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[velvetfaerie]

My first introduction thread after being here FOREVER..... because I always do things backwards...

Velvz. Bipolar.... type? Not sure. I walked out of the psychiatrists office the day he tried putting me on more meds. That was a decade ago.

Anxiety issues. OCD issues. Occasional SH concerns. Checkered history of substance abuse.

I manage for the most part by exercising, good healthy food and good sleep practices. Substances these days are 3 drinks maximum and I'm rat assed.

I work full time. Study part time. Bought my own house years ago. On my own. Ok the bank helped lol!!! Most days for me are 10-14 hours depending. That's work and study and house things and exercise.

At the moment I'm struggling because I believe I've burnt myself out and pushed myself into hypomania. I'm all over the shop. Been here before but no psychosis stuff. Woo.

Oh man I don't know what else to say. No kids. Love kids. But conscious decision not to have my own. Love men. But sadly I'm intolerant to relationships after a while. Moody 😁😁

Animals and music are my passions.

Yeh so..... **** awkward silence***

velvz.

[CMF]

Pretty rude to inform him at the last minute. On purpose perhaps so that if he couldn't make it she could make him look bad.

HIS afternoon...hmmmm obviously forgot you were dining with him. Not on.

Good on you for keeping your plans,his loss.

I don't do Valentines Day...besides the fact i have no one to enjoy it with...over it too. Little miss told me 'tomorrow is Balantynes Day' and I am her 'Balantyne" because it is when you give things to someone you love. She gave me a beautiful picture she made at school.

[velvetfaerie]

I think manipulation from her was involved here.

Had a row but he’s unfair. Distracted me with jewellery and burger. Fights dirty! Still unimpressed. But it’s bed time.

I like Little Misses idea. Very much. Ballantyne. 👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻

[quirkywords]

Hello

I have never seen the point of Valentine's Day only to make money for florists and chocolate makers.

Ballantyne's day- Miss Miss has it all worked out.

Quirky

[velvetfaerie]

I know right?

Just got pushed at work. I have lost it. I have had enough of being constantly devalued by everyone in my life, personal, professional etc. Just because I am not a mum does not make me less of a human being. Just because I do this job does not mean my time is worth less. Communication, courtesy and decency is NOT AN EXPENSIVE THING.

I have had it. The bosses saw me lose it. I am going to talk to the big boss. I want a break. DONE.

V.

[CMF]

Hey you,

I hope you did speak to the big boss. Go to the dr and get a certificate for one month off due to exhaustion. Can you document everything and take it to the big boss. You took a day off recently and came back to 59 emails, your leave keeps getting refused. No proper break in 3 years. Not good Velvet.

I want you to know that I value you. I am really glad we have formed a friendship on these forums and appreciate the support you have given to me.

cmf

[velvetfaerie]

I have been asked to list my jobs, so as to push for a person to train up to cover me while I am off. My boss can't. She is not full time. Nor does she know my job. She can't do her role and my role in 20 hours a week. Impossible.

So, I had already done this 2 years ago regarding the list. I had less on my plate then. Email composed and sent.

CMF - you rock. 😄

[CMF]

Interesting.

How does someone become a boss and manage people if he/she doesn't know your job?

[velvetfaerie]

Maternity leave. This boss is a stand in. My proper cooler boss on maternity leave kinda knows my job.

My workplace is run by an idiot tbh who doesn’t see the importance of contingency plans.

Today’s mantra - “don’t wanna!”.... just slept 8 hours and I’m still stuffed 😔

[velvetfaerie]

Went out yesterday with hobbits Mother hobbit.

Very enlightening day. I’m very tired though. For some reason I couldn’t sleep very well last night even though I was exhausted.

[CMF]

Hi V,

you get along well with his mum by the sound of things? That's always a good thing. What was enlightening about it? Only if you want to share. Any response to your email to the big boss?

Hope you sleep better tonight.

Cmf x