Hello again Ghost😊
Lovely to hear back from you, but I'm so sorry you're finding things so hard at the moment. It sounds like you're in a really difficult place 😔.
You used the metaphor of the ocean, and how hard it feels to keep on kicking. One of the community champions on this forum, Doolhoff suggests that when we feel like this, when we don't feel we have the strength to swim right now, it's ok to just float for a while.
I know you said you feel like you're sinking, but maybe if you tried revisualisung it as floating it might help a little.
Bethie has a good idea above (and it made sense Bethie, you didn't talk in a circle😊).
Ghost, do you have a counsellor or therapist that you have talked to in the past? You said it's a familiar feeling. It might be helpful to set up some talking support such as a psychologist through your GP to help you through this time.
Reaching out here is a really good first step, to know you're not alone ... maybe reading some other threads may help, everyone here is very compassionate and understanding and we all are working with our own demons and stuggles, so we get it.
You can use this thread to air more of your feelings if you would like to (no pressure though, only if it helps you). You can write whatever you like, it's a safe place. If you'd like to say more of what you're feeling, we are here to listen and support you.
You are not alone.
Very caring thoughts to you Ghost.
🌻 birdy
