When you need help, but help is just too hard

[Mickii]

I guess I just wanted to ask whether other people sometimes find help makes things harder. The last couple of days have been horrible and I have at times been quite suicidual. The thing is I know to ask for help, and in the end I went to online chat with lifeline, and although there are lots of good ideas about what to do when you feel suicidual, the truth is I felt so bad it was like I just didn't have the energy to do anything about it. Tonight a friend rang to see how I was, I didn't admit to how bad I felt, because I didn't want them to feel hopeless because they couldn't change how I feel. I see my psychiatrist every couple of weeks, and I never tell her the truth because then I have to deal with it, and it is too hard.

[Mickii]

Hi Idkme, I am only randomly on these forums and just saw your posts. I just thought I would write and say I hope things have gotten better for you.

[Guest_4643]

Hi Mickii.

Yes, seeking help can make things difficult for lots of people, including me. I'm sorry that you're struggling, but just know that you seeking help is a huge step, because a lot of people unfortunately don't for many reasons, so good on you for doing that, it takes a lot of courage.

I personally have always had bad Psychologists & GP, I have a great Psychiatrist right now (first Psychiatrist I've ever seen actually). But lately I've been feeling like he doesn't want to see me anymore, he's never said that but my GP is making things worse for me, I'm looking for another GP.

But just remember that mental health is similar yet different for everyone in all aspects - therapists, treatment, meds, everything. As they say, what works for one person doesn't work for everyone.

I know how you feel about waiting ages to see your Psychiatrist, it's the same for me. I only see him now because he's the only therapist I want. Sometimes it's worth the wait, but trust me I know how hard it is to cope in between sessions, that's one reason why I joined these forums, as scared as I was, and still am a little.

I hope you find a good therapist other than your Psychiatrist, and I hope you can see your Psychiatrist more often if you'd like to. I also hope you can get support from these forums, & people in your life, like that friend who called you, that was nice of them to reach out & contact you.

Please take care, & remember, it's common but different for everyone. Seeking help is a huge achievement, & it's normally to change GPs, Psychologists, all of that. It's your decision because you're getting the treatment, & you have every right to choose who you'd like as health professionals. You have every right to express your frustrations and concerns also, if any.

I'm sorry that I can't be much help, but please know that I'll do my best to support you, and that I care. Please know that others do aswell, including people on these forums, not just those who have replied to you here.

Please take care of yourself, I hope things get better for you and you find ways to cope and get support.

Love and hugs,

Tayla