Thank you Grandy - it’s so lovely to hear from you, thank you so much for your kindness and the beautiful broach. I will treasure that Grandy.
I feel really bad though, because when expressing my quite profuse thanks to Birdy and Sez I have, without meaning to, excluded other people, including you, who have been so kind to respond to my posts. This was absolutely not my intention. I am so very grateful to everyone - thank you all.
As I guess you and everyone else knows, when we are very stressed with whatever problem brings us to these forums, our thoughts and memory become a blur, we forget, we don’t think clearly, we are confused, exhausted, overwhelmed - basically quite a bit of a mess. That’s been me so much for too long. I’ve been very fearful about where all this might take me and what my future is, all quite frightening.
Its evening now and I’ve continued to have a good day. I’ve got all fingers and toes crossed that I wake up feeling at least as good again tomorrow. It will be hard to face if I slide back a long way.
I’ve done a couple of things differently today. The first thing was not to sit where I often do when I get up in the morning - maybe make a cup of tea or some breakfast or go straight to the iPad while sitting on my big sofa which I stretch out on. It makes it so easy for me to slide down on the sofa, get way too comfortable and end up there for hours or falling asleep for perhaps 2-3 hours more. Then so much of the day is wasted and I feel ‘hungover’ from too much sitting/lying about or too much sleep.
I also put the radio on this morning, tuning in to a program that I liked. Usually I just have silence because I don’t like any ‘noise’ but somehow today was different. Tonight when it got dark I listened to relaxing classical music instead of turning the tv on. Oops that makes three different things I did today.
Because I’ve feel like I am fighting for my very survival I’ve been working hard at trying to understand what’s going on in my head and sorting out my thoughts. A few days ago I started to feel angry with myself which is probably why I said to Sez I need a good kick up the bum and Birdy is the one who has led me gently by the hand, so I’ve received both. I think my subconscious had been taking all the posts in and helped pushed me on, all of which has really helped. I had already been tapping (the Emotional Freedom Technique) and doing a lot of reading on other websites too.
Out of characters now Grandy, so bye for now. Cala
