It's like a feeling just bubbling up to the surface. It's panicky and disgusting and I dont' know what to do with it. There's no thoughts associated with it. It's a feeling. A really gross one. I called the Suicide Call Back service. I didn't find them helpful. What do you do? What helps you?
I'm sorry it's a sad day for you. Perhaps it's actually better you are busy... Iike what Paws has said about Zea. She wouldn't have wanted you to be miserable.
Thanks for the support. The day went ok with a few tears.
Tomorrow I have another big meeting with my three prac supervisors. I felt so sick I hardly slept last night, then was anxious all day today. By the time I knocked off and went to uni to get some tech support I felt ragged. The woman said “are you ok? Because you don’t look ok”. Lol. I’m not surprised.
Fingers crossed tomorrow goes ok. Can’t wait til it’s over!
Oh lass I'm so sorry you are struggling so much... I hope you can manage some sleep tonight... one thing I have noticed is how often you think you have done badly & you are always so surprised when it turns out you actually have done well... try to keep that in mind lass... the important thing is you have done the best you can...
I will keep an eye out here lass if you need to talk
Thanks so much for your supportive posts which I read but was too tired to reply to. 2/3 supervisors attended the meeting, which went ok. They seem to feel I’m on track to pass and asked what my plans are for when I finish. The answer: REST!!!
Today - housework, decluttering, thesis, potting plants. Phew! But the sun is shining gloriously ☀️☀️☀️
Yayyy... that is great news... the end is in sight now lass... then you & Stormy can spend the summer out & about relaxing at the beach or where ever...
