I have been in this vicious cycle for so long now and nothing gets better. I am battle fatigued. Truely just numb. Single parent to 2 teens with mental health issues and a narcissistic ex ( kids father). I have experienced my ex attempt suicide, my youngest who was 10 yo at the time attempt suicide and my now 14yo attempt suicide 4 times. I live an emotional roller coaster that I vant keep up wth unless I self medicate. I have 2 inpatient admissions in 7 months cause I just can't see any light left. We exist not live. I am totally lost. We have support services in place but nothing changes . I don't know how other people seem to cope and I can't. I don't know what's wrong with my brain. I feel damaged and broken. I don't want pity and I know there are lots doing it harder than I am. I want to know how to survive this or is it possible t survive ths? And please don't advise me to self care. I truely have little or know time to myself to address my own needs as my chidrens needs are high plus I work to pay bills. Sorry to sound grumpy and selfish. I am just lost and feeling hopeless.
Yes I got a safe. My youngest son is a nervous wreck over it all. Mr 15 has no care or remorse for anything he does. I want to save them both but I don't think I can. I hate that I feel like I have to choose b/w my boys.
My younger 14 yo hides in his room a lot. Spends time at school or in his bed. He Has huge anxiety towards his brother. Fear of violence. Fear of him self harming and seeing all he has seen. Suffers seperation anxiety from me. It's all breaking my heart.
It's all breaking my heart. Of course it is, and no easy answer. How does your youngest get on with school? Anything he likes? You made it sound as if he finds it a retreat. Any friends?
im sorry your going through a hard time at the moment, it sounds like your 15 year old needs a good dose of reality. There are cattle staition that are set up to teach younger adults respect and help them get over addictions to technology and stuff, it also helps them grow as people as well. I'm from the country and I'm only 18 but I find being brought up in the country can give you a differnt perspective and we do get a fair few people send their kids up here from the city to teach them new skills and to try and sort out bad behaviours.
