Not coping after disclosure

[startingnew]

Please help me. Im really struggling.

last night i disclosed something that ive kept with me for 2 years now. Im already struggling with ptsd anxiety and depression but the event that i disclosed also comes under ptsd.

I rang a hotline and the first time in 2 years ive spoken about it and im so embarrassed and ashamed. I hate myself and blame myelf for it. And im terriffied! !

[Just Sara]

Hey hun;

Yes, memories can act like a link on a computer screen; one thing leads to another each time a button's pressed.

For many yrs I was extremely sensitive to key words or phrases that reminded me of bad experiences. It's taken me quite a while to turn it around. Each time I'm triggered by terms/words, my mind begins to wander, so I'd say out loud; "No, not going to happen" and move away from the spot I was standing or sitting in. Catching myself in the process was the first hurdle. It worked!

So these days, the temptation to engage in triggering memory mind games is nearly gone. It works for my detached mind, though for flashbacks, you might want to speak with your psych first as I developed this tool specifically for me.

Kind thoughts;

Sara x

[startingnew]

thank you Sara

im still learning alot about stopping it in its tracks

starting to get sick of therapists though

this will be my 4th therapist since december

[startingnew]

i had a psychologist to start with but it was casuing so many dramas with my mum it was actually making me more worse from the continuous arguments from going and still not supporting me even though ive changed. then i started with a new psychologist and had 2 sessions with her and she said to get into the suicidal prevention program so thats where ive been for the past month and the rest of this month as i only get two months in the program so thats the third cousnsellor and as i pay a heap for my psychologist and i dont really get that mcuh from the medicare rebate its really expensive for me and as i only have 4 sessions left this year for the rebate scheme so then ill be going once a fortnight if i can afford it as then ill be paying the full amountso im trying to find someone who can specialise in what i need but who is slightly cheaper. i was told by my counsellor today there is a free program that i get another 12 fress sessions with a psychologist if i pass for elidgability but my psych is 100 percent sure that ill get in as shes had people less severe than what i am and they got in. so now i have to either find another psych or try to go through this other program and keep saving

I dont know what to do

[startingnew]

i dont know what to do

[startingnew]

Panickng panicking

Freaking out

Panicking

I dont know what to do!

[Just Sara]

If you see this, please go straight to your 'Ladies' thread. I've left a post for you.

Breathe steadily to get thru each moment; one at a time if necessary. Talk soon...Sara x

[startingnew]

yes Sara ive just seen that post 🙂

but there is also another problem as well

anyone good at studies? ive got now 5 weeks lefts until my final exam and doing revision everyday. ive got a calander set up and with 19 topics to cover im trying to be as thorough as i can but im falling behind by like 4 topics. im hoping to god i can catch up today

any tips?

[startingnew]

i did reply on the other thread but its been closed off 😞 but do you mind still answering those questions on here as its all related

hopefully the Abyss jumps over to here and Simona as well

[Just Sara]

Dear SN;

You've been doing so well! I'm sure you can time manage fine if you focus on what's necessary. I can't tell you what to do, but will support you to do this for yourself; I know you've got it in you.

Prioritising time and activities can help to sort thru your dilemma. I wish you luck with it hun. Hoping you're dealing with your other problem too.

I must run, got a big day today.

Hugs...Sara

[startingnew]

Ive just got out of my gp
They think its a leaking vein. The plan is to watch it for 2 weeks to notice any changes then do more tests.
They gave me a cream for my acne as its extremely bad and wont clear up no matter what i do
Due to my pasts they want to do tests and pap smear oh gee great!
They also want bloods done too
And my constant headaches could be from my new meds so we just reducing it and seeing what happens

I disclosed about my SA as well and that it was penetrative so thats why they wants tests done but also said being nearly 21 i could start having them then just as routine anyway unless finding something