Alone..Depressed..Sad..

[Ggrand]

Hi..I'm new here..just need to put my feeling down..no one to talk to makes depression and anxiety so hard...the last 4 days I have either been in bed crying or on the lounge crying..I can't seem to get out of this...I am becoming a prisioner in my own home as its getting progressively difficult to go out.. I have to go out Tuesdays so I do everthing on that day but it's like I'm holding my breathe all day until I get back to the safety of my home then I can let go and that starts the cycle again of spending the next 6 days at home either in bed or on the lounge sad and depressed...I really feel like just giving up.. My husband passed away 4 years on This coming Thursday. My children live 6 hours drive away and have small children so I don't see them that much.Bad mum and grandmum I am on there last visit i was pleased to see them but I just wanted them to go home. I feel so aweful and numb atm..

[Tess2]

Oh you did not offend me, nurses can be very bossy, that doesn’t mean they don’t mean well etc, but often it is about getting people to do things they might not want to do. I took no offence

tess

[Peppermintbach]

Hi gorgeous Grandy (and a wave to all),

Grandy: Thank you for your lovely words of comfort and reassurance. You have such a kind heart 🙂

DB: thanks, I figured Grandy could do with some extra colouring books 😉

Croix: Thank you for sharing that first meeting memory. Your first partner sounds like she was very dedicated and caring at work. Steadfast in her duty to her patients, which is admirable.

I’m glad that same caring and compassion was what she gifted you in your home life as well. What an incredible woman...

Tess: Thank you so much , I’m glad that I didn’t accidentally upset or offend you. Yes, what you’re saying makes a lot of sense. I understand...thanks again 🙂

Pepper xoxo

[Lee lee 73]

Good morning lovely Grandy,

I do hope you are feeling better today. Just popping in to give you a good morning hug 🤗🤗.

I'm hoping today is a better day for you lovely. Be kind to yourself. Give yourself permission to be cared for . Know that we are with you holding your hand - we're right here with you gorgeous lady ❤💕❤💓💕❤😍😍😍

Hope your day has some light in it Grandy. .

Always with you. ...🌻🌻🌻

Lee

[Doolhof]

Hello Grandy and Everyone reading here,

Grandy, a day at home can be a mixture of many different things, being in hospital is no different, each day will be a variety of thoughts and emotions for you.

Have you managed to get outside again for a walk? Do you have a window where you can see what the weather is doing?

I have been cooking today Grandy. I made what I thought was a gluten free boiled pudding and Christmas cake, only to check the ingredients to discover the dried mixed fruit actually contains gluten!

So I have had a practise run today with my cooking! Tomorrow I will have a closer look at the dried fruits and purchase some without gluten so I can bake another cake!

There are a lot of wonderful people here supporting you Grandy! This forum and the community here really is very special! I don't know where I would have been sometimes without so much love, care ana dsupport.

All the best to you Grandy, hugs from Dools

[monkey_magic]

Hey every1,

I've been in a psycho ward for over 6 weeks & there r some bossy & disrespectful, I'll also mention unethical, misleading and harmful nurses to their patients. A lot of them r stressed, overworked and been so abused by their patients and possibly others in their industry they have lost their mental health and still keep going. Do not be afraid to call a spade a spade. There r nurses that abuse their patients, I've seen it on the news a lot, just like in other industries.

Same goes to the lovely, kind , caring, nice and strong ones. I've seen, spoken to many of them too.

Nurses come from all walks of life, have different nationalities, religions, etc etc....

I speak back to the rude ones here. I had a real go at everyone yday. Just voiced what I thought. Been quiet and innocent for quite a while in here quietly doing my art.

[demonblaster]

Hey beautiful people.

Darling Grandy thanks for your beautiful posts at mine 🤗

I hope you're going ok honey and the times moving along, you'll be home in no time.

My hands doing stuff too so making this short.

Sorry this is about me atm but if I dont get here or mine at least once a day I could be in hospital potentially and gave this brothers number where I'm going.

I'll make it a priority to get to a GP and they should be able to get access to my csf results. I wont let them brush me off and will ring my doctors surgery too to speak to a Dr if possible if need be. Have to ring big hospital too. This trip is to see if its spread gone or whatever. Bit of a concern. Not stressing but need to act on asap.

Bed.

Pubok Grand Awyis huge love and appreciation for you.

Same goes you guys this place is a godsend

💑💜🤗🌹✨

[Lee lee 73]

Good morning dear Grandy,

I'm sensing you're still not feeling so well lovely lady. I'm sitting with you, holding your hand, giving you a big warm hug and my shoulder to cry and rest on. Please be gentle and kind to yourself - you deserve it Grandy.

Sitting with you beautiful 🤗🤗😍😍❤❤

Lee

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi, Mrs D, Lee, Peppy, Croix, Tess magic and everyone..

Thank you all for your kind words and suggestions..Mr and your pudding sounds yummy, it’s a shame that we cannot magic it over to me😁..Practise makes perfect..ive heard said before Mrs D..I can only imagine your pudding (gluten free) will be yummy..I have a window and door that I can see out of.,Tge air conditioning was down yesterday and it was so hot..today is going to be 41 deg..I hope the air conditioner works well today....

Magic.....that was my mistake on words..the nurses are very kind and supportive here, but can get a little assertive at times, but it’s only out of care....I hope you are doing okay..will you be home for Christmas?.....

Lee...Thank you for calling in. I so much appreciate your kindness and coming to visit when you can. I know your also doing it hard and you pop over to mine at the same time.....deep down thank you Lee...

Croix...Even though you don’t know why you called in to see me. I’m super happy that you did..and I’m so pleased that I brought you some treasured memories they are the best sort of memories...Thank you Croix..for calling in...

Tess...Your words are so true and it’s how it is here..Thank you for calling in and chatting..I hope your doing okay....

Deebi.....Hello beautiful...Thank you for calling in..I’m truely very deeply sorry that your not feeling to good with both mental and physical....I so much wish that I could be of more comfort to you...,,Darn these thousands of kilometres...??? I wish I knew...Sweety I’m so pleased your with your brother, he loves you and will look after you the best he can...Please sweetheart allow him to do that for you.......Love you Deebi.l🌜👀🤝👂🤲💜🕊🍃🐅🐆🚜🛵🐚🌛.l

Thank you all for your beautiful kind hearts and souls....Your all amazing lovely people and I hope you all have a good day today...

Sending lots of love and hugs...💜💜🤗🤗.,

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy🦄💜👼..

[quirkywords]

Grandy

I have been reading your posts about being in hospital and I can see how far you have come since you first started posting.

You have many wonderful people supporting you on the forum.

I just wanted to say I am still cheering you on mainly silently, and pleased you are trying strategies to help yourself.

Take care

Quirky

[Peppermintbach]

Hi gorgeous Grandy (and a wave to all),

I also hope that the aircon works for you in the scorching heat today. It must have felt awful yesterday...

I’m pleased to hear that you have a window. I think it helps to be able to see the outside world from your room. Some natural light and nature viewed through the window can make such a huge difference 🙂

Warm hugs and much love.

Peppy xoxo