Hello Mocha delight, the news you had received would have been devastating, especially if there was a definite connection between the two of you, spending time with each other and joining together with the good times that only the two of you understood so we're terribly sorry that she has passed away.
Having the emotions which you have described are a normal reaction to this sad news, however, if you are suffering from depression then your response could well be that you may have a delayed way of reacting to something that you would do very quickly.
I'm not qualified to make this determination, although unfortunately, I have been in the exact situation, where my reaction to losing someone I loved was nulled until I could clearly recall what has just happened.
The way that you have tried to cope with binge eating may only be temporary because your feelings of stress and/or anxiety can be relieved by eating but eventually, you will need to talk with your GP for a referral to see a psychologist.
We are so sorry for you and hope we can hear back from you.
Take care.
Geoff.
