Alone..Depressed..Sad..

Ggrand
Community Champion
Hi..I'm new here..just need to put my feeling down..no one to talk to makes depression and anxiety so hard...the last 4 days I have either been in bed crying or on the lounge crying..I can't seem to get out of this...I am becoming a prisioner in my own home as its getting progressively difficult to go out.. I have to go out Tuesdays so I do everthing on that day but it's like I'm holding my breathe all day until I get back to the safety of my home then I can let go and that starts the cycle again of spending the next 6 days at home either in bed or on the lounge sad and depressed...I really feel like just giving up.. My husband passed away 4 years on This coming Thursday. My children live 6 hours drive away and have small children so I don't see them that much.Bad mum and grandmum I am on there last visit i was pleased to see them but I just wanted them to go home. I feel so aweful and numb atm..
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Birdy77
Blue Voices Member

Dear Grandy,

I am just going to quietly come in next to Peppy here and just sit with you.

You have a lot of stressful things happening right now, and the extra days they are wanting you to work sound like it may be pushing you too far. I know your support network there is not up to scratch, and I'm wondering if you might be able to get some advice from BB or maybe lifeline? You should not be pushed to the edge ...

Sorry your brother didn't arrive ...

Dear Grandy, we are here with you and care for and support you so much, so please reach out for some assistance, it sounds like you might need it.

In the meantime, we sit and hold you gently in our thoughts.

Love,

🌻birdy

startingnew
Community Member
Grandy xoxox just sitting quietly here too

demonblaster
Blue Voices Member
Hi sweety/s
Hun I've read back a couple of times. Sorry lovey headspace I get confused at times, bits sink in or later,Your job provider.Is your psych?.approachable maybe you could clear the air as much as it'd be very diificult but needs to be done imo. Hard one I know G

I'm so sorry I think I'm either repeating or missed replies but know I read all posts lovey ☺

Shame your brother didnt make it I know your close

Thanks asking sweets I'll get there this I think has a while yet for recovery, not bad atm just tired and now fri, sat, sunday stuff on but not long so can try and 💤 arvos. Todays catch up didnt work damn had 2 meds should be ok for tonite. Posted reply at mine hasnt landed.

Ok sweety but if you need to talk please do doesnt matter how I am, still want to know how you are.

I'm sure I've missed things.

😆at your face back there with the cold, you're very funny
Love you darl 💜💑 you're all magic 🤗😚 if anyone wants

Hope this is eligible I'm improving on proofing but sometimes care factor zero, not with attitude ☺


demonblaster
Blue Voices Member

Hey Grandy

Posted last night but not landed yet.

Hope you're ok 🤗

Always thoughts L&C 💜💑🕊

Hi Grandy (and a wave to your lovely friends),

I understand if you’re not feeling your best so there’s no need to reply to me. I’m simply saying hello and leaving a picnic basket of goodies plus more hugs than you can handle. The best and squishiest kind too ❤️

Love and care,

Peppy xoxox

Ggrand
Community Champion

Thank you all for your kindness and sitting with me...

Grandy..

demonblaster
Blue Voices Member

Love always hun.

We'll get there Grandy, we all will, we have to believe it.

No need for a reply 💑💜

demonblaster
Blue Voices Member

Hey darlin 🌿

🎀 this pretty bow is attached to a gorgeous cane basket which is yours with a lovely warm blanky on the bottom for your cutey 🐕🐶

Inside it has...

💜 Unlimited love

🤗 Soul touching healing hugglies

🦄 For our amazing fantasy journeys together

🔥When you need it

Oh oh 💼 for such fun

😊😉😆😅😄😃🤣😂😁😀

💗 My heart care and appreciation for your beautiful soul

🤝 never letting go

👂🏻and shoulder when ever you need it

Time... so much for you

🕊 Peace my dear friend

💑 always

U Ok hun?

Come here darlin.. a long warm heart felt hug.Take my hand honey and we'll snuggle under blanky and watch the you can tell me all about it. Here's a nice frothy hot chocolate with baby marshmallows and yip 🍫

Do love you Grandy, thank you for being you. You're incredible

demonblaster
Blue Voices Member

Hey dear friend and everyone 👋

Last nights post not landed yet looks like maybe another reading back too & the system error one. I'll keep an 👁 out. I remember 2 of them roughly. Getting better not good yet doing them in a note app. I want to find an easier one. Anyhoo I'll re post sometime if they dont land today. One day I hope to get a larger tablet loving it. Need to put it in for fixes. Huge list.

Hope todays a better one for you lovey. Are you getting much sleep and how are you feeling? 🤗

Always SO grateful for your beautiful posts Grandy. So many smiles laughs and love when reading them, you don't know how often I wish I could rl hug and comfort you & 🤝. I don't acknowledge them enough but in these times majority of focus is on getting through. I know you understand that but needed to say. Feel bad but it's beasty trying to find anyway to drag me down.

Grandy if you can direct your thoughts to positives and for distraction hun to 🌈🦋🐶🐕 can't see a cow here & roos ⚘🌻🌲 now imagine you're at one at a time and explore what is it you like that gives you pleasure, it could surface pleasure for longer and beasty as you said hates happies so IT choofs for a bit.

Maybe a revisit to our amazing fantasy and other fun times and Wolfys 🦄 magic nature visits. Your fantasy thread. Allow your mind to feel the 🦄

I need to get ALL of them in one place, everthing I'll look back more, do at times. Have stuff on 2 apps on this. Also storing help strats more now slowly. Getting slightly more organised no where near yet.

Love and appreciation (L&A) dear loving Grandy 🤗💜💑 Be safe hun 😚

To SO many here L&A too 💗🤗

Correction my bad one of the posts did land the other a system error and one coming. 🙄