Everything is so hard

[Karen71]

I was am a student tafe.

I put all assignments in.

I completed all work.

i had problems with one assignment whick shook me.

Mental health assignment .

I cried itried i tried to tell the teacher it was to close to my own life story.

She dosent like me so shrugged my attempt off.

I failed my test in the last week.

18mnths for nothing.

They dont care that im torn apart.

4 wrong on acute means to bad to sad.

I tried so very hard.pateints loved me.

Teachers not.

My first test was 1 week after abdominal surgery my sevond the same week that i learnt my son was needing a op to save his sight.his 8.with aspergus.

I tried so veryhard.i studied till 2 am most nights because i couldnt when kids were awake.

All day its tantrums.all night its study.

I have always suffered from depression and ptsd.

I sucked it up took the bull by the horns and did my best.

I alwayfail.idont belong.

It sucks.im tied im defeated.im so alone.

I hate life peole are mean.

No im not in danger im simply done.

Why are people so mean.why do they lie and alienate.why dont i be long.

My teacher simply felt i shouldnt pass.

What is that.

Just because i make a complaint they make my life hell.

My life is already full of stress i didnt need them to add to it.

Im shattered.

Ive creid for 4 weeks now.the skin around my eyes is starting to blister.

Why are eople so cruel.

My son cant play with other children.

He has to stay 1 meter away from all kids at school.

Seriously why dont people realise the pooain they give to others.

Im sohurt.so very sad.

I want to give up but i cabt because of the kids.

Im sostied.i dont likwe this world its mean and nasty.is

[topsy_]

Hi Karen

Still thinking of you.

Kind regards Lyn.

[Karen71]

Hello .

Time warping still.

What a mess.:(

[Karen71]

Im lost

[Karen71]

Time warping.

Im glad yourthere.the date at the top tells me how long of been gone.

I dont think i can comeback.im losti

[Karen71]

Can i talk to a doctor online?

I cant let anyone know.

I keep time warping.

I hide so noone notices.

Thankyou for being there.

[demonblaster]

Sooo good to hear from you Kaz been thinking and wondering how you're going.

I know you're a good loving caring mum so this question isn't doubting that. How are you managing looking after the kids darl?

I don't know here if you can talk to a Dr online. (had a squiz don't think so)

What you can do is talk directly to a trained person here by either:
Calling: 1300224636. I think it's a local call (1300) but maybe not from a mobile. (Immediate help)
Chat online with a trained person 3pm- 12am 7 days a week.
Email with response within 24hrs

If you're not able to do any of these there's lifeline 131114

Kaz 2 things to do:

1)... Immediately contact your Dr, tell them it's urgent and they'll get you in asap.
2)... Ring bb here they can help too. Be completely open, tell them where you're at exactly atm.
If you don't have a phone or credit, ask a neighbour maybe or use a payphone.

Sweetheart I know you don't want to let DR down and disappoint them but they won't be, they're going on the info you're giving, you NEED to be completely open. This Doc seems like a good one and supports and encourages you, majority of Dr's are there cause they want to help. You need it and they can get you onto it.

Darling you can & will get out of this, you're in deep, it'll take time but with help the rewards of getting better are immense and worth the effort, you get to win not the demons.

Your time to shine girl

Always as I said early in the peace and same with Yellownanna and others here we're not going anywhere. Gunna see you through this.

Thanks for appreciation, you're a good chooky 🙂 ...(( hugs ))

Keep us posted on progress if you can

We care

[Sophie_M]

Hi Karen71,

We're sorry to see that you are in such distress. As demonblaster has already pointed out, our Support Service has an online chat option (staffed by mental health counsellors) opened from 3PM to midnight, which you can access here: https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/get-immediate-support

Lifeline also offer a crisis chat service between 7pm and 4am here:https://www.lifeline.org.au/get-help/online-services/crisis-chat

[topsy_]

Hi Karen

I'm so glad you've come back but I'm sad you are still doing it tough

There is a nurses phoneline you can ring you describe what's happening & they give you advice. Sometimes they will get a doctor to phone you back.

Otherwise I only know about what the others have shared.

Keep hanging in there Karen. You will get better.

Thinking of you daily, Lyn.

[demonblaster]

Thx Sophie 🙂 Nanna I knew you'd be pleased to see Kaz again do you know the no: to the nurses phoneline I don't think Kaz will be up to looking.

Kaz for a starter hopefully you have already contacted them here maybe the better option cause if need be they could be able to check your notes but I'm not sure how they work it here.