me & just stared. I knew he had recognised me, he asked where he knew me from. I told him from the coffee shop, over 7 years ago. He remember. He said he'd seen me picking up my daughter before but it didn't really click he knew me from somewhere. We chatted for a bit, he couldn't stop looking at me & even looked me up & down. We introduced ourselves, he shook my hand, we said good to see you. It was so weird. He has a partner/family so clearly nothing there but it was weird he recognised me after all this time as if we had known each other well previously. We didn't.  We were just 2 people in the same coffee shop. Why recognise me now? Now that I'm single.  Is it the Universe allowing things into my life now there is an opening?