Just a loner

[Meep-13]

• Hello. I'm just a bit sad at the moment and don't have many people to talk to, well no one actually. I haven't had the best up bringing and not a lot of family, just my grandmother and aunty who I consider my sister, at times. I love them dearly. They have been there for me especially since my parents weren't so I honestly couldn't ask for much. But I just feel 2nd place at times. Obviously since I'm the grandchild and not my grandmother's actual child, i can kinda feel where the line is between my aunty and my uncle, who is cool but he's normally off he's head on who knows what and I only talk about video games and computer stuff with. He use to resent me because I'm his sister's daughter and she's an awful person and he saw me as a mini her, same with my aunty but she's quite younger compared to my uncle and mother,(10+ years between my aunty and uncle then my mother being 3 years older then my uncle) so she kinda just follows along with whatever my grandmother says. My aunty and I grew up like sisters and we're closer in age being 6 years difference. Anyway I just feel outa place sometimes. I did move out quite young because even tho my grandmother and aunty are pretty cool, they're just not people to live with. So it's kinda lonely and since I moved around a lot due to parent issues I never stayed at a school longer then 2 years, so never developed strong friendships. I do study but I'm younger then a lot of my study peers who I'd say are friends but nothing more out of class I guess. It's kinda hard to find good friends and people to talk to and just to have plain old fun instead of being stuck in my little granny flat Infront on a screen trying online dating apps just to hang out with someone. So I guess I'm trying this or just having a rant to hopefully a respectable place. If anyone reading this thanks for your time and maybe we can talk. Have good day/night 🙂

[sbella02]

Hey there,

Thank you so much for being so open in sharing your story with us, and we warmly welcome you to our forums. I hope you can find some comfort here.

I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling like this, that must be very isolating, especially after a long time of suffering as a result of your difficult upbringing. It sounds like you've been through a lot. 

Have you had a look around online to see if there are any local clubs or groups you could join? If you have any interests, hobbies, sports, or experiences that you hold dear to you, there may be groups around your local area where you can meet likeminded people who can offer some comfort and possibly support. There may even be some clubs at the place where you study. Part-time jobs, if feasible, can also be a good place to meet people who you can bond with. 

Would you feel comfortable chatting with a GP, therapist, or counsellor about how you're feeling? Sometimes professional support and insight can be really meaningful as well.

Online support can also be quite impactful, and there are always groups on sites like Discord and Reddit, provide you're adhering to online safety measures, where you can find common ground with people who are friendly and understanding.

Otherwise, we are always here to listen to anything you'd like to share with us. If you'd like to share more of your story, or if you need some verbal support, we're here for you.

All the best, SB

[smallwolf]

Hello and welcome to forums.

Thanks for sharing part of your story. Not sure what happened. but it sounds as though you have had a difficult upbringing. Loneliness is really hard, especially when friendships and connections haven’t had much time to grow. You mentioned you like games and computers... So do I. 

i worked with them for quite some time. Things happened and ... well, I do not so much any more.

So what are you studying?

If you wanted to chat.. .Listening...

[Meep-13]

Yeah I love playing games, even tho I'm not the greatest but I've recently just upgraded my set up so I can play more variety of games. 

I'm currently studying laboratory techniques as Ive previously completed cert 3 in pathology. My goal is to try and get into the labs but it's been a bit difficult trying to get a job in the industry. 

[smallwolf]

what sort of games? any titles you play?

Me... I play LOTRO 🙂

[Meep-13]

I love souls games. I'm currently going through and playing them all in order so I can play the new Elden rings game. 

Also been playing risk of rain 2, helldivers and peak of course. 

[smallwolf]

I had to google what soul games were. But I did have an idea! 🙂 And I was mostly right.

And on a related note... I'm from the generation where death in a game had consequences. So... staying alive was really important.

On study and lab work... just worked out that you are doing a cert IV now. Good on you. I went to TAFE to do an associate diploma (many years ago) before getting into Uni. We each have our own path here. If this is your goal, keep going and you can get there...

[Kahlzun]

You going full soulsbourne, or just sticking to the souls's?