Alone..Depressed..Sad..

[Ggrand]

Hi..I'm new here..just need to put my feeling down..no one to talk to makes depression and anxiety so hard...the last 4 days I have either been in bed crying or on the lounge crying..I can't seem to get out of this...I am becoming a prisioner in my own home as its getting progressively difficult to go out.. I have to go out Tuesdays so I do everthing on that day but it's like I'm holding my breathe all day until I get back to the safety of my home then I can let go and that starts the cycle again of spending the next 6 days at home either in bed or on the lounge sad and depressed...I really feel like just giving up.. My husband passed away 4 years on This coming Thursday. My children live 6 hours drive away and have small children so I don't see them that much.Bad mum and grandmum I am on there last visit i was pleased to see them but I just wanted them to go home. I feel so aweful and numb atm..

[Birdy77]

It's ok Grandy, I think they will be ok. There might be some poos and weed, but that's ok ... better for them to have their mumma come home safely soon.

How would you feel about getting that neighbour who just came home from being away to come in for them? The hospital also may be able to arrange someone to go and check on them?

[Ggrand]

No I can't do that, She yells at me all the time. and she threatened to report to the council my dogs, when I moved in...No..I'm going to go home when they uncode the door in the morning...

[Birdy77]

I'm really sorry I had forgotten she was nasty to you, I should not have suggested that. Sorry Grandy.

They will be ok until the morning. Better to have their mumma come home safe and sound right?

[Birdy77]

I feel foolish about my suggestion I'm really sorry Grandy.

When you're feeling the way you do now, are you able to take yourself on a fantasy journey, to get away for a bit?

[Ggrand]

Yes Birdy....they are outside in the cold..It's my fault bad me...3 hours more then I can go home.. Small hospital easy to leave...I don't know the door code or else I go now..

[Birdy77]

They will snuggle each other and keep warm, and you will be home soon ...

[Ggrand]

Birdy, Please don't be sorry.. It's okay...💜..your not foolish, your very caring, and kind..thankyou very much for talking to me tonight..I'm really sorry I'm a nuisance to people here...feeling bad about that..Please Birdy, try to sleep now..you need sleep..🦋🕊🌹....

Thank you for being here..means a real lot, to hear from someone I know, care about and love......🦋🌹🕊💜🤗🤗.

[Birdy77]

You're not a nuisance Grandy, I am glad you reached out when you needed a friend.

I will send you some golden light now as I go back to sleep, and I will send some to your doggies as well.

I hope you can rest until morning.

Take great care of you Grandy.

Love,

🌻birdy

[Ggrand]

Thank you Everyone for your very gentle, kind,caring words, they all all so very much appreciate and read and read quite a number of times....I will get back to you all and reply to when I can get my words together more easily..

Love and hugs 💜🤗....

Grandy...

[Guest8901]

Dearest Grandy

Oh goodness me, you poor thing. I note its a couple of hours since you posted now, and its now 6.30am. So you may well have left hospital by now. But sweetie, you were there for a reason. Are you quite sure you are ready to leave?

You didnt say the reason you ended up in hospital. Have you been treated and are you okay now? If you took yourself to hospital ... well done for recognising that you needed help.

I'm so happy that the lovely Birdy was here for you earlier. That was obviously a big comfort to you. I just saw your post on my thread .. Thankyou. Although I wasnt much use to you last night was I? Didnt log in when needed, when I could have been of some help.

Regarding your dogs .. They will naturally be missing you, but Im sure will be fine. If you dont get home soon, would your friend ... Betty is it? .. be able to drop by and check on them and feed them?

I saw your post to Deebi and, like you, am concerned. Hoping its just a case of her needing a little time out. If reading Deebs - love and hugs.

Sending the biggest most comfortingest hugs ever to you Grandy my special friend. And my love and gratitude too.

Amanda 🐶🐶 💕