Dear Kbet
I too am sorry to hear of the trauma and all the fall out that you’ve had to experience over such a long time. This horrible event, coupled with, as you mention, 6 other traumatic events in your life must be pure hell to live with.
I understand only too well where you experience something absolutely horrible, tragic, life-changing and it does feel like it was yesterday or last week. For me, it’s 24 years ago, but the image of it is burned into my mind and I can’t see how it will ever move from that spot.
The thing to try and do is to cope around it – with the mechanisms we must put into place so we can continue on during our lives. Some days the pain will be there and so sharp that it hurts so much, while if we can do things to keep us ‘occupied’ and moving on a slight forward projection, then the incident might hopefully be pushed a little to the back. That’s on our own side of things.
Then we take on the professional help – and that’s where they need for us to address the issue(s) and where they will try to help us cope with our lives as they are now.
Your other main issue of sleep is the troubling one – as you are obviously aware. Over all these years, that’s horrible that you’ve had to endure so much stress throughout each night. Has there been no possible help that a treating professional (gp or psychiatrist) could have assisted you with – I’m not overly talking about sleeping tablets here, but more like some kind of stress reliever or even a kind of relaxant of some sort?
Kind regards
Neil
