Taking antidepressents for the first time tomorrow morning.

[Cesca1557]

Hi,

Im not really sure why im posting this but Im feeling really unsure about taking medication tomorrow. I have had depression for about 7 years, but at the beginning my mum thought i was too young (i was 12-13), and its only now that I have finally decided that I need something else to help as I cant seem to make myself happy on my own.
I am really hopefull for what the antidepressents will do, but I am also really worried. My father has bipolar, and I am really worried that by taking them, it could trigger it in me. I dont have bipolar my self, but due to the genetic predisposition to it and the increased chance of getting it as my dad has it, im really worried that this might be enough to set it off.
As much as I want to be happy, if it risked me going through what he has gone through and put us through over the years, I wouldnt do it.

Sorry, im not really sure what the point of this was, I think I just wanted to vent a little bit.

Cesca

[startingnew]

your not feeling great because of the stress of the exams Cee, you also lost your grandfather and ahve other stressors too

try to get up and do something, it might help. i understand wanting to lay around and thats all good and well but sometimes getitng up and going for a walk or getting outside can be like a refresher.

you can only do as best as you can, i know marks mean alot but try not to stress to much. if your application goes through and gets approved they mgiht still have those overall percentages worked out as you ahd outlined here before

hugs and hugs

xoxox

[Cesca1557]

hi everyone,

yea its hard to describe the feeling, part of me feels numb but the other just feels sad.
i left dinner after about 5 minutes today because i just felt frozen and couldnt sit there and pretend to be okay and talk to everyone.
im going to try to get to bed early tonight and hopefully i wake up feeling more refreshed and better.
ive moved my GP appointment forward to Friday, so hopefully we will adjust my ads then

in regards to what you said sn, i walked to uni and home thismorning which was about an hour all up. then i was going to go for another walk this after noon but it started bucketing and by the time it stopped it was dark and i didnt feel like walking around at night.
ive got my boxing class on tomorrow night which i havent been able to go to for two weeks as the one of hte weeks i was interstate for the funeral, and the other i was really sick still. looking forward to it as it helps to relieve stress and get any anger or frustrations out.

thankyou all for the support

i promise i will be posting on all of your threads tomorrow morning, i would do it now but i want to write a proper response and dont feel like i will be able to right now

thankyou again x

[Cesca1557]

my minds feeling much clearer now! pitty its at almost 11pm when i should be getting ready for bed haha and not in the morning when i have the whole day ahead of me. will stay up an hour or so later and get a bit more done though as dont want to waste it. but hoping that it carries on to tomorrow as well so i can smash out some study and cram as much in as possible:)

currently learning a lecture about the adaptive responses the pathogens in the body which is quite interesting, and its good because we have learn bits of it in year 12, then first year uni, so this is just a harder more complicated version. but the basics i still remember (or atleast im remembering when im going over it) so its not like i have to learn a whole new topic for this particular lecture. thats one of the reasons i did choose to learn it tonight, cause i knew it would be easier than starting something from pretty much scratch, which i can save until tomorrow 🙂

[KMTE]

Hey cesca sorry I haven't posted in a while. I've been a bit up and down and then I went on our annual family holiday. I've tried to catch up a bit on your thread it seems you've had a bit of an up and down time yourself. I really hope the doctor can fine tune your ads you don't seem to be getting much out of them. And I hope that uni gives you a special consideration. Just think the end of the school/uni year is almost here. That's how I try to think anyway. With two young kids and a very busy schedule that with everything going on with my mental health I struggle to keep up with, I'm looking forward to 6 weeks with out packing lunches and playing taxi and early mornings and all our school term commitments. I hope things take a positive turn for you soon. Thinking of you

[Cesca1557]

Hi KMTE,

So lovely to hear from you again, was wondering how you were doing the other day! how was your holiday? hope it was relaxing

Yes its definitley been a bit up and down but im hoping im on the up soon 🙂

thankyou! yes im looking forward to the holidays, 7 weeks and im all done.

Im sure it is so hard when you have so many other people relying on you! I just have myself and its hard enough so i dont even know how youre doing it 🙂

thinking of you too

[startingnew]

Hey Cee


I hope your feeling abit better today and that you enjoy your boxing class tonight.
I use to do boxing, maybe I should take it back up again when ive recovered.
Im glad your taking care of yourself by removing yourself from stressing situations and also by bringing forward your gp appointment as well.

[Peppermintbach]

Hi Cesca,

Sometimes a clearer head comes at the most unexpected hour...it must have been a welcome change to have that sudden burst of energy and motivation 🙂

If I remember correctly, you had an exam today? I hope that went as smoothly as possible...

Sorry, I missed your longer post on my thread (will respond properly to it later this week). I appreciated it a lot and I LOVE Meg Mac's "Low Blows" too!

I've listened to her latest album and "Low Blows" is definitely my favourite of all the songs 🙂

Well wishes,

Pepper xoxo

[Cesca1557]

Hi pepper,

yes it was definitely welcomed, even if it wasnt at the best time! 🙂
and yes i did have another exam today, it went okay, better than the one on monday which was suprsing as i had been able to revise more for the one on monday.

but now that they are both done, my application for consideration is able to be processed so will hopefully find out in the next week or so what they decide.
No thats fine! because it was a long post, it was only posted this morning
yes i love low blows as well, love her voice and love this new album 🙂

thanks for popping over, i know you are having a hard time at the moment so it means a lot

thinking of you

x

-c

[Pysis]

Hi c

sorry i haven't been around much I'm just trying to figure some stuff out.

hope your ok

Nath

[swtpotato]

Hey c,

It seems like things are looking up a bit compared to how they were before. I really admire your determination to study as much as you can as soon as you feel up to it to take advantage of better moods. It sounds like you are definitely studying the right thing, you are still excited about it/interested in what you are learning even when feeling very low. That’s great!

Hope you are managing okay, the numbness is a very difficult thing. Hard to fight something that feels more like a deep absence of vitality (can’t think of a better way to phrase that rn). How to fight a symptom that literally takes your ability to fight? Not sure.

It sounds like you are coping th best that you can, and I’ll be here encouraging you to keep going!

m xxx