Do you think the way l'm living is ok for now?

[Guest_1584]

Hi BB.

l feel like this is another dumb question from rx , but ah well.ln times of uncertainties we might ask some of those right.

We sep' and divorced 5yrs ago , threw life into a spin. Together 19yrs before. l've stayed in the area to be close to my d, 16now, and finally got another house of my own 15mths ago.

l was with someone new nearly 2yrs but it hasn't worked out unfortunately but being long distance 70% of the time, there was lots of days and nights spent at home in our little private bubble world of messaging and skyping .

So now that we've split, l still haven't built any sort of a new life really. Got this hosue because loved the spot and the house itslef and great views and it's only 20mins form my d's town. lhoped l'd like it here , maybe even make a new life. But ldon't really fit in this town and so it's beena lot more time at home, l work at home too.

Nit sure if l'll stay here , but l do love the house and spot and views and in spare time can easily just hang out around the house days on end , basically alone, bt l dunno, it's just and old renovator but just really comfy to hang out in, live.

If l'm working l always try to get out most days, pick up spares or spin over to one of the other towns for a change of scenery , or some lunch, whatever.Or locally up to the shops even , groceries whatever , anything just to get out for awhile.

lately l've sort of developed a bit of a pattern in spare time. love hanging out around the house a day , 2 or 3, but then l make myslef go see some, a drink with my brother, or another mate l know, or up to the main town , see my daughter some days, or beach , go for a hike, or something. No pubbing or night life.

Same with wkends, l try to get out somewhere one day, hang out at home the other.

But that's pretty well life has been since split with gf. Mostly alone , andl enjoy lately just hanging out around this house , maybe way way too much , not sure. music or some reno's or movies , internet. It's just big and roomy and airy , views , and comfy. l often get claustrophobic but never in this house,

Do you think what l'm doing atm is ok , l really worry l'm alone too much or taht l'll slip into hermitizing too much, l dunno.

Any thoughts welcome.

rx.

[Ggrand]

Hey Randomx,

It strange and weird isn't it the way they know things..I went to one a month after hubby passed, complete stranger and she knew so much about us, our pets, our kids..me.. good luck with everything Randomx..this one had no 🔮 crystal ball, she held a piece of my jewellery.

I hope you can figure out what you want to do...but there's no real hurry, your allowed to live while you think..

Warm hugs 🤗🤗 I think I remember you like hugs...lol take all you need randomx..

Grandy..

[Guest_1584]

Yeah wow alright cm eh.

l'm afraid my lifes had plenty of leaps of faith that's why l don;t feel like more right now butttttt, l don;t feel l can stay here and just exist yep that's exactly the problem.

And yeah , the new area l've been thinking about has everything and it's 15 times the size of this here with sooo much going on over there , love that . Lot of different kinds of people and things going on all over the whole district , that's more my style. soooo, been thinking about it awhile now,

But the tattooist thing wouldn't surprise me at all actually , l was going to be one myself earlier on but for a few reasons l went ito some other art instead.which was what l'd really wanted so that was that. My daughter though it would actually really suit her. so who knows . l think l'll fall over if she did though after being told that.

Heya grandy , thanks for the kind words and thoughts. Funny how you went to see somebody yourself , she knew a lot about you too then eh , did she tell you anything about the future, ?

l wasn't gonna ask but she got the better of me haha, and she knows what she's doin to this lady she's worked professionally all over the world on cases and all. lt's pretty damn scary actually because who knows what she might see if she did see things. l've decided l'm never talking to someone like this again buttttt, it was good stuff though , maybe next time if there was , not so lucky so l'm not pushing it haha

Thanks again grandy and yeppa , don't mind some huggems haha.

You be good and if ya can't be good be good at it .

rx

[Guest_1584]

Well funny old wkend.

Heads still spinning with the things l was told last week. Add these cards l've been getting 12 mths now and feelings l've had , l know somethings on the boil.

Talked to gf , or l suppose l better get use to saying ex now , last week.she's pretty lost , no way l could trust her right now to go out on a limb trying for longer anyway , she's all over the place. lf there's gonna be someone new then l want her stable yaknow , to be able to trust what she says and feels 100%.

Anyway had a pretty cruisey week. worked money then the weather turned mean here so l took the rest off and dagged around the house with a nice warm fire , daughter came over a few times that was nice , can;t see enough of her these days, busy little women she is haha.Ended up working saturday when the weather came better , take up a bit of slack then just stayed home and watched movies all night.

Had a drink over brothers place today , felt like a drive , one of my sisters turned up for awhile l usually avoid. She's ok but she's one of these people l just find l have too much on my mind to deal with most of the time. Not a person l find easy to be around.

Many thoughts though , spinning spinning , many changes coming if there's anything at all in what S said , together with ideas l'm thinking about.

Hope everyones well , rx

[Ggrand]

Heya Randomx,

She told me a few things that will happen in the future, so far only one has happened..She mostly told me a lot about ex hubby and some messages from him...and yeah...kinda spooky..she wrote everything down.. still got it..I want to go to another one soon. when they come out this way..

It sounds like you had a quiet week, great visits from your daughter which I'm knowing are really treasured and special.. a drink with your brother sounds nice as well. Does he live close to you?

i hope this coming week is a peaceful one for you..

Big hugs 🤗🤗..oh and a rose 🌹...because I think your a pretty special person Randomx..

Grandy.

[Guest_1584]

Ahh thanks grandy , very nice of you. But there's so many special people here isn't there. As l've always found right through life . the misfits the troubled the people that have had rough runs , are the real people of this world to me and l'd trust them or turn to them or offer what l could , 10-fold to mr and mrs Joe blow successful , yaknow.

but l'm putting all cards away , l might even burn the deck, and l'm gonna hold myself to never seeing anyone even remotely so called physic or whatever people prefer to call it , ever again. And if s drops in again she'll be sworn to zipping it bc l really feel l've pushed my luck far enough tbh. And it also leaves me pretty damn rattled and l do need stuff right now but rattlings just not one of them haha

l know what l was trying to say in posts here or even in this thread , but unfortunately l just can't get the translation between my head and into words in a post. Even if for just a means of being able to tell someone , talk about it. And l just can't stop fighting myself about just being alone so much.

But yeah , peaceful it is that's for sure . And in many ways l love peace, especially when it comes to the god damn hassle that life can be these days , and the pressures and constant hounding , even just in costs of living , or fines or bills or repayments or even yet more elections , media , news , all the total garbage, bad news in the world, all of it, we have shoved down our throat day in day out in this day and age. And then there's life, just life and all of it's constant battles and struggles , living . ln all those ways hell yeah l'd love some peace and the way ;l'm living right now leaves me able to filter out most of that garbage and kick it's ass out the door , and in all those ways hell yeah , l love some peace, sooooo sick of the bs in this world.

But then there's the living and while friends and family sure they're ok , l'm not right into them , bar my daughter of course. but yeah it has been a god sent having a few close right now that is for sure. problem is that's not the the stuff l need. and that's why l feel so empty and am having so many fights with myself living the way l am.

l'm just not use to not having a partner and the fun and stimulation and all the other things that go with it , and especially the closeness . l feel so void and live so void right now.

Sorry , l'm just they'd call it venting l suppose,,, but eh that's one of the things this place is for right.

rx

[Guest_1584]

Strangest thing.

One thing S said a few weeks ago is be care of your back right now , ok.

l took it with grain of salt and forgot all about it hurt my back in my 30s and learnt my lesson good but guess what, yesterday l kinked my back grabbing some logs from the shed 7 in the morning. l was in a hurry freezing cold just wanted to get back in and some fire going. Couldn't walk properly couldn't bend r get off the couch and when l went to pick up my daughter couldn't get out of the car . later that night couldn't get out of bed.So l'll be damned .

It's a lot better this afternoon now l did some stretching and then worked later to get the kinks out. l know working sounds ridiculous but it was anything sitting down where l really got stuck so after moving around all day at work today it's not too bad now as long as l don't try any cart wheels haha. Nah still can't bend down but l can walk pretty good again and get up from chair or couch now. Won't be getting in the car again though until tomorrow afternoon so hopefully l should be able to get out at the other end this time huh.

Be just my luck that's the only thing she said that actually happens right , great !!!!!

Gotta laugh.

[Ggrand]

Oh no Randomx, geez I hope your backs healing a little more that each minute passes...Just your/my luck that the things we don't want to happen does...I bought myself some Tarrot cards a long time ago, hah! I'm thinking to start studying them, maybe they will tell my BP2 to shoo off..

I got the written page that the lady gave me with my reading..It made me cry, just memories, Hubby was in a band 60/79s cover, she didn't know that..part of the writing she wrote out reads.. Don't stop playing my music, I'll still be around to listen to it.....Makes you wonder...how they know..few other things only me and hubby knew...

I hurt my back in a car accident 14 years ago now, I think Once you hurt your back it never fully recovers, I have occasionally pinched a nerve in lower back, and days on the lounge unable to get up...I know how you're backs feeling...Here you go a 👩🏼‍🔬 someone to give you a back massage...

Good luck with the car tomorrow afternoon. Do you have a low kinda 🚗..Makes it harder to get in and out of..

Take it easy Randomx, Oh a piece of cake for later if you want...Lol this cake is calorie free...

Warm caring hugs.🤗

Grandy..

[Guest_1584]

Hi grandy and thanks for the kind thoughts.

Backs a touch better, fine once l'm up and around as long as l don't do anything drastic but not much better when l sit or lay down.

Car , ahhhh yeppa, wish l still had the 4x4 now mines about the worst it gets for this very low , bugger. l have 3hours drive again tomorrow now , 1.30 each way.not gonna be pretty.

l've done cards 25yrs now, not tarots though play cards but l don't use them for future stuff just questions very accurate normally. l only took them out again 2yrs ago l think after 10yrs not touching them , but strangely they say the same thing non stop since. l didn't understand because l don't use them in that way but S explained what they've been saying and it is good stuff that l did know but again strange though considering how screwed life is right now. l only asked S 2 questions , l don't care about anything else but also warned me about the back which l completely forgot about. not anymore though haha, painful reminders.

l dunno about tarots grandy , up to you but they can become a mental burden. My ex w read tarots but stopped and gf had collected them and read them all her life she's italian. it's hard to explain but l often wished she didn't.Always remember they may say bad things and that will bring you down. This is why it was a pain with gf using them. and ex w and why l only ask mine specific questions.

hope you've been ok .

rx

[blondguy]

Hey RX

How have you been mate?

I hear you loud and clear about missing the fun & stimulation where having a partner is concerned. That leaves an empty place in my heart....Just like you RX...having a vent too

Anyhow....just a had a XForce stainless steel exhaust fitted to my 2007 XR8 Ute..Cats back....and it sounds wonderful.

How have you been RX?

I hope you have a good weekend

Paul

[Guest_1584]

Gday paul mate how u doin.

Great news about the ute can't wait to hear it , when you get ur ass up here for that drink that is , and now we've got an excuse to take it out too . l'm near teh great ocean road mate it should sound lovely humming along there.

Funny u say that though l'd love a note on mine and a few other goodies and l've been tossing up. Not sure if l should keep it or not as it's not ideal for work but it is a great traveler and l do a lot of k's up here so it's damn nice to be comfy for once yaknow. Well when my backs not hurting anyway.

MATe feel free to vent here anytime and l hear ya. Hows your casual friend going still on or? l do miss that so much. But l guess l'm being a bit of a sook .l know many here have been alone a long time so l feel a bit bad even moaning tbh but my whole life has been more as two than one , so that's my excuse and l'm sticking to it..

How have you been anyway mate ? not a great week here. life see's you in a bit of a bad way and decides to sink the boots in l swear.

Take care

rx