Hey CMF, yeah the car thing isn’t ideal but it’s the better case scenario than forking our thousands like I first thought. Just have to organise a car for myself in the mean time, parents may be able to help, that’s a job for the weekend.
We are very much looking forward to our first Christmas as a family of 3 (or 4 with Suz). Hannah, absolutely not surprisingly, is already getting organised. They are both going along really well.
Took W for our nightly beach walk tonight. Feeling pretty down and disappointed because I did not get the job, but I took him out anyway. I like my job and the organisation I work for now, it’s great, i just hope we can come to arrangement for next year. It should of been finalised by now. It should of been finalised a couple months back, so that’s why I am so anxious about it. Nothing has been done so that makes me think they aren’t keeping me on, I’m struggling to get an answer from the boss. He just says when he knows i’ll know, he means well but it’s my young families future we are playing with here. In the end he is a messenger sometimes, and has to do as he is told just like I am. But it’s frustrating not having the direct communication with people who make decisions like this, he said all he is able to do is provide feedback about my work and fight to keep me. If I was successful in getting the new role I would have nothing to worry about. Now my brain is going to go over and over why I might not of gotten the job, did I say something weird? Should I of been available to start sooner? Did I misinterpret a question and go completely wrong.
Relax. It’s done now.
Going to the water is a nice way to end the day. It’s funny because it took ages before W actually saw the ocean! It put him to sleep before we even got near the water some evenings. Now not so much.
I just can’t believe how fast this year is going. This time last year we had no idea our lives were going to be like this. New job, new baby, got more settled into the house, 2019 has been massive. It’s weird thinking this time last year how I had no idea any of this was going to happen, now we have a 3 1/2 month old.
