I always do things ass about

[velvetfaerie]

My first introduction thread after being here FOREVER..... because I always do things backwards...

Velvz. Bipolar.... type? Not sure. I walked out of the psychiatrists office the day he tried putting me on more meds. That was a decade ago.

Anxiety issues. OCD issues. Occasional SH concerns. Checkered history of substance abuse.

I manage for the most part by exercising, good healthy food and good sleep practices. Substances these days are 3 drinks maximum and I'm rat assed.

I work full time. Study part time. Bought my own house years ago. On my own. Ok the bank helped lol!!! Most days for me are 10-14 hours depending. That's work and study and house things and exercise.

At the moment I'm struggling because I believe I've burnt myself out and pushed myself into hypomania. I'm all over the shop. Been here before but no psychosis stuff. Woo.

Oh man I don't know what else to say. No kids. Love kids. But conscious decision not to have my own. Love men. But sadly I'm intolerant to relationships after a while. Moody 😁😁

Animals and music are my passions.

Yeh so..... **** awkward silence***

velvz.

[CMF]

Tell man thing no.

Tell your friend no.

Be selfish. Do things for you for a change.

Tell them all to back off.

[velvetfaerie]

I actually said to them to **something** off lol!!!!

ahhahahahahaha

[CMF]

hahaha, now that is a polite way of putting it.

Hope today is better for you.

[velvetfaerie]

Exhausted. I can see my boss has made no attempt to work together with me as a team.

Today I am asking for a decent chunk of leave, within reasonable time. If not I am making a Dr appointment. I am DONE.

V.

[velvetfaerie]

I am close to losing the plot. Ignored again re my leave request.

Man thing has been twisting my words and behaving a martyr as well. Making me out to be the bad person in some circumstances instead of being supportive of my current state.

I can't continue like this any longer.

Why are people so SELF SERVING AND SHORT SIGHTED???

**RAGE**

V.

[CMF]

maybe you need to take a chunk of sick leave.

When was the last time you had annual leave?

[velvetfaerie]

Last time i took a good chunk of annual leave was 3 years ago i think.

[CMF]

Wow, way too long. You are entitled to 4 weeks every year.

[velvetfaerie]

Correct.

Was supposed to walk to pub for food n drink with man thing this arvo. Last minute he got told about teacher meeting re his kid. HIS arvo was ruined he said.

I dunno if or when he’s showing up. Apparently that’s hard to tell me.

So I kept my plans. Walked to the damn pub and got a drink.

If he shows up at my place NO ONS IS HOME.

hes such a hypocrite.

[velvetfaerie]

Was to be our valentines as last year for shot to pieces too.

I’m over it.