Thinking about death.... all the time...

[Guest_1643]

Hi all

I've been struggling for 3 weeks with suicidal thoughts

My new GP is amazing

He tells me to think of suicidal thoughts as a symptom maybe a solution

Could he be right?

Today he assigned someone to give me a call to check in on my safety. I don't think that will happen. I've not received the call.
Small things like this lead to rage, hurt and fear for me.

And so I am left to deal with the thoughts alone.

[Guest_4643]

I see my Psychiatrist through Telehealth, it's good because you can stay home and do it, but I'd like to meet my Psychiatrist in person. I have no choice though because he's in NSW & I'm in VIC.

[Guest_1643]

Hi Hanna,

thanks so much for caring

there's been a lot of anxiety lately but i remind myself it's such a tough time of year... i guess it's too be expected

thanks for the lovely hugs from ur pup.. i'm sure Sam gives a lot of ppl a good smile when they see him. His picture alone is so extremely cute

[Guest_1643]

Hey Katy,

ur so caring and uplifting here, thanks for ur encouraging message! It isn't easy keeping well. Seems its common sometimes to have a bit of an odd encounter with a helpline...

I'm a bit upset about how it all went last night as I felt a bit victim-blamed and misunderstood... basically told to "get over it" - I'm not sure that

[Guest_1643]

.... was so what i needed to hear , so I got a bit put off. I called afterwards and lodged a complaint about the service... so not me... but I was pretty upset.

This time of year is a bit lonely for me which is triggering. I've often spent New Years alone and loved it - chosen it - but this year it is a bit upsetting.

[Guest_4643]

I'm really sorry to hear that Sleepy. I remember once on a helpline, I always use the web chats because I don't like using the phone, I waited ages at night and I got this rude person. I asked to speak to somebody else and they said "you get me and that's it, put up with it!". Very rude.

[Guest_1643]

Hi Tayla - I feel very awkward on the webchats usually.... but sometimes i can see the appeal of it. That's good that u asked to be transferred.
I have been told for example if you get a male who answerss the phone - and for whatever reason ur issue is sensitive or u want to speak to a female - u could ask for that - but I don't know if they really do that and have never requested it myself. I just hang up usually if I feel that I don't gel with the person.

[Guest_1643]

Hi Delectable - how are u? That's great advice. I have used telehealth and only just started attending in person. Did you like Telehealth better?
Thanks for the tip about asking the GP about the women's centres. I forget that I can use them for resources and spend so much time researching on my own. It's good to use the gps productively. I do have a session this week wit a replacement Gp

[Guest_4643]

I've asked for that too, I don't mind who I speak to as long as they're polite. Some of the helplines just make me uncomfortable. I think Lifeline have been one of the best for me personally on the webchats, but I know it's not for everybody. I haven't used the helplines for ages due to the fact I get told to go away most of the time even before I've spoken to somebody, and if I say I'm suicidal. I'm not right now but if I am. I also write I'm safe but I still don't get through much so I hang up the chat most of the time. And the wait times are way too long, I understand with COVID etc but honestly

[Guest_1643]

Hey Tayla I know the feeling

I'm saying this to u and myself as well as I need to hear it -but still - good on u for reaching out and trying

giving things a go.

I've never asked to speak to anyone else I think i just get over it and hang up at times... my friend suggested I do that and it just is when I'm too tired.
I'm glad you find Lifeline helpful but sorry you haven't had an overall good experience with the helplines.

It's very hit and miss.

[monkey_magic]

Hi everyone,

I've been using chatlines for years. Mainly one and I find it really good. I've only had a bad experience a handful of times and they're usually quick to answer.

I've had some really stand out people that I've spoken to and it's meant a lot to me that they've been so uplifting and supportive.

I also have hung up on them if I've wanted to speak to a female or if I've felt the person lacked experience. I feel bad doing that as well.

I highly recommend them to be honest. They've made me feel less alone and valued.

It's also given me the chance to speak up and be heard by someone anonymous. The beauty in that is it won't be shared to people I don't want knowing my personal business.