In so much pain because of mood swings (Schizoaffective).

[Simona]

Hello.  I never thought I would be posting here because being sad is just not me.  And my psychologist is not responding and i don't know  what else to do.  And i know night time is coming again and I'm scared

Because i am in a very lowly way and i can only manage short burst of sleep like naps.  My head hurts so bad and i can't stop thinking.  Strange sentences form in my head and roll on like those movie credits for HOURS.   And last night i was ok for abit but come 4am i was mess and the headache was making me feel like i had to vomit but had nothing there.   I have  no appetite and I'm feeling the paranoia - Yesterday i cried. ranted. couldn't breathe properly. That went for4 hrs and I'm still exhausted from it

I told partner please help me.  I just kept repeating it and he kept walking away and then got angry and said "I'm sorry i don't know what to do OK!".     I said please please take me to hospital because i don't want the children to see me like this and i'm so scared but he said no because he said they wouldn't let me out and that he needs to work so we can eat.  Plus not to involve his parents so i must straighten myself up.

I told him these thoughts I'm having are BAD.   So far today I'm ok i think.   I wish i didn't live so rural. I'm trying to relax. i don't think it's fair.  A massage is not helping. Plus i have to listen to this machine gun noise because partner plays this war game

Ps: i know i say things like i want to die but that's not true ok.  I just want whatever is wrong with me to stop

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[Simona]

I don't belong to any church in town.

It's an innocent idea hanging out with the elderly but I always like to move around from place to place. I don't think I could just sit for a long time specially in an enclosed environment.

I see a lot of people with disabilities and their carers around town. They help them buy stuff and do their banking etc. On occasion I see them sitting down together. I suppose that is a form of companionship except I would get an idea and maybe get in trouble for it or the person with the intellectual disability would take me somewhere else and I'm supposed to be looking after them.

Once when I was in the E.D with my partner an intellectually disabled man left his carers side and sat next to me and started playing with my hoodie. He loved it how you could pull it up and pull it down. He was in there because he got caught eating something that's not supposed to be eaten and he needed his stomach examined I think. We just smiled at each-other. He knew he was in big trouble

I just want someone to look at art with me and have a dirty chai latte afterwards. Then they can go

*Egg hunt starts at 7.11pm

[Wilma1]

I've hid one egg in the bathroom. You'll never guess where!!!!!!!

[Wilma1]

There's another by the back door, but where is it hiding???? Lots of places by the back door for an egg to hide....

[Simona]

The Chupacabra is not a gEneric Chupa Chup. It is a cryptid. The word Chupacabra means Goat sucker. It looks like a greyhound with mange. There is one possible sightinG of a Chupacabra in Australia caught on night vision camera.

[Wilma1]

Where ARE you??????

Another in the kitchen....

[Guest_9809]

Hey I got one! One little bilby egg ... lucky me. I found it under the front door mat. Isnt that where everyone hides there house keys?

[Simona]

Wow. You got me W. In the toilet? Is your toilet in your bathroom?

am I playing this game right?

[Wilma1]

Too confusing for me. I have two more hiding I the lounge...but where?????

[Guest_9809]

Oh look, there's another - a caramel egg (my favourite), thank goodness I managed to get it from the mangy greyhound! Thanks Simona. And yes, I had my night vision camera with me .... he he he he .........

[Simona]

Mothman is a lEgendary cryptid. He kind of looks like an ape with winGs and he's all black with liGht fur like a chimpanzee . A book and a movie was made about him. Watch the Mothman Prophecies.