When buttons get pushed

[Speak Your Truth]

Can anyone help ? My buttons have been pushed to the point of bringing on severe anxiety. Does anyone think this is curable ? I am desperate to feel relaxed and at peace again and to be able to enjoy my life. I don’t know how to cope

[Speak Your Truth]

Birdy the sunshine 🌞 you sent me arrived - thank you so much 😘 - it’s been a perfect 👌 day weather wise. Here the weekend it was “mixed” but thankfully 😅 not “feral” as it was for you. Cold nights but when you’re tucked up warm in bed it doesn’t matter. The weather seems to be up and down and all over the place lately, so in spite of forecasts we never really know what will turn up in the days ahead, so don’t know what tomorrow will bring,

Family dysfunction 😤 at its finest eh ? Sorry to hear that, but at least you are “many hours drive away” - what a relief for you !!! Well family dysfunction is on its way to me soon in the next few weeks - I haven’t got date/s yet. Why is it, do you think, that family - who we need so much (or at least I do) - are about the most difficult relationships we can have ? It baffles me.

I’m still not feeling very talkative really Birdy - still have the “so over it all” feeling - in these forum posts I’ve vented so much I think I’ve run out of things to say without repeating myself. Have I already said that too ? My days are so quiet and boring and totally lacking any level of intellectual stimulation - I do need at least some intelligent thinking and verbal conversation - it’s difficult without.

I had coffee at a cafe sitting in the fresh air and sunshine today and then had a 3/4 hour massage so that has been the highlight of my day.

Your day today has to have been better than yesterday - did you get to the beach ? Apart from yesterday’s trip are you feeling better than you did a few days ago ?

Thanks for saying you will always be there to listen Birdy - that’s nice to know and I appreciate it that you did. I do wonder though why you are the only one to answer my posts for some time now.

Until next time Birdy - SYT

[Speak Your Truth]

I’m a misery today. I think I haven’t been very talkative lately because I’m getting even more depressed.

its frightening to feel so bad - I feel so incredibly alone dealing with this

i do try but I don’t manage well to cope with it - it all feels so much stronger than I am, than I can cope with

[Birdy77]

Dear SYT 🌞🍁🍂🍃

Sending you some autumn sunshine to cheer up your day.

Sorry you are feeling like misery today 😞 I am hauling myself out of a big deep hole this morning. I have been feeling wretched ... no I didn't get to the beach the other day, but I really hope to this afternoon. My serenity has been hijacked in the garden, they are building a house in the block behind us and there are builders "right there" when I look up from my veg patch. Boo 👎👎👎

Your cafe visit and massage sounded lovely! I haven't been for a massage in 4 years! Is that something you treat yourself to regularly?

What can you do today SYT to bring a sense of wellbeing to you? Does your furry friend want to have a picnic outside in the sun?

Sending cheery vibes your way SYT, hope you can catch some of them.

🌻birdy

[Speak Your Truth]

Thank you for the autumn leaves and sunshine Birdy - lovely 😊

How are you now Birdy ? I hope you’ve been able to leave that black hole behind you.

up and down, up and down, up and down - the story of my time for too long now. Today I spent a big part of it either sleeping or totally lacking motivation or energy. I have been low before, but never as bad as this. I really wish I could understand it.

[Birdy77]

Hey SYT 🌞

Sending sunshine, it's miserable weather here though. Which is a pain, we have a friend staying this weekend and wanted to go maybe for a picnic at the beach, but looks like it's a washout. Oh well ...

Sorry you're feeling so blah ... I know the feeling. I'm ok, but have been feeling really crappy too. I don't have much time sorry SYT, but wanted to send you an encouraging word or two ... have you seen the movie Infinitely Polar Bear? I think I mentioned it earlier to you, you might like it.

Talk soon SYT.

🌻birdy

[Just Sara]

Dear SYT;

I finally found your thread! No, Birdy's not the only one who thinks of you ok. (Hey Birdy! Waves and salutations ✌️)

When I read you weren't getting very many responses on your thread in Unbelievers 'Is depression a result of an insane world?' I thought I'd pop in and say hello, but finding it was a bit of a trial. The search function didn't act as I'd hoped and gave 3000 responses to the words; speak your truth. None of which were about you.. 🙄

Persistence does pay off though and here I am after manually going thru every section thread by thread. 👀👍 Once this post registers you'll be on my list of threads so I won't have an issue finding you again ok. 😊

I'll have a read of your first page to catch up and be back to see how you're travelling. I saw you'd posted somewhere an hr or so ago so I'm gathering you're around the traps and hope you see this post pop up.

Yes, stimulating conversation's a must when life turns gloomy. Hope I can satisfy your yearning even though it's not face to face lovely.

See you soon..

Sez 🌺

[Speak Your Truth]

Gee Sez that’s so lovely of you, thank you so much.

Birdy is a wonderful support and I am so grateful to you Birdy if you are reading this.

at some stage I said to Birdy that I wasn’t very talkative because I just feel like I’m going around in circles with this depression/anxiety thing and i would just be repeating myself. I’m so sick of it. I’m so fed up with feeling and thinking this way, and yet I don’t know how to stop it. I’ve read so many posts with really good ideas, advice, suggestions etc and find it so difficult to put them into practice. So here I am again still going in circles and repeating myself.

i feel like I need someone to either give me a big kick up the bum, or preferably take me gently by the hand and lead me through, but of course neither option is going to happen.

i have had depression before but never for as long as this (months). I don’t know how long you’ve been dealing with it Sez, or why, but there are people on this thread who have had it, and still do, much worse and for much, much, much worse reasons than me, and for a very long time and they are still dealing with it. I don’t know how you, or they do it. It scares me to think of this going on for the rest of my life. I don’t know how I will cope with it before going completely nuts.

thank you so much Sez for being here.

[Birdy77]

Hey SYT 🌞 (waves to Sez 👋),

Of course I'm reading along SYT, I always wait to see if you've posted. I care for you.

It's good to hear you back on your thread, sorry I couldn't give you what you needed at the time.

Sez is in a league of her own!

But I'm always here for a cuppa and a gentle chat whenever you want that.

Happy Friday both.

🌻birdy

[Speak Your Truth]

Hey Birdy - YOU are definitely in s league of your own !!! How could you think otherwise - please don’t.

and why do you think you couldn't give me what I needed at what time ? It puzzles me you said that. In our short acquaintance you have always given me so much and I thank you from the bottom of my heart.

[Just Sara]

Hi again lovely and waves back atcha Birdy! (Thanks for the compliment too hun. Awe..)

I'm going to get straight to it as there's been 4 pages of distress from you and I want to be as helpful as I can ok.

Firstly, you've asked many times; "Is there someone there who can talk with me?" This forum unfortunately has its drawbacks and this is one of them. Real-time conversations are difficult to achieve, but if you register on Sane Australia, their forum allows for these types of conversations. I'm a member there and every now and then I pop in for a chat to rest from the seriousness of here. (Including my own)

They have a great array of social and fun threads to join in with and people who become close friends as well. In real-time! 🙂 I feel it may introduce you to a more informal online connection than here. And; you can add images and video's to your posts as well.

Please don't feel I'm pushing you out the door! I'm looking forward to supporting and encouraging you. My suggestion's due to your need to connect in real-time, that's all.

The other thing I wanted to mention, was you asking for stories of recovery. I'm full of 'em! I've come from having a broken brain 4 yrs ago, including psychosis and hospitalisation, to where I am now. That means I'm doing really well ok.

My journey's been tough yet enlightening, so passing on what I've learned is a passion of mine; spreadin' the lurve! I have an arsenal of anecdotes, info and references, so pick my brain anytime you want lovely.

I'm happy to join you here along with Birdy; I think we might just have some fun too while we're at it hey? 😄

I look forward to talking again soon;

Warm thoughts;

Sez x

NB.. just wondering if I could call you something other than SYT. It's a bit impersonal. What do you think? It doesn't have to be your real name ok. Something short, relevant to you and easy to remember. Sez