Everything is so hard

[Karen71]

I was am a student tafe.

I put all assignments in.

I completed all work.

i had problems with one assignment whick shook me.

Mental health assignment .

I cried itried i tried to tell the teacher it was to close to my own life story.

She dosent like me so shrugged my attempt off.

I failed my test in the last week.

18mnths for nothing.

They dont care that im torn apart.

4 wrong on acute means to bad to sad.

I tried so very hard.pateints loved me.

Teachers not.

My first test was 1 week after abdominal surgery my sevond the same week that i learnt my son was needing a op to save his sight.his 8.with aspergus.

I tried so veryhard.i studied till 2 am most nights because i couldnt when kids were awake.

All day its tantrums.all night its study.

I have always suffered from depression and ptsd.

I sucked it up took the bull by the horns and did my best.

I alwayfail.idont belong.

It sucks.im tied im defeated.im so alone.

I hate life peole are mean.

No im not in danger im simply done.

Why are people so mean.why do they lie and alienate.why dont i be long.

My teacher simply felt i shouldnt pass.

What is that.

Just because i make a complaint they make my life hell.

My life is already full of stress i didnt need them to add to it.

Im shattered.

Ive creid for 4 weeks now.the skin around my eyes is starting to blister.

Why are eople so cruel.

My son cant play with other children.

He has to stay 1 meter away from all kids at school.

Seriously why dont people realise the pooain they give to others.

Im sohurt.so very sad.

I want to give up but i cabt because of the kids.

Im sostied.i dont likwe this world its mean and nasty.is

[demonblaster]

Hi karen 🙂
I feel for you.
Like how you wrote this,easy to read well done.
Yes people definately can be cruel but they also and I believe 75% + are good but still can be rats at times, us too sometimes unintentionally.
Good on you when you said taking the bull by the horns, I too am doing that and it's hard as hell but worth the effort down the track when we get it together that WILL happen, we just have to work hard at it.
Keep plugging at the exams darl, sounds like most of the time you do well.
Tiredness imo is the devils playground, we're at our worst in those times, hopefully when you get a break with sleep you'll feel brighter and more able.
Sorry for your hard times, trust me not everyone's cruel.
Good on you not giving up, many in life hold on for their children.
Hold on girl 🙂

[Karen71]

Im trying to hold on.

[demonblaster]

Karen do you see anyone in mental health?

A good counsellor or psychologist are very helpful if only to release

I suggest excercise, walkings really good and stimulating, outta house, around people, helps sleep, mentally lifts, not alone cause people around doing their thing

What about joining a club for sport or games too, good way of meeting people, not all are horrids true

[Karen71]

Sigh.

[demonblaster]

I know

You've got support here

[Karen71]

Im not ok.

[Karen71]

I take that back.im fine all is great.

Thanks for your help.

[demonblaster]

I can see you're not Karen

Keep at least talking here, that way there's an outlet.

Do you know specifically what's pulling you down

[demonblaster]

I've read your thread a couple times Karen

Is there anything that's pulling you down, that you can change.

You've got a lot going on, try not to hold on to anything you can't change.

Are you sleeping better without the study

other post asked if anything specific I mean now