I started hating everyone over the age of 55

[Jessksch]

I am not going to insult anyone with the word "boomer" because deep down I know not everyone is like that at that age group, but I can't help myself at the moment:

My whole life my parents have put pressure on me and stopped caring about my wants, they wanted me out of the house as soon as possible because I was the youngest and they wanted to retire. I had pressure on me to stay in the country I studied and find any way possible because I was told I was not welcome home again. So I wasted most of my years here trying to figure out a way to stay. Thankfully I have a wonderful fiance whom I've been with now for 12 years.

It may have started there, but lately now I get more and more resentful: I found out after my parents passed they had money, but they got it through doing some horrible things to our company's employees and not very legal stuff. I lost even more respect to them.

Now, I wanted to get past this, but we are having trouble with our landlord. Years ago our kitchen flooded because the upper apartment people put stuff down their drain, our systems were connected and so our kitchen flooded, destroying the old wood flooring. The boards shrunk and gaps are inbetween. I have tried and tried to talk to the real estate and they said they contact the landlord but never get a reply. Finally I saved all the emails and have enough evidence, but I am so angry at this point as everything else is so cheaply made in this apartment and falling apart.

We pay rent on time, are quiet, pay bills, keep things nice and clean and have never had a complaint from our apartment checkups, yet we do the right thing and have to suffer for it.

Not to mention we will never be able to afford a house unless we move way out, thankfully my fiance can get a job there but I would be fucked.

Then my mother in law kept saying she is worried for a war, spending so much money they have doing nothing...whereas us we probably won't even see the point of making it to 60.

At least we aren't as selfish and having children so we make the next generation suffer, but I have become selfish, I just want them to suffer that's how bad my anger is! It is all too much and I have been trying so hard to do the right thing all the time and can't seem to care about people close to me who are in that age range because of all of this! I don't want to be hateful but then I see them talk like this and I get angry again!

[white knight]

Short story-

it was 1987 at31yo. I was a dog ranger and had the horrible task of issuing parking fines as well in a semi country town. I got a complaint that a long white car was parking all day in a one hour zone and often in a disabled zone too. So I issued the measly $12 fine. Returning to my office one day my boos said firmly "ignore that white car in future". I was outraged as I was a veteran in the game and never told to turn my eyes as pensioners and unemployed had to pay them, why not this person?

So next day patrolling I noticed that boos watching me from a hill. I had a choice... I left another ticket. Hours later an argument followed and I got chest pains. I was immediately taken from my work and told by my doctor I had a heart attack. That was later found to be a misdiagnosis, it was a bad panic attack.

Eventually, fighting the bosses, I was sacked in a kangaroo court. I was right but that doesnt mean you are safe in a corrupt environment.

I had therapy at the time and learned a lot. In particular my therapist said "you are one of 8 billion people that all have shades of grey, yet you are black and white". He wasnt saying I was wrong, he was saying I could have handled it better eg told those bosses I wont patrol that street, they can.

The owner of that long white car? A local State politician... and I didnt know that till later. He had asked my bosses to let him park there.

So the reason I bring this up is the word- acceptance. This is a faulty, distorted world. Humans are imperfect, sneaky, cunning and many out to deceive for money. Morals are few. Generations act in certain unique ways compared to other generations because of the environment at the time. In my youth hippies, long hair, tattoos (how criminal lol), nude swimming at rock concerts (Sunbury) ... all these things shocked the previous generation that came from short hair, intercourse only after marriage and swimming wear that covered the next person as well.

TonyWK

[Jessksch]

This is such a wrong take, if morals are so few why go on living then? It doesn't make it at all worth it.

If anything I think maybe then with this take, humanity had a good run and we should do whatever we can to make it run out as fast as possible.

If you are saying this is how the world is, then I don't want to be in it. If our only choices are to accept this, or not, then at least give us a painless way to end it all.

[HappySheep]

If you are truly thinking this way, hit the 'immediate support ' button NOW. Or phone Lifeline or some other immediate support service.

No one here is saying it's not worth living or that there are no morals. That is your mind telling you those things. Please, get help now if that's what you're feeling.

LOOK AROUND YOU. Your state of mind is causing you to focus only on the people doing bad things. Look up from the immediate surroundings and see all the people doing absolutely wonderful things. For every evil landlord or abusive parent, there are three or four people giving their lives to help others. There is a wonderful saying I heard that goes something like: whenever you watch the news and despair, don't look at the protagonist, look at the bystanders. They may not make the news story, but for every selfish mass-shooter, you'll find the people who risked their lives trying to drag others away from the firing line. The world is full of people who go into burning buildings to rescue cats, or who devote their lives to raising orphans.

That's what we're trying to show you. There will always be evil people out there - but you cannot let them change you to become one of them or one of their victims. Look to the people who do even little things to help others. They're the people we need to spend time focussing on. Please, please, think back over this rough time you are having, and look for those moments of kindness and help.  THAT'S where the importance of the world lies.

We just never see these people because we are looking for the ones who hurt us - not the ones who help.

[white knight]

Well we are talking about negative aspect of human living. There is far more positive things that swamp our lives that media don't report. Look at your garden, watch the bees... nothing more wonderful  than that.

TonyWK 

[Jessksch]

yes, you are right. Though I still disagree there is a big problem in society at the moment, I slept on it and feel a bit better about everything. I still hope that things will change that things will be a reasonable price again, that we can just work hard and earn enough to actually save for things to enjoy life.

[white knight]

Happy sheep is right. 

My therapist said "are you thinking realistically". Being negative is a sorrowful way to live. So I attended motivation lectures and set out to disprove my perceptions. 

PROBLEM FLOWER

I sitting in the sun

I pick a daisy flower

Pick a petal for each of my woes

And count them by the hour

The as I stare at what is left

And my problems as big as a city tower

I realise all these issues

Are not as many as that flower...

For every negative thought there us a positive one if you look. Eg I can't buy a house but I have legs...

TonyWK