Alone..Depressed..Sad..

[Ggrand]

Hi..I'm new here..just need to put my feeling down..no one to talk to makes depression and anxiety so hard...the last 4 days I have either been in bed crying or on the lounge crying..I can't seem to get out of this...I am becoming a prisioner in my own home as its getting progressively difficult to go out.. I have to go out Tuesdays so I do everthing on that day but it's like I'm holding my breathe all day until I get back to the safety of my home then I can let go and that starts the cycle again of spending the next 6 days at home either in bed or on the lounge sad and depressed...I really feel like just giving up.. My husband passed away 4 years on This coming Thursday. My children live 6 hours drive away and have small children so I don't see them that much.Bad mum and grandmum I am on there last visit i was pleased to see them but I just wanted them to go home. I feel so aweful and numb atm..

[Birdy77]

Dear Grandy,

Nobody could have written a better, more heartfelt, genuine and supportive reply to Sadgina than you did.

You just showed tremendous courage coming in and helping her the way you did.

Thank you for being the brave, caring soul that you are.

🌻birdy

[Lee lee 73]

.....I second that Birdy - and Birdy, so beautifully captured as well.

Grandy, you inspire and encourage me to keep wanting to keep going. You are my champion.

Sending you warm hugs 🤗🤗🤗and hope you catch the sandman.

Thinking of you my new dear friend . ...

Lee ❤💞💌

[Lee lee 73]

Hello demonblaster,

Thank you so so much for commenting on my avatar. You are spot on .....my 'puddy tat' 😊,gives me so much peace and love. 😻❤.

From following Grandy's thread, you live up to your username - demonblaster - I love it.

Grandy and demonblaster (and everyone ), I have a different technique that I find helps get me to sleep. ...ok...maybe 50%...

Whilst breathing in, count to 5. Then whilst breathing out continue the count to 10. Then repeat until hopefully you fall asleep. When breathing in, try to breath from your diaphragm.I only just remembered this other night.

Warm hugs to all...

Grandy, sending you sleepy thouhhts and big warm hugs to you and your doggies. ❤🐶🐶🤗🤗🤗.

Lee xx

[demonblaster]

She's incredible Lee lee, so easy to love. Heart of Gold.

Hi Mandy darling 💗 good to see you. Hope you're feeling better 🤗

Hi tweety love what a beautiful thing to say. Good on you Grandy

Grandy that sounds like a lovely idea but big concerns they might be aggressive with fur buddies esp if they bark on toilet outs. And you first be VERY careful lovey, I know the trusts happening but I wouldn't be anywhere close esp her with Joey. And they're still wild.

So I think for all your safety best not to 🤗

Unless is there any other way they could get to the shed without you having to leave the gate open?

They're so lucky to have some loving good people looking out for them

Love you darlin 💜

[Lee lee 73]

Good morning dearest Grandy,

How are you this morning? What are you thinking and feeling?

Did it rain at yours at all? It is actually raining here. It is needed, but not as much as it is needed where you are I don't think.

I've been listening to the mental health podcast - 'all in the mind' on the ABC listen app. It has some cool topics. Have you listened to it Grandy?

If it is cloudy for you (in more ways than one) know that I/we are sending you sunny inner thoughts.

I know I'm a new friend so I hope you don't mind me offering encouragement -'but please try to sit on your verandah and take a few steps today - I am sitting and walking with you.

Warm hugs to you beautiful lady 🤗🤗🤗❤❤❤🐶😻.

Lee 😙

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi, Birdy, Lee and all others...

Thank you all for your very kind words....

Birdy.....I hope it will help Sadgina but we can only tell what we have been through and then hope so much they make the right decision...

Lee...Thank you for saying I help you.....I will definitely try what you have said to try to go to sleep..Thank you so much for your encouragement, I’m just having so much trouble getting out my front gates.....today I cannot answer what I am thinking or feeling today because I’m all over the place with my emotions, both mania and downs...A mixed emotion cycle atm...but i can usually manage these okay....So I’m fine...

Deebi..........Thank you for your honest and very sensible answer to my question..I took your advise and kept my gates closed last night..I wasn’t thinking properly...I can be so silly 🙃sometimes in my thinking....I hope you are okay..are you?..

Its been raining here a light but steady rain since last night. It’s stopped now for around an hour, need heaps more...

I though we all might grab an umbrella 🌂☂️☔️ each...take our shoes 👠 👟 and socks 🧦 off...find a nice muddy puddle and jump and splash and just play in it...Just like little children...

My mind is foggy, I can’t think, what to say..It’s like someone turned my brain switch to off position..ewe I have a brain 🧠 in my 💼 ...where did that come from? just seen it now...

Deebi..I love you very much..Deep love and respect 💜🤗🦄..sweetheart....my angel 👼 🧚‍♀️ Wings are protecting you...

Love and hugs..💜🤗..Lovely people...

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..🦄👼...🕊🕊🕊..

[Doolhof]

Hi Grandy,

Just dropping by to say hello and to let you know how very much I appreciate your help and support when I am doing it tough, same with everyone who has posted on my thread.

Sorry to read that you have been doing life tough as well Grandy, I do so hope that you are able to get the help and support you need. I do realise and understand it is not always easy to get that help when yo have such distances to travel!

As I have mentioned elsewhere, this forum certainly is beneficial in so many ways! I have meet some wonderful people over the years.

The support and care, the empathy and understanding makes all the difference doesn't it!

Wishing you and Everyone here a better day than yesterday!

Cheers all from Dools

[demonblaster]

Thanks Grandy. No your're not silly darlin, beasty says that and we know IT lies. I'm starting to habit and helping no end is not to believe the first thought. Think more on it. Is there any positives in that situation. Eg: Bad thought in the house. What good things about the house or memories, if not anything like Rainbows, Mumjo (Roos) me 😉 😄 Butterflys 🙂 all beautiful.

For now you're on the veranda, that's a start lovely. Try not to feel pressured and remember you have and can again walk out. You'll get there cause you're stronger than what it wants you to think.

haha yip I'm in on the puddle jumping. LOL so glad you found your brain in there. We haven't had any Candyfloss yet YUM and no touching the chocolates I froze from Peps stash ok. Ooop said that out loud

Going to post at mine read a little here and try for an earlier night. Geesh give us a new head. Headaches still going just sitting quietly in the background atm but had to have another pill, really need to rest with them. At least most of the time they're not bang bangs.

Hi Lee lee 🙂 Thanks nice of you to say 🙂 aren't they magic. One day I'll get some pics and plaster them around the place for a happy when I'm feeling average. Would like to get yours, maybe I could try and take a photo of it. Gorgeous colouring too. Good on you, I'll try to remember that sleep one. I haven't read it all yet and you may have already, if you like our lovely Dools has a sleep thread maybe you could pop that in 🙂

Doolsy I haven't been back just reading intermittently, got the party going on upstairs, some Hallee lulliah & some serious wins going on but taking it easy for now but I'll be back soon hoping you're pulling up dear friend. Anyone's pain isn't nice but when you know and care about someone very sad xx

Loven you dear Grandy lady. You da bomb 🙂 Hope you're holding sweetums (( x )) and all for that matter 🙂

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi, Dools, and everyone,

Dools....thank you for calling in for a visit..and saying those nice kind words to me....I see my Psychiatrist in another 7 weeks, he is talking to the psych I saw when I was in hospital to try to arrange a psychologist in the bigger town...I will know in a couple of months what’s happening..Even the bigger town hasn’t got many psychologists available...living in small rural towns isn’t ideal with mental health issues....Our Government really needs to fix this..

Dools this place is amazing, and the people here have and are helping me so much, that I feel humbled a lot of times..

Deebi....Thank you...Beasty is playing around with my head last couple of days, but I’m keeping it away...mhn rang today, she wants me to see her before work tomorrow..I will try what your saying about beasty and our thoughts...

I am out on my veranda daily, and feeling not to bad if my neighbour has gone to work..if she is home hard to go out on my veranda...but most days she works since she has been back home....

Oh yeah candy floss is so melt in your mouth yummy ...I used to love watching them spin it in the machine....I used to enjoy walking in the rain, and jumping in puddles while I was younger.....🤫 shhhh. I won’t tell Peppy if you share a widdle pweece of chocolate wid me...just this much 🤲..not much....L💜vE Y🦄U...Deebi....please be okay special friend....

I have to try to sleep now..Please Everyone Have really deep , refreshing sleep with sweet dreams..

love and hugs...💜💜🤗🤗..

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy🦄👼🕊..

[Lee lee 73]

Hello dear Grandy,

Thinking of you today and always. .sending you peaceful vibes .....so that you can deal with the not so peaceful vinnnie ladies. ..

Warmest hugs 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗😍😍😘

Lee