Alone..Depressed..Sad..

[Ggrand]

Hi..I'm new here..just need to put my feeling down..no one to talk to makes depression and anxiety so hard...the last 4 days I have either been in bed crying or on the lounge crying..I can't seem to get out of this...I am becoming a prisioner in my own home as its getting progressively difficult to go out.. I have to go out Tuesdays so I do everthing on that day but it's like I'm holding my breathe all day until I get back to the safety of my home then I can let go and that starts the cycle again of spending the next 6 days at home either in bed or on the lounge sad and depressed...I really feel like just giving up.. My husband passed away 4 years on This coming Thursday. My children live 6 hours drive away and have small children so I don't see them that much.Bad mum and grandmum I am on there last visit i was pleased to see them but I just wanted them to go home. I feel so aweful and numb atm..

[Ggrand]

Hello Tess,..

Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩....Lee, Magic, Amanda.....Thank you all so very much for calling in....your posts gave me some comfort last night...

Tess......It’s been a while since we last spoke..I hope you are doing okay and have settled into your new home.....Thank you very much for calling in..It’s really very good to hear from you..l

I thought the same about being forced into care,.apparently they can admit me if they believe that I am a danger to myself and they believe that I cannot keep myself safe from me, which he does...and you are right, he has wanted me to go into his clinic now for over 6 months..I have been saying no...My latest hospital trips, lookout etc. ringing mental health helpline has no given him cause and reason I am not safe on my own.....

No costs were mentioned so I’m under the understanding that it’s Medicare funded...he knows that I have no spare money..

[Guest8901]

Hello dear Grandy

I dont know what to advise you about the psych in-patient clinic. Certainly if they can oblige you to go, then its far better to go in voluntarily. That way you can also get out when you wish to. Not sure thats the case if they compel you to go in?

Grandy, with facilities being so bad where you live, have you thought that perhaps this could be a really wonderful opportunity to finally receive the care and therapy that you have been crying out for, for such a long time? It sounds as though the psychiatrist is prepared to make arrangements for your little doggie companions, in which case you can be assured that they will be cared for. Not the same as you do of course, but they will be okay.

Perhaps rather than dismissing the idea completely, you can give it a bit more thought. You know that running away will not achieve anything, dont you? Grandy I think I'm probably saying things here that you will not appreciate, that you will not like me for saying them. But I honestly want the best for you, and do not want to see a possible opportunity to finally receive the help you need, be thrown to the wind out of fear on your part. I know it would be a huge step, and a scary thing to agree to, but I'm thinking you may now be ready for this Grandy. Please give it some thought. And forgive me if my thoughts and suggestions upset you. I say these things because I care a great deal about you Grandy, and want only the best for you. From what you have said, it also sounds as though your psychiatrist wants the best for you.

I hope you can find something nice to do today, despite the heat. Its very hot here too today. No wind, just hot, unrelenting heat. I'm going to close up the house soon and turn on the air conditioning. I know you have a lot to think about, so please try to do something to distract your mind for a bit, something to take some pressure off you. You do not have to reply Grandy, I just wanted to put this out there.

Amanda 🌺 🤗 🤝

[Ggrand]

Hello Amanda,

Thank you for your very incouraging post...and no sweetheart you said nothing wrong at all...I really appreciate your kindness and gentleness in your words to me....

Thank you for your post....I would go in voluntry but very reluctantly, but I would...But the reason for 3 weeks is .because I have been through the different families of ADs without much success and now they want and will give me Electroconvulsive therapy....I will not have that done....I will run a way... it should be my option for shock treatment....I have read the immediate side effects and then ice effects long term...loss of memory..which is highly probable, and Electroconvulsive therapy is not a cure, it’s on going treatment, which after the initial treatment is optional and I will probably need $ to continue...

My bag is packed.......ready to go.....I am jumping at every noise I hear outside this has me on edge.....I know that if they admit me...once I’m in their I will immediately turn into a yes person and agree to everything...While I’m here on my own I can say no...and mean it...I know what I want but once I’m in there, that all changes because I am just so pathetically weak and to scared to say no....and they know that......

Grandy....

[demonblaster]

Hey Grandy 💜

Sweety I know how scary this all sounds and you feel trapped but hun as soon as I read it I thought same as our beautiful Mandy it looks like they really do care and want to help you 🤗 Hun you'd be safe for that period of time with what I imagine would be such a big help having intense treatment.

I know being around people are a worry for you but there may not be as many as you think and it sounds nice having your own room and gardens no gates. And people there would understand because they'd be going through similar I guess.

I thought too how lucky with that opportunity knowing how little help there is where you are.

Grandy I too would be saying no to ect. I understand how you feel about that and you're so much stronger now I reckon this is a chance of you getting better and having peace. Honestly sweety I really think you would benefit from this. If you were alone I'd be scared for you and am when you go down hard and no one to keep an eye on you.

Beautiful Ebony and Kya would be cared for and so would you honey.

We're here for you, never leaving 🤝 so you're never alone even if you feel you are, you're loved and very deeply cared about by many. You deserve peace Grandy. Beastys had you way too long in hell.

Hope you're ok darlin. Try and see the positives lovey ☺ Don't listen to beasty, IT's scared of you winning which you can.

I'm going for a walk in a tic Grandy, really downed over this weight gain the hills are harder and other things. Going to get it off! but not in a strict way.

Gorgeous day here in Paradise wouldn't be as many as you have but the odd lovely sound of birdys.

Love to you darlin 🌜💑🌛💜🕊💪

[Birdy77]

Dear Grandy,

You are not pathetically weak.

I know it's not straightforward, and of course you are frightened of what they could do while you're in there, but I do agree with Amanda that this could be the support that you have so very much needed and wanted for so long.

I too am sorry if this upsets you.

We all care for you.

🌻birdy

[Lee lee 73]

Hello lovely Grandy,

I too agree this is an opportunity not to be missed hon. It is a stepping stone to much much better health which could then lead to you being able to become better connected with your family ❤.

You mentioned you're scared of becoming a 'yes person' once in there. I have an idea....write notes saying what treatment you don't want. Sign and date it and stick them on your bedhead walls etc once you're in your room. This way, it's in writing and is visible by your care team. It might sound silly, but there's no way I want you to have ect. Not sure if I've mentioned this but I shared a room for 2mths in psych ward with someone who had ect.....no way!!

Please try not to be on edge lovely. Remember they said they will call you when a room becomes available. I truly believe this is worth trying Grandy. I can't begin to know/understand how scared you are...but long term. ..it's worth a try. It's the break you truly deserve. ❤😍💪.

Sitting with you beautiful. 🤗🤗

Lee

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi, Amanda,Birdy,Lee...

Just a quick little post because I think I need to let you know..

No words any of you have said to me has upset me at all....So please don’t apologise for your words...You are all such caring people with beautiful souls...I know you are all right in what your saying to me...

I don’t know what to say right now...I’m scared just thinking about it all...

Love and hugs..💜🤗.....Everyone.

.Deebi..🌜👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩🌛.....luv you...

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy🦄💜👼...

[Tess2]

Hi,

while a psychiatrist can have someone detained , it is not simple and not usual to go into a private facility. Also I doubt they can force you to have ect, this is not the 1920s. They may recommend it, and some people do benefit from it. There are also some newer types of therapy involving electric impulses, but they don’t cause fits and You do not need an anaesthetic for them. The main purpose of a psych certifying someone for a period is to keep them safe, not to force treatments upon them. I understand why you are so anxious about this. I would want to know more before I made up my mind.

Tess

[monkey_magic]

Aw,

I bat for the opposition- staying out because I've been in and...they can and do force ppl against their wills under the act. They can also keep u in for as long as they want. I'd go somewhere nice and sunny around good people.....lots of them, not the other type. I'd go to parks, nurseries, even churches.

Mental health hospitals....drop you...into...I won't say.

Sustain your soul with the natural....and love, smiles....

An art group, anywhere but there. This is me not holding back anymore.

It's your choice...my views.

[monkey_magic]

Seeking self healing with love is possible...all those wounds can be let go of....hang on...something sad hospital...OK my spiritual entity, god, Buddha , what's a name said hospital- oops