Hello EJB, and welcome to the site.
We all have worries, anxiety and doubts we need to struggle with but it's completely different when you are suffering from any mental disorder as it becomes excessive when it’s persistent and uncontrollable, so it affects and interferes with your daily wellbeing and eliminates any strength and causes many problems.
There have been ups and downs while taking this medication and that's to be expected, not only do you have to adjust to the AD's (antidepressants) yourself, you wonder how it's going to affect the business but more so how your partner will handle this situation, again trying to adjust to your daily wellbeing, what he feels he should be doing and more importantly how to discuss the position you're both in.
With your partner leaving for the day is not being rejected, they have their own responsibilities and it certainly doesn't mean the love has gone, let this be the time you can begin your development into a new person, write down what you have achieved, including the negative thoughts, your psychologist would be keen to know your daily activities, whatever you can do is a learning curve.
Remember what you can now do or attempt to do might be much better than a few days ago, that's an achievement you should be proud of and it doesn't happen straight away, confidence and the ability to do what you once couldn't do is a mask improvement, step by step.
Hope you can get back to us.
Geoff.
