Not in a good space

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

It's like a feeling just bubbling up to the surface. It's panicky and disgusting and I dont' know what to do with it. There's no thoughts associated with it. It's a feeling. A really gross one. I called the Suicide Call Back service. I didn't find them helpful. What do you do? What helps you?

[Hanna3]

Hi. Katy

We have sleet here today. It was brisk walking weather this morning!

I made a chicken and mushroom casserole and froze it in portions - very yummy and cheap to make!

You did finish your degree it's only the Hons that you might not finish. That's not the end of your chances to study further if you want to.

We have a covid case in a little town not far from here. Bummer. My second shot isn't due for a couple of months yet. So I haven't got much immunity. Trying to stay outside as much as possible.

Looked at tablets in the good guys this morning - would like a small one as well as my laptop but I need another hundred dollars to get the laptop fixed - it cost me that much yesterday to get the problem diagnosed.

I'm tired of being poor!!!

💟🙂🐾🏂🎿🍵⛄

[Guest_1643]

lol definitely not worth it for a pea pod

honors is such a tough year, hang in there katy, im sorry its so hard

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

Finished my lovely book. What a joy to read. That’s 2/2 on Obama recommendations 😄

I had to google sleet. Sounds horrible! Cold and rainy here. It’s never ending and so odd.

I need to pass my prac still to get my degree. I could write a great thesis and not end up with a degree. That would be odd. Still, day at a time as EM advised. Wise woman that one 🙂

I’m going to attempt to get back to GROW tomorrow and see if I can get back on track!

Thanks as ever for the understanding and encouragement x

[Hanna3]

Hi. Katy

How are you travelling? I hope you make it to the Grow meeting.

I got extra books from the library today in case of a lock down here.

Any news about your prac?

Best wishes! 🌸🎶🌼🐕🌿🌷🏵️🦠💟

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

Hi Hanna

I was just sharing my excitement in the gardening thread about picking my first peas! Yum!

Good idea about the extra library books. It sounds like the virus is close to you. That’s a worry. Have you also stocked up your pantry? I guess that’s hard on a budget. Darn money! It’s good you’ll be able to fix your laptop and not too expensive by the sounds. I had to have the hard drive replaced on my last one.

I sold a heap of books today. I normally just take them to the Salvos. Got all excited about buying new shoes with the money until the car rego bill arrived in the mail. Ouch!

I’ll start prac in August now if I can manage. Need to get in a good mental space prior. A few hours to psych myself up for GROW! Hope I can do it 🙂

Sorry to hear they’ve moved your music lessons too. You’re right - arts are not prioritised, despite, as my supervisor pointed out, that’s what’s kept us sane during the pandemic. Hmph

Did you chat to the friendly librarian today? Nice to have that socialisation even if she isn’t keen for coffee, right? I’ve felt a bit lonely today too - more incentive to try get to GROW!

Hugs n pats 🤗

[Paw Prints]

Hello Katy,

Congrats on picking your first peas!!!... yayy!!!... they are very yum just out of the pod... not such good news about your Kangaroo Paw... I wonder how much the extra wet cool weather you have been having this year contributed to it not lasting... when I think of WA plants I think of them needing warm dryish conditions...

I will keep fingers & paws crossed you make it to GROW... try to remember how it wasn't as scary as you feared last time...

I hope the weather clears for you & Miss Stormy to get out & about

Hugs

Paws

[Hanna3]

Hi Katy

Will reply properly later but good luck with the Grow meeting!

Yes virus very close here..

Glad you've got another prac opportunity!

Laptop repairs will cost a couple of hundred... Eeek.

Chat later hugs 💖🐕🍀

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

I made it to GROW and it was very very horrible and I came home and wanted to (suicide). Went for a drive to get away from myself (?) and who am I driving behind when I really really could have done with someone to care about me? Always. Always. My life is stupid.

[Sophie_M]

Hey Katy,

Thanks for reaching out,

We're sorry to hear your session with GROW was horrible. Do you feel comfortable sharing more about this experience with us? We can imagine you must be feeling so disheartened at how poorly this first session has gone. 

We've sent a private reply to check in with you. 

[Paw Prints]

Oh Katy lass...

I'm so sorry the Grow meeting was so terrible for you... lass do you want to talk about it???... or even something completely different... I'm here & listening for you...

Lass I will keep popping in to check on you (no pressure for you to reply)

Paws