Alone..Depressed..Sad..

[Ggrand]

Hi..I'm new here..just need to put my feeling down..no one to talk to makes depression and anxiety so hard...the last 4 days I have either been in bed crying or on the lounge crying..I can't seem to get out of this...I am becoming a prisioner in my own home as its getting progressively difficult to go out.. I have to go out Tuesdays so I do everthing on that day but it's like I'm holding my breathe all day until I get back to the safety of my home then I can let go and that starts the cycle again of spending the next 6 days at home either in bed or on the lounge sad and depressed...I really feel like just giving up.. My husband passed away 4 years on This coming Thursday. My children live 6 hours drive away and have small children so I don't see them that much.Bad mum and grandmum I am on there last visit i was pleased to see them but I just wanted them to go home. I feel so aweful and numb atm..

[demonblaster]

Hi there Grandy 👩‍❤️‍👩 and all the other lovelies too 🐥SO cute

Dear lovely Grandy it’s no wonder March doesn’t hold pleasant memories. Shaking head with sadness that you’ve had SO much to deal with in your life. Sending you warmth in 🤗 and eternal love dear friend.

Here’s hoping the stinkin crocs have moved on. Haha loven Croixys chocolate crocs before sleepybyes.

That’s a great idea changing the pillow cases and sheets etc. Nice one Master Croixy 🦭. Hopefully you have something lovely. A change of scenery anywhere including the house can be quite stimulating aye.

Yours Eagle 🦅 sound nice and colourful and cheery. Colours so important in our lives.

Yeah Grandz it’s hard not being able to be in touch, I’m glad you mentioned that cause I thought a while back to stop droning on about it because it might have bought you down plus I need to get over things. Pfftt well maybe slowly it’s happening. Thank goods we have here which has built a beautiful friendship we wouldn’t probs have had cause we probs wouldn’t have met each other. 

So we’re now in another mth closer for your next tests for them to be able to work out which treatment Huns. I dearly hope your bodies allowing you to cope on a daily basis without continuing pain and difficulty breathing. How is that going darlin?

It really is lovely hearing you speak with so much love about your furs. What great company and reciprocated love is Gold isn’t it. Was beautiful that she was there, I thought the same that she may have sensed you were struggling. It’s really not 😂 but my warped sense of humour coming out of a terrible nightmare and dear Pepper being there. Honestly I’m only lol now not at the time.

OK gorgeous friend I’m probs out of characters already. Love and care so much about you always lovely lady. Look after ourself hun and tell beasty where to go. See how polite I was then 😜

cyaz lovely friends hope youse are all coping at the least. Care 💗💜🦄🤝🍫🌈

[Ggrand]

Hello Dear Eagle Ray, Croix, Quirky, 👋 to Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩….and all…..🤗♥️..

I have been searching online for new bedroom accessories and have a couple in mind, ER is the quality of online bedroom accessories good quality?….One of the Doona covers I have in mind has beautiful butterflies all over it, the other has Frangipani’s over it….still looking for curtains as I also need block out curtains because my huge front window is where the sun rises and if I don’t block that out, the sun can at times trigger migraines….so I’m still looking for the right ones….decision are not easy for me to make….but I’ll decide on something, I’m sure of that…

Croix, chocolate crocodiles, that will definitely change things..I’ll be hiding in wait to try to catch and devour them instead of the other way around 😁…not if, but when I catch one, where do I start😂…

Hi Quirky, it’s always beautiful to see you here, I do hope things are going good for you….and everyone else…

Been making a habit of having my second morning coffee out front…the Autumn sun is so nice in the morning….

I’ve not been the best, seem to be always tired and lethargic…I forget what having energy feels like….doing anything just feels to hard and exhausting…

Was proof reading and saw your post Deebi…thank you dear friend…I know how deep and unconditional a dogs love can be for us humans…I also love my 2 fur girls the same…They are both beautiful in their soul…my son had to put Kya’s mother and Ebony’s grandmother asleep yesterday, she had bone cancer and had a stroke in her sleep…couldn’t even stand up….so sad…she was 17 years old…now mum and granddaughter are together in heaven..

I think the pain of shingles has left me….still got the purple rash and itchiness but very grateful the pain has finally gone when I sit…😁..

Hopefully everyone’s day is a good day, and you find some enjoyment in it somewhere…

Sending some hugs, care and kindness to everyone..🤗♥️🌈🦋🦜..

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..

[Eagle Ray]

Hello dear Grandy and other lovely people here 🤗

I found the quality was fine with the doona covers I bought online. I got one of the doona covers from Red Bubble and the other was from a Homewares store, I think Bed, Bath & Table. Both of those were good quality and cost a little more. But I have also bought a doona cover from Big W in the past and that was perfectly good too. I got my sheets, actual doonas and mattress protectors from Big W and Kmart online and they are fine. With the sheets I just look to go for a thread count that's not too low so they're not too thin. Actually I got some sheets from Aldi too that are quite soft and comfy. But as far as things like doona covers go, I think they are usually pretty good wherever you get them. They tend to come with either a zip, studs or buttons to close the cover. I love frangipanis and butterflies and I'm sure that will really brighten the room and make you feel good 🦋🌸. Having two different ones gives you that variety too.

I hope you can find some good curtains soon. I am like you and can also get migraines from the rising sun in the morning. But the rising sun does not come through the bedroom window here but through the doorway and the light is coming from the neighbouring room. When I first moved here it kept being too bright for me until I decided to sleep with the door closed so it is fine now.

I'm glad you are enjoying the second morning coffee outside and enjoying the Autumn sun. I have been remembering at least some days to take my morning hot beverage outside and sit watching the garden. It makes a difference. It has been quite warm and balmy here today. I am in a t-shirt and shorts.

I'm sad to hear about your son's dog. 17 years is a good age. Yes, beautiful Ebony can be with her grandmother now.

I'm glad the shingles pain is finally gone. It sounds like it's been really so awful. I hope the purple rash and itchiness are soon gone too.

Take good care, Grandy and All,

ER

[Ggrand]

Hello Eagle Ray and everyone….🤗♥️..

Thank you ER, I will order mine soon….Im thinking now winter is coming I’ll need some warm flannelette sheets….I’m now looking for those…I’m still looking for curtains having a very wide and long windows I’ll need to get 2 sets….My loungeroom windows and front door also welcome the rising sun…..having grazing land across from me, there’s nothing to block it….which I love because the rising sun is beautiful especially when their are clouds around the area it come up…

I too am pleased the pain has left me but I still have an incredible itch and feel a lot of warmth on the purple rash area….Dr said it’s called Postherpetic neuralgia and could last for months or even years…honestly I’m over pain, itching and everything!….just so tired from years of pain from shoulders, back, legs, pain along my ribs when breathing now and to top it off, now this….How does someone cope with this….knowing how long it can last…..don’t think I’m going to cope well with this, shingles didn’t contain itself only on my buttocks…(bit of a vent)….

Me too, she was a beautiful dog..I remember the day they brought her home to their house as a puppy, being a Maltese/ yorkshire she was so tiny…..both her and Ebony stayed small…

Im thinking of doing the trip to see both my sons in a few weeks, for 2 weeks, my car is very rattlerly  I think it’s coming from the front wheels so I want my son to check it out and fix for me…before rego is due…a large section of the highway is closed due to repairs and an extra 1.5 hours added with the detour….

I hope everyone has had a good day today….hugs everyone 🤗🤗♥️.

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..

[Eagle Ray]

Hello Grandy and All 🤗💖

Flannelette sheets are so lovely. I actually got flannelette sheets with doggies on them too, to go with the doona cover with doggies. I find flannelette pillow cases are nice to put my head on when it's cold because they don't get cold in the way that regular pillow cases do, and they are soft and comfy. That sounds so lovely having the rising sun welcoming you through the lounge room windows and front door. It sounds like a beautiful spot.

I'm so sorry you've had all that pain and what a pain, both literally and metaphorically, that the Postherpetic neuralgia may stick around. I totally understand you feeling frustrated and it's really ok to vent. It's not fair at all. I hope maybe there are some medications you can either take or apply topically that help. I hope you can find some distractions that can at least take you from the discomfort at times.

I just looked up what a Maltese/Yorkshire looks like and they are so cute 😍. I was reading how they get called Morkies which is so cute all well. I am feeling so clucky for a dog myself but I'm so unsure if I'm going to stay here and where I'll go next. I might need to do some dog sitting to get that doggy time. They are just such beautiful companions.

That will be very nice to see your sons. I think it's quite a drive for you isn't it. It's a bummer about the closed section of highway. Take it easy of course and have rests when you need them. You could even stop somewhere overnight on the way, though I know that costs money and it's hard to find places that are not expensive these days. It will be good to get the rattlerly noises checked out. My car has a few noises but they never seem to identify what the noises are when it gets serviced, so I hope for the best in that it's driving well in other ways.

I hope you are getting lovely autumn weather and you can have some really restful, peaceful days 🍁🌿🌼🦋

Take good care lovely Grandy and everyone else reading 🤗💕

[demonblaster]

Hey ya bbff 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩 and all our other beautiful here too 💗🤗

Ohhh Grandy darlin I didn’t see any notifications in my emails but luckily just thought I’d come in and check. Sorry Huns I’m here to say I’ve nearly caught up and will return soon for a proper post. 

Geez that’s great no pain anymore sitting what a relief that must be. 
Yikes not sounding good though the pain along your ribs darlin 😔

Absolutely don’t blame you at all being over pain. It’s Sooo hard to live with isn’t it. 

I think it’s the hardest place we can be. Ah Grandy 🤗💗

Ok beautiful I’ll be back Huns. 

Much love care and thoughts sweetyheart. Keep doing as you do, hold on trooper.

[demonblaster]

Hi Grandy 💏 🪽Eagle 🦅Croixy 🦭Paws 🐾 and everyone 😊

Dear Grandy ugh the postherpetic pain doesn’t sound at all good. Let’s hope when the itch that can drive you mad aye settles that it might not be a regular or at all problem. Pfftt no picnic darlin 🤗

That sounds really good that you’re going to your sons. Struth another 1.5 hrs on top of a long drive though ick.

It’ll be good to find out hopefully what the cause of the rattles are.
Family time will be nice darl and a change of scenery with some freedom to travel should be refreshing for the soul my lovely. You surely need a break dear girl and have been stuck inside pretty much for several wks mths now. 
Fantastic going on y/our (all of us 😃) verandah. Many lovely times we’ve had there. I often think about the birdy sounds and stars all sound sooo good . Gives me nice thoughts and visions. Magic. Good on you darlin. 

Ahh what a great age that dear Mumma fur made. Hard yards for everyone losing her but yes Ebony will be with her Nan now and both free of pain is comforting.

Just looked out the window and the suns out with a fairly good downpour of rain. It looks quite nice. Hope the weathers giving you some reprieve from the horrid heat. Wonder if that might settle the itch too.

Ok dear friend/s sorry it took a while to come back. Honestly always love and thoughts Grandz. Yadimh 💜🤝💗🍧🦄🧚🏼‍♂️🌈🪽Hope mentally you’re feeling better too darlin 🤗🍫