Dear Essen;
This is my last post for the day as I'm worn down. NO...not by you silly duffer! Please go to my thread and read my reply to you ok. You don't have to post if you don't want to.
What I wrote above are points that helped me recover by learning new ways to communicate. It's meant to teach you what I've learned. You haven't said anything nasty or insensitive ok.
Number 8 is what I still say to myself when I'm feeling helpless. I can't control anything except what I say or do. I remind myself of this often so I don't go off the deep end with worry. I want you to feel that relief; that's all.
You're a courageous and vital young woman who just doesn't know it yet. I wasn't wanted at birth either, but I'm here, so people need to get used to it. I'm not allowing myself to feel guilt. Been there, done that. But no more! This is how you can feel if you want it bad enough. You've got to do the work is all.
Do as I've asked and print it out. Read it to yourself and try to think of situations you might use to change you, not them. Please stop saying "I can't!" They're absolutely toxic and defeatist words. I know you can do it princess.
You've done nothing wrong. I'm here for you and I know you've shared mighty love with me this week. So do the same for yourself and make me proud.
Hugz...Sara xoxox
