I know he can't last much longer...that's the part that's killing me. I've advised the man what to do, he is very cooperative - would be better if I were in the area, and handy to rush there if ever anyone sees him. I have done all I can - ringing the appropriate places, agencies, ads, photos etc. I am amazed at the turn of events. with him turning up in this man's backyard....God knows where he had been all these weeks.
As Croix said "Life just won't leave me alone will it?" Would you believe in the middle of all this, was driving home and in my suburb yesterday, saw my ex walking along the footpath - was a distance away but I knew exactly where he was going next so I actually changed direction so he would see the car and perhaps give a wave, stop to talk. Why?
I don't want to get back together, and wouldn't even expect him to be sympathetic or understanding. He is one of those who would say "Oh give it a break Moon, it's only a bloody ..........." you;re being a Drama Queen! but his attention was diverted to something else and he never saw me drive past.
You know, all I would have wanted was to say "Please hold me, just hug me, even touch my hand". I was so in need of someone's arms around me in comfort, I was that desperate.....perhaps a good thing he didn't see me I guess.....would have only made me feel worse I suspect, in the long run....I am so sick of all this. Croix I so wish "life would leave me alone". I am so tired with nothing inside except pain and emptiness and feeling of unbearable Helplessness!!!
