Oh Sleepy HUGE HUGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Huger and longer than that!!!
I'm SO PROUD of you!!!
You're amazing, you really are.
Lifting this depression you're feeling is darned HARD work! But you're DOING the work. Seriously even preparing food to eat and getting some sunshine is really hard work but you can do it!
I thought of what you told me once... about what Kristen Neff says.... remember?
To hold your own hands.
Confession time.... I found this really triggering to try to do. Listening to Kristen's soft kind and gentle voice reminds me of you. She soothed my troubled mind. You do too.
So I couldn't easily hold my own hands. Instead I got some hand cream and massaged my own hands. Then held them and cried my eyes out.
I asked myself WHY was this so hard to do?
Sure for me it was about self-worth and darn it Sleepy if OUR self worth should be from whatever our parents did, didn't do or who they are.
No.
That's NOT who we are.
YOU ARE AMAZING.
I can't believe you've had so many interactions with your mum.... that's heavy and really mind-effing stuff. You've shown ALOT of courage doing that.
I know you should have your stuff back and your parents aren't good with you getting your stuff back. Perhaps that's showing them more steps of yours towards separating from them?
They will not want that.
But it's not about what THEY want.
This is YOUR journey and you're DOING it!
The huge steps towards your own MH is about doing what you're doing... getting a good GP TICK!
Getting therapy TICK! Making meals TICK! Calling helplines TICK! Getting sunshine TICK! Taking time out TICK! Getting to your group TICK! (Gosh you're doing alot lol!) Saying NO when you need to TICK! Getting boundaries in place TICK!
Sleeping in your swish new linen TICK!
If you can't hold your own hands now, let us hold your hands!!
You held mine when I needed it, you caught me when I joined and haven't left.
This means more than the world to me Sleepy.
Only ideas but I'll put them out there for you.... the Women's Health Centre nearby you could be open... I joined their mailing list to see what was on there.
Community Gardens are usually always open and the food growing there is for you too.
Take a bag to put some yummies in if you like! I'll try to get anyone interested in growing food, mainly because that journey changed my life.
Love you lots!
EMxxxx
