My Darling Dog Will Be Euthenized Soon

Guest_1573
Community Member

I have a dear dog whom I rescued from a horrible place in May 2020. She is now 9 years old. She is the light and love of my life. Two weeks ago she seemed to be unbalanced and a long story short I have taken her to the vet 4 times since then. She has had numerous tests and ultrasounds and the vet is not giving me any answers.

In the last two days she has been lying in the bathroom which she never does. She has been having tremors and crying in her sleep. Although the vet doesn't know what is wrong they have put her on strong painkillers. When she has these she doesn't show pain but sleeps.

She is not drinking water and is very out of sorts. I feel it is time to put her out of this misery. The vet wants to do an MRI at a cost of $5000.00. I have spent $1600 at the vet in the last 9 days.

I am besides myself as I feel she has had a stroke or has a brain tumour yet the vet keeps stringing me along. At the end of the day I truly believe she is showing all the signs of a poor animal at the end of her life.

I am so torn. I barely sleep, I put her on my bed at night and she is often panting, crying in her sleep or having tremors. I am so upset and anxious and I guess I just want someone to make that decision for me. Which I know is not going to happen.

I rang my local vet and told them what has been going on (they were not aware as I had to take dear doggy to emergency vet throughout all of this). They were very kind and said to me that if I truly feel it is time to take here there anytime and they will look after her....

I am so scared that if I do this it might be too early? Yet deep down I know something very wrong is going on with her....I am falling apart. I love her so much. She had a terrible life until I rescued her. I hate life. It is so terrible and unfair.

I have been crying almost constantly daily. Please someone help. Thankyou.

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I need to be useful and help another animal. My life is totally empty without. I cry everyday for my beloved whom I lost 4 weeks and one day ago :(. The emptiness kills me. She was everywhere I was. I barely left her....I cannot even explain how much I miss her and how empty and horrible my life is now. I posted on another forum earlier as I am at the point where I don't care anymore. My life is one disaster after another. Being an older parent to an unruly 18 year old son with ZERO SUPPORT from anyone is bad enough. Losing the one soul I loved unconditionally and have ZERO SUPPORT from 'family' has almost destroyed me. I do not know what is wrong with 'people'.  

I do not know why I was born. My entire life has been one series of dramas and traumas after another....it is insane. But I do know I adore animals and will do anything I can to help them. If that is my journey I am blessed as that is a journey I am more than happy to take. I have begun that journey and I will meet with my potential (!) foster on Tuesday. I say ! as the people who love me say it will be a foster fail...as in I will keep the darling! 🙂 I will certainly do everything I can for her and any others that come my way. My life obviously revolves around my passion, care and love for dogs.

Matchy69
Blue Voices Member
I think fostering a dog will be great for you and concertante on something you really love and will get unconditional love back.The animals in our lives give us so much love and happiness that a lot of people can't show or give.I understand about being an older parent as I have an 18,y.o and a 10 Y.o and really feel my age trying to manage my son with his special needs.Maby a foster dog will be good for your son.

Dear Matchy

I a so sorry you have such issues to deal with also. I am meeting the hound on Tuesday apparently; I cannot wait. I know I need another doggy in my life. Life is empty and meaningless without.

Yes my son loved beloved and he is coping in his own way. But of course he didn't love her as I did/do. He has not experienced grief/ trauma/loss in his life as I had by the age of ten years old 😞

Thanks for responding. It means a lot.

Sending big hugs

xxx

Matchy69
Blue Voices Member
I hope Tuesday goes well and you have another dog in your life.You have so much love to give it and be so well cared for by you.I think we need to stick to the things in life that makes us happy and give us purpose like caring for a neglected or abused dog.I think this might be really good for you.

Thankyou xx

Yes I am very excited to meet with the darling little soul! I will let you know what happens!

Hi Panicmerchant,

I think it is amazing that there are people like you out there who have such a big heart and are open to fostering and giving love to those who really need it.

Please keep us updated on how you go!

Guest_1573
Community Member

I just met with my foster dog! She is absolutely sweet and beautiful and I love her already! The organisation involved are getting some gear ready and I will have her on Friday! I am so excited to give her the loving home she deserves. She will need training but that is all going to be arranged for me. She was incredibly excited to meet me and tried to give me a few kisses! Darling girl. She won't know herself when she comes here to live; talk about landing on ones' paws!

I will update once she is here. xx

Matchy69
Blue Voices Member
That's great news about your foster dog.It will be so well looked after and loved by you.It certainly is going to the right home.

Guest_1573
Community Member

My darling foster doggy is here! She is absolutely sweet and beautiful! She adores it here already; the huge yard; lots of lovely food and comfy beds...she met my teenage son and went crazy! Zoomies all over the house! She has made us so happy in such a short time!

xxxx

Matchy69
Blue Voices Member
That's great to hear.I thought another dog in your life would make you happy.It will be so loved and looked after by you.