i could really use some company

[startingnew]

Right now id really like some company, jsut to sit with me.
i dont like asking for help but tonight i really need it
all of yesterday i spent with a sick horse trying to save her (vet treatements, mum ringing around for a vet yesterday, me ringing today and in less than 24 hr ive done over 7 hours walking- the condition she had can sometimes cure it) and today all morning since 5am until 12 today i was trying to save her again but despite the best efforts of myself, mum and the vets she sadly had to be put to sleep today. my mother couldnt handle it so i watched my horse be put to sleep stayed with her until the angels came for her and then get buried.
im completely heartbroken
and right now i really could use some company

[kanga_brumby]

We are here I can say nothing no words can convey I am just here If needed and if you need to gently punch a chafe bag only gently so you don't break anything.

[startingnew]

ok hmm its so hard to think properly. i dont really know what else to say about her.

you said maybe talk about the rides and teaching the kids....

we use to teach a few smaller kids on her just not complete beginners as she did have quite alot of cheek to her so she was the next step up. my sister rode her more than i could as she was a smaller horse and my sisters are younger so they got to ride her more than i did.

but the kids- you couldnt wipe their smiles off their faces becasue they were enjoying themselves too much.

she was 20 when she passed the rainbow bridge. i know she had a good run in life and did so much good for others. i can only hope shes resting peacefully.

[startingnew]

thank you Kanga. it means alot that your here, you dont have to really say anything

[Guest_128]

To dear Startingnew,

Im sorry I saw your post straight up and wanted to reach out to you,

What a horrific time you have had. Words just don't cut it.

its going to take time and it will never heel. But it's in your soul,you love animals and you will yet again fall in love with another.

Sorry

Later

[startingnew]

Anyone around

I struggling and i dont really know how to handle all this emotion

[Guest_128]

You poor baby ,

It is so bad for you,don't take that away.

Did you know about Dory,just keep swimming.

[Croix]

Dear Startingnew~

Yes we are here and understand.

I imagine it would have been a big blow to all in your family, how are your younger sisters? Do they need your comfort too?

Croix

[startingnew]

Its so hard Later

What am i suppose to do with it all. Just let it sit there... i tried to do that last night and my heart was pounding so hard and fast i was hoping it wasnt going to bounce out my chest.

My sisters are ok Croix but as usual everyone relies on me so if i loose it then so will they. So ive got to hold myself together

[startingnew]

Later you made that just keep swimming song come to my head and its been in there since this morning

[Sophie_M]

Hi everyone, this is a duplicate of an ongoing thread here so we're going to close it off.

There are plenty of threads in the BB Social Zone if you're looking for company, please help us keep space for newer member seeking support by using the threads you already have available rather than starting up new ones.