i need help please

[Jackson1994]

is there anybody there

i need some help i cant cope with this anymore please help

- jackson

[Jackson1994]

Thanks Birdy, we will have a look into it. 16, that is a lot. I think we got to 14 the other night. I totally get that part of having a baby and never getting the same sleep you used to get ever again, but it’s not healthy for him or the two of us.

On a positive note apart from the sleep he is going well, started making some noise now which is super funny

[Jackson1994]

There’s a music festival in town this weekend, it’s a busy little place. It’s pretty much the biggest event of the year. So we’re heading out of town for the day, go on an adventure of some sort.

[Jackson1994]

I can’t believe we’ve got ourselves a 4 month old, who laughs at everything by the way. I came home from work today and he was in his bouncer laughing hysterically through the fly screen door at the dog. She was just sitting there but he was laughing so much.

[CMF]

That's so beautiful. I love it ❤

[Jackson1994]

The best!

He is growing so fast. We just enrolled him for swimming for term 1 next year, he’ll be old enough for that in January, so that will be fun.

[Jackson1994]

I’m furious

actually I’m beyond furious right now

Trying to stay calm but screaming internally

[Jackson1994]

Spent all my spare time, after working, spending time with my family, all that, working on this board.

Could of sold for about $1400, a 9’4 longboard. It’s all done, have to take her offsite to finish one thing, yep all done, went to pick her up from location tonight.

Destroyed. Absolutely destroyed.

[Jackson1994]

It may be repairable, but I’ve learnt that even though I’ve done it probably over a thousand times in my life, that you don’t just triple check your roof racks, you triple check, then triple check again, also board bags don’t prevent damage when you’re going driving 100km an hour, and I’m talking to myself but I don’t really care.

[CMF]

Hey, I'm listening. So it was damaged whilst driving home?

Ok, it sucks, big time but look at it this way. It is a lesson learnt, which you know, and it means that if this little business takes off it wont happen again. you will become a real pro, taking into consideration everything from start to finish. Also, i'm guessing it wasn't a special order? this would have been worse cos someone would have been expecting it and it would have been a let down for them and maybe a lost order for you..plus the word of mouth etc.

It's a lesson learnt. i know it won't happen again. and you will grow form it.

How's the family?

[Jackson1994]

Yeah, it flew off, which was not fun, I heard it go, pulled over, and it was in the ditch that separates the two directions of the highway. Pretty annoying hey, just one of those things happened that I can’t do anything about it now. It was ready to sell, but now it will just be a tester board on the parts that aren’t broken, which is not much. Live and you learn hey!

Been strapping surf boards to cars since forever, so not sure what went wrong, got one of the rents cars while mine is in the mechanic though.

Life goes on.

Family is going along well, getting ready for Christmas. I went out and got a tree today, told H I was going to go buy it from the scouts fundraiser but I actually ended up going to a secret spot and getting it myself, hahaha, that’s still legal though right?

We are going to decorate it tomorrow.

W is doing well, the waking up literally 10 times a night hasn’t happened for about a week, we tried a few different things and we are hoping we’re onto a winner. H is good too, she has been making these wreaths and selling them online, they look great! We are both creative in that way.

My family are all going well too, catching up with the whole crew tomorrow, brother has settled into school after all those dramas, only taken a couple of years to get under control...

I’m just finding it really tough cause a mate is having a super rough time with his mental health, he really isn’t well. I’m a bit worried about him. So that’s on my mind a lot. And my own anxiety I’m trying to keep that in check, I keep waking up in the middle of the night and can’t go back to sleep. Sounds weird but I lay there thinking please someone else wake up so I’m not laying here on my own, if the baby wakes up at least that wouldn’t be a bad thing right now, which obviously isn’t ideal.

But yeah, wake up pretty much bang on 2:30AM, heart beating out of my chest, sweaty, then I start hearing stuff so that makes it worse. Then I just think think think, everything, it’s like swirling around my head like when you pull the plug out of the sink, except it just keeps going, that’s the visual representation I put to that feeling. Han doesn’t know it’s that bad.

been supporting my little brother a lot who is having a pretty awful time, he’s struggling with his mental health at the moment,