Can't do it alone anymore

TBella
Community Member

I ended up with PTSD 5 years ago as a result of working for an abusive, violent man, who also had leadership role in church! I also injured my neck working for him & now live with chronic pain. I was sexually abused as a child & also grew up in domestic violence- my dad a Vietnam Vet suffered with PTSD also but went undiagnosed until the 1990's

i also have 7 other medical conditions related/ connected to PTSD! I've had to deal with it alone for past 5 years as all my friends left me & ive not heard from them since telling them I have PTSD & depression! This added deep grief to the mix to deal with as well . 5 years is along time to deal with it all alone & I ve come to the point where I can't do it alone anymore. I need some support & connection!

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TBella
Community Member

Thank you Starwolf

You are so right- it really does help to understand what's going on in our bodies & brains. What's the old saying "Knowledge =Power" well I at least feel empowered, rather than helpless/hopeless, the more I understand & learn!

Thanks for the website suggestion. I shall check it out. 😀

Wishing you a wonderful & peaceful day also.

Kind Regards

TBella

i will enter a memory into the happiness thread to repay this ,but...

i have no friends and no family ,support is shaky .i'm only on here to avoid the

nightmares i've had all week. i just need to point out that no one has suggested

how to actually cope on your own in any that this person hasn't already been told.

i don't want group therapy and society scares me witless. i know i should follow my

cares and dreams and find distractions. but does anyone have anything groundbreaking

or new to say on this topic? i'd love to know. it's been 13 months since i had a visitor and

sometimes recently went months without outside contact.

i'm honestly getting closer to resignation than hopelessness that i will always be alone.

peace

Hi Rustee Nails

I totally hear you & understand what it's like to have no friends, family or support.

I also understand how frustrating it is to don't have any answers to overcoming this or it changing.

So I don't have any answers, like you I have resigned to fact I'm going to be alone forever!

Anyway I just wanted to acknowledge you & your post & let you know I understand how hard it is when you feel so alone.

Unfortunately I think more & more people are feeling like us, as the world gets more socially redundant due to digital age, social media. No one seems to know how to connect face to face anymore. It's all behind a screen.

I wish you well & hope you get answers you need. Sorry I wasn't really much help.

Kind Regards

TBella

that's ok. from your description i didn't expect you to have any answers. you're the one asking the question 🙂

i'm just piggybacking instead of making a duplicate thread because i needed some help last night,

and you seemed to be in a very similar situation. so i thought i'd ask too. power in numbers 🙂

the irony of it being the power to cope with loneliness is pretty funny.

we can be alone together 🙂

the screentime thing's a real social shutdown. i know. i used to make a decent living when forums started,

making connections i never would otherwise.it was so addictive that i knew the best time to be online in

europe, usa and asia and then i'd be online for the opposite times aswell so i could buy off ebay with

less competition.i've never slept normally so 6 trips to the net caf a day wasn't a big deal.

but years later when it had all wound down with so many people accessing the net that it was diluted

and sniping software in china or america always beat my early 21st century Oz internet cafe connections...

i realized i had thousands of people who i all talked to as if they were my friends,

i knew their quirks and usually alot about their family and lifestyle,

but in all that time i knew less than 0.001% of them by face.

(do you remember that sweet sweet time before selfies .)

then when my wife was sectioned i had literally no one.

so yeah,Anyone else got answers for the antisocial ?

is there a bridge anywhere round here

where those who don't play well with others can meet under?

is this it?

my only suggestion is camping festivals and big gigs where you know there's gunna be energy.

everyone ending up legless tired and smelling the same as the stranger standing next to him.