Hi, welcome
I have a relative about to enter the program. She has told me she is prepared if not successful in having a child and although thats comforting it cant be a result she would swallow lightly.
This is a traumatic time whereby, really the only answer is to reset yourself and find enjoyment in life. That could include-
- Traditional hobbies and sports
- Focussing on nephews and nieces
- Fostering a child
- An interest like travelling international or caravanning here.
Like all emotional scars they only drift away with time and that can be helped along with therapy. Therapy can highlight the positives in life eg I am bipolar, under the autism spectrum and have depression, my therapist once said "but you can walk and use tools- yes"? It hit home and it always does when I see less fortunate people on the TV. Your scars are very deep so this might not feel an advantage just now but might make sense if practiced.
My MIL had a foster son, she raised him since 3yo and now is 21. MIL passed away 3 years ago so we took on the deed. He had brought nothing but happiness to our lives. It could be something to consider because no doubt you have a lot of love to share. And adoption?
I'm not the ideal person to answer your post but I do hope I've given you something to think about. Try to be kind to yourself, life can be so hard for us we have to remember to focus on a bee collecting nectar or hold a marshmellow over a campfire to refocus the important things in life always there.
TonyWK
