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[velvetfaerie]

My first introduction thread after being here FOREVER..... because I always do things backwards...

Velvz. Bipolar.... type? Not sure. I walked out of the psychiatrists office the day he tried putting me on more meds. That was a decade ago.

Anxiety issues. OCD issues. Occasional SH concerns. Checkered history of substance abuse.

I manage for the most part by exercising, good healthy food and good sleep practices. Substances these days are 3 drinks maximum and I'm rat assed.

I work full time. Study part time. Bought my own house years ago. On my own. Ok the bank helped lol!!! Most days for me are 10-14 hours depending. That's work and study and house things and exercise.

At the moment I'm struggling because I believe I've burnt myself out and pushed myself into hypomania. I'm all over the shop. Been here before but no psychosis stuff. Woo.

Oh man I don't know what else to say. No kids. Love kids. But conscious decision not to have my own. Love men. But sadly I'm intolerant to relationships after a while. Moody 😁😁

Animals and music are my passions.

Yeh so..... **** awkward silence***

velvz.

[velvetfaerie]

Shattered. Can’t get out of bed. I’m never like this.

Yeh we had been in contact. Had huge nasty vile fight then chatted rest of day.

We both can’t be together but there are still feelings and it’s just all so confusing.

[CMF]

It's a tough one Velvet, knowing you can't be together but still feeling. Sometimes we meet the right person at the wrong time. Does it feel like this for you. I'm guessing the argument came from both of you hurting so much. I wish I could do something or say something to make it better or easier but i can't. I am here for you though, as much as I can.

Do you ring the helpline last night?

[velvetfaerie]

CMF - hugs!!!

Yeh it did re fight. We are hurting beyond belief.

Me n him figured out we chat occasionally to see how we are. We are friends. Once his house sells and he moves we can then start again if we want to and still love each other. he said his heart misses me. Likewise. But it’s for the best at the moment.

I chatted to friends last night. Slept a bit.

Now my dad is in hospital again with second complete bowel obstruction in 2 months. Likely now another resection and bag. Bad crohns sufferer. So family Christmas Day will possibly be in hospital for us.

Its really been one of those weeks.

I am ok. I’m in utter disbelief atm. But I’m in much better spirits.

Plow on. Be strong huh?

[CMF]

Oh, so sorry to hear your dad isn't well again. Why do all these things happen now? A friend of mine is in a similar position with an ill relative amongst other things.

its good you can agree to be friends, and I hope once the house is sold you can pick up again.

Cmf x

[velvetfaerie]

Hey CMF,

I am holding faith all will be ok. Xx

hello Blue, thanks for dropping in. Have you got a thread I can come say hi on?

Sorry short reply as very tired. Been at a nerd Christmas gathering. Much fun .

v.

[CMF]

Glad you got out, hope you get sleep.

keep the faith.

xxx

[quirkywords]

Velevet

I have just been catching up on your news. Sorry you have had so much upheaval and sadness in your life. I am thinking of you, your dad and your family.

I hope you have time to care for yourself.

Sending a big hug

Quirky x

[velvetfaerie]

Hey Quirky.

Thanks.

I have just realised I needed a break a month ago for my mental health/exhaustion and work declined it. You know because everyone else and their entitlements are more important.

I snapped Friday. I am at work and I am struggling.

Pushing people away - being mean. I am like that at the moment. Unless i really know and trust you .... get away from me.

Dad = seems on the mend. He saw me yesterday and got upset because I look so unwell. LOL hes the one with the nasogastric tube and an obstruction.

Better go catch up on work.

Will pop back soon.

[velvetfaerie]

He baited me again. I’m not biting this time.

Just upset and confused.

No bites !!!!

[CMF]

Oh what? Why is he doing that? Good on you for not biting, he'll soon realize it's a waste of time and stop.

Glad to hear about your dad. Hope he continues to recover.

Ssrry to hear about thecsork situation. Some people just suck.

Hugs

CMF x