Alone..Depressed..Sad..

[Ggrand]

Hi..I'm new here..just need to put my feeling down..no one to talk to makes depression and anxiety so hard...the last 4 days I have either been in bed crying or on the lounge crying..I can't seem to get out of this...I am becoming a prisioner in my own home as its getting progressively difficult to go out.. I have to go out Tuesdays so I do everthing on that day but it's like I'm holding my breathe all day until I get back to the safety of my home then I can let go and that starts the cycle again of spending the next 6 days at home either in bed or on the lounge sad and depressed...I really feel like just giving up.. My husband passed away 4 years on This coming Thursday. My children live 6 hours drive away and have small children so I don't see them that much.Bad mum and grandmum I am on there last visit i was pleased to see them but I just wanted them to go home. I feel so aweful and numb atm..

[Lee lee 73]

Hello beautiful Grandy,

I do hope your day has been ok so far. What was for lunch today? I'm on my lunch break now, I've stopped a park/pond I frequent often. Most of the ducks are out of the water today and are walking about. A mix of white and black ducks - they're are very cute and inquisitive. Ohhh Grandy one now is shaking his tail feather 🦃 😂 - true. He has a dark green head but the rest of him is white with tan and brown spots/specks.

I do hope today hasnt been too hard for you lovely lady. I'm sending you big warm hugs 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗 ....can you feel them?You're doing so great Grandy, so so proud of you. It will be worth it. Picture those goals and look at how far you have come.

Thank you for being you ❤❤💓💕🤗

Lee

[Doolhof]

Hi Grandy,

Just dropping to say "HI" and to wish you all the very best dear precious lady. You and so many others here have certainly helped me enormously in the past, so I just want to let you know I am thinking of you.

I did read somewhere where you had a walk-about on the grounds of the hospital/facility you are in.

Do you like drawing Grandy? Do you have access to that kind of material if you would like to be a little artistic?

When I was in hospital once, I didn't have any paper, so I used the menu sheets to draw on! Each meal had the menu showing what I had selected the day before. If the meal was really nice, I would draw a thank you note and a picture and send it back tot he kitchen on the tray.

One of the kitchen staff told me one day she kept a couple of my notes. I guess everyone appreciates a little thanks and praise!

If I knew how to Grandy, I would send you a bunch of flowers, some butterflies and a big smiley face!

Hugs to you and wishing you all the best Grandy, from Dools

[Peppermintbach]

Hi gorgeous Grandy (and a wave to all),

I like what you said about how you’re trying. I think there’s real beauty in effort. I feel there’s a lot to be said for putting time and effort into something, regardless of whether it’s bravely trying to make the most of a hospital stay or in any other sphere of life 🙂

The bossy but kind nurses sound like an interesting bunch. Maybe you can look it at it this way, as frustrating as it is, you only have to tolerate their bosiness temporarily. There will be a point in time when you will be discharged, so you’ll be free of their ways...

I want to drop of some more colouring books and textas for you today. I know you enjoy online colouring, but it might be nice to have hard copy books 🙂

Love and care,

Peppy xoxo

[Tess2]

Nurses are bossy. That is their job.

[Peppermintbach]

Hi Tess (and wave to Grandy and all),

I’m really sorry, I meant no harm. I was only trying to comfort Grandy as she seemed a little unsettled from an earlier post. I used the word “bossy” because she used that word, so I was trying to gently reflect it back at her. I do apologise.

For the record, I think nurses do a wonderful job, and have a lot of compassion 🙂

Kind thoughts to you today,

Pepper

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩, Lee, Mrs Doolsy. Peppy, Tess and all...

Im so really very sorry I referred to the nurses as bossy, but nice....I admire the nurses here so much, I see them comforting people here, me included, they are beautiful people but bossy in a nice way....like a mum getting their child to eat, or shower, or go to school...I’m sorry....I’m not well today, both physical and mental...I didn’t mean any disrespect....

Thank you all for your posts. I’ll be back in to answer them and thank you for your kindness and care to me....

Love and hugs..💜💜🤗🤗..

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy.🦄💜👼.

[Peppermintbach]

Hi Grandy (and a wave to Tess and all),

Sorry, it’s my fault. Thoughtless and clumsy writing on my part. Again, I’m really sorry...

I’m offering warm hugs to you, dear Grandy. It sounds like you’re having a rough time. Sitting with you quietly...

Pepper xoxo

[Ggrand]

Dearest Peppy,

No..No..Sweetheart, you have nothing to be sorry about at all and you are definitely not thoughtless or clumsy at all...Your posts are always thoughtful and I don’t know the opposite of clumsy.. unclumsy..your are definitely unclumsy...Always dear lovely friend..💜🤗..

Grandy..

[demonblaster]

Hey sweet/s 🤗

U ok? Can I ask whats happening physical ? heart. I'm hoping when you start getting better which you're well on your way it might ease heart symptoms, stress is wicked on the body and as we all know mentally too.

Love you darl 🤗💑💜

Croix proud of you with emoji. They're 2 oriental ladies I think. Hope you're improving you've been in my thoughts

You too Doolsy, I'll try and some time get to the technology thread and teach what I know about using emojis.

Lee I think your lovely ...after the lindt choccy...umm how do I tell Grandy I'm considering a new besty (just playing Grandy) thanks darl 🤗

Hi Mandy if you're here

Hi Pepstar what lovely gifts you give our gorgeous Grandy 🤗

Apologies and hi anyone I've missed did this from memory and hope you dont mind me talking to our lovelies here Floss 💑💜🕊✨🌹👀🍫

[Croix]

Dear Grandy, Pepper, Tess2 and all.

I was thinking about 'bossy' nurses. I remember umpteen yours ago I met my first partner. She was a very experienced triple certificate sister in a very busy department in a large hospital.

I was surprised, in awe and amused at the explicit directions she gave young doctors just on the ward for the first time finishing off their training. Same for junior nurses and some patients.

It was all a front. Necessary in the circumstances but not her nature. She would spend hours going out of her way to guide and support, and was always there to help staff or patients.

At home she was a different person. It was a different relationship. The bits that remained were the consideration and kindness.

I don't really know why I'm posting here except to say your conversation has bought out some treasured memorizes - that first meeting.

Croix