how do i stop crying

[Matchy69]

I feel so alone,i dont have many friends or anyone who wants to know what i am going through.I just find my self just breaking down and crying.I just want some one to listen and not to judge me.

[Aaronsis]

Hello my friend

I am so sorry to hear how tired you are and that things seem alot lately.

You too have a lot on your mind with the kids and thinking about how this year is going to work out for them, it would be wonderful for your daughter to have a formal, I feel so sad for those that missed these great things last year.

You are so very kind to be giving as you do to your exwife, I think it speaks to the wonderful person you are to think of others and what they need, I just want to remind you that you can do these good things for yourself too and put yourself in first place from time to time...I am starting to learn to do this more and it is actually a good feeling.

I can't wait to hear how the bike hunting goes and if you find a new project to restore, that would be so wonderful for you and give you a real pick up I think.

I hope we can avoid another COVID year. We really don't need a whole lot of what we have just been through, however, there really is nothing we can do if it turns out that way and have to get through it as we have before.

Great to chat to you my friend

Hugs

Sarah

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah I went and had a look at the bike and the guy didn't want to sell it now so after getting all excited about it I am now feeling depressed .I will concentrate on building my shed first and then look for another bike to restore.

[B_W_]

Hi Matchy, I know originally posted months ago but just wanted to let you know that I can completely relate to losing friends and it being my fault. The worst part is when they just cut you out without a warning or conversation. I understand that I am hard to to be around but I also can’t get over how brutal it feels. I wish I could at least have one more conversation with one person in particular. I don’t know how to move on and all I do is cry.
Anyway, it did help reading your post and knowing that I’m not alone. I hope you are going ok xo

[Matchy69]

Hi B.W it is really hard losing friends and I understand about wanting that one more conversation .I wish I could have done things differently.It was just exciting for me having an amazing friend.I still cry and wish I could change things.Coming on here gives me some way of communicating with people that I don't really have in the real world.
Thank you for your words and knowing someone is listening.
Take care,
Mark.

[B_W_]

Thanks Mark,

I am hoping these forums help me a bit too. At the point where I think I am going to quit my job this week. Too many sick days and just not functioning. Crying is all I do at the moment. I’m so ashamed of myself doing this at 32 but I need to do something drastic to change my life.

thank you for replying, I’m sorry to hijack your thread to vent.

take care,

Briony

[Matchy69]

Hi B.W your always welcome on my threads.These threads are to everyone to use.I am sorry you to are really strugling at the moment.Have you spoen to your doctor how you are feeling.I know that can be a really hard thing to do.Can you take some time off work for your health?.I hope you can find some comfort in these forums knowing you are not alone.

Tale care,

Mark.

[Aaronsis]

Hey Mark and hello to you too Briony, it is great to have you aboard.

I am so sorry Mark that the bike did not work out, that is really upsetting seeing that you were ready for a new project and feeling all excited about it.

I am really feeling so proud of how you are supporting each other too, it is lovely to have you here Briony so welcome.

Have a great day, I am off to give some instructions to my daughter on how to make a chicken curry for her and her brother and dad for dinner....

Chat soon my friends

Sarah xxx

[B_W_]

Thanks Mark and Sarah.

I hope you are going ok.

I didn’t quit but I am taking some time off until I can get into my GP. I also have a psychologist who I have recently started seeing so fingers crossed.

It feels like I have always been battling depression but this time is worse as I have recently had a male friend completely block me out and ignore me. It’s my fault because I got insecure and therefore instead of talking to him about it I got aggressive over text messages.

still, this isn’t the first time I have lost a friend because of my own crazy brain but this time is different somehow. I don’t know how to move on from this type of rejection. I have no closure coz he won’t answer my calls. All I want is one conversation.

I can’t stop crying. I feel so so lonely but he is the only person in the world that could make me feel better right now

[Matchy69]

Hi Briony I am glad you are seeing your doctor and pyschologist I hope it does help you.I have seen one in the past and it was just nice to have to talk to and not be judged.I understand you completely when you say it was your fault and can't stop crying because of it.I feel the same as it is almost the same as my situation and what I did.I just want to hear their voice again and tell them I am sorry that I rung to much.I don't make friends easy and especially of the opposite sex and I try to hard and just ruin everything.It just feels different this time that I will never fully recover from this lost and find anyone as amazing as this friend again.I can only try and try and do the things I use to enjoy and hope one day the pain goes away.
I am here for you to talk to.
Take care,
Mark.

[B_W_]

Thank you Mark. It’s such a horrible feeling and I’m sorry you are feeling this way too.

Hopefully we can get through it together and laugh one day about how much time and energy we wasted on people who clearly do not care the way we thought they did.

I am thinking of you so I hope that’s helps. I hope you have a good day.