I have been in this vicious cycle for so long now and nothing gets better. I am battle fatigued. Truely just numb. Single parent to 2 teens with mental health issues and a narcissistic ex ( kids father). I have experienced my ex attempt suicide, my youngest who was 10 yo at the time attempt suicide and my now 14yo attempt suicide 4 times. I live an emotional roller coaster that I vant keep up wth unless I self medicate. I have 2 inpatient admissions in 7 months cause I just can't see any light left. We exist not live. I am totally lost. We have support services in place but nothing changes . I don't know how other people seem to cope and I can't. I don't know what's wrong with my brain. I feel damaged and broken. I don't want pity and I know there are lots doing it harder than I am. I want to know how to survive this or is it possible t survive ths? And please don't advise me to self care. I truely have little or know time to myself to address my own needs as my chidrens needs are high plus I work to pay bills. Sorry to sound grumpy and selfish. I am just lost and feeling hopeless.
Ha! Time for me? What on earth is that. Hasn't happened for 8-9 years. Had to rush home from work before lunch cause mr15 was in great distress Sh again due to rejection from his dad. I could just cry. But no where or time for that.
Oh Paul I am sorry to hear about your daughter. Sending giant hugs to you. It's so hard to sit by and just watch our kids deteriorate. Sending positive vibes your way. X
Sometimes you get to the point of why the hell should I have to hammer people? It takes all our strength to keep moving forward let alone fighting to be heard.
Just discovered mr 15 has started illicit drugs. Can my life get worse. Over it over it over it. May sound silly but nothing anyone can say anymore will give me hope. I surrender
