Alone..Depressed..Sad..

[Ggrand]

Hi..I'm new here..just need to put my feeling down..no one to talk to makes depression and anxiety so hard...the last 4 days I have either been in bed crying or on the lounge crying..I can't seem to get out of this...I am becoming a prisioner in my own home as its getting progressively difficult to go out.. I have to go out Tuesdays so I do everthing on that day but it's like I'm holding my breathe all day until I get back to the safety of my home then I can let go and that starts the cycle again of spending the next 6 days at home either in bed or on the lounge sad and depressed...I really feel like just giving up.. My husband passed away 4 years on This coming Thursday. My children live 6 hours drive away and have small children so I don't see them that much.Bad mum and grandmum I am on there last visit i was pleased to see them but I just wanted them to go home. I feel so aweful and numb atm..

[demonblaster]

Thank you darlin for making contact 🤗

Yes I feel same as Lee ..fine.. ok but when you're up to it you know we're always caring and loving you too sweety lady.

UBOK dear friend. Don't want you being down and above all lonel, never here

Same as you don't worry about replying to mine, knowing you love me and ditto is enough when you're doing it hard.

I'll try and finish a post to you at mine tomoz if not know you're in my thoughts often with so much love 💑💜🐶😻🤝

Try to get some good rest honey.

[startingnew]

Sending love and many hugs . Still here for you too little angel

💙❣❤💜💛💚💗♥💖

[Doolhof]

Hi Grandy and Everyone,

Just dropping by to say "hello" and wishing everyone a good day. Grandy, I saw you mentioned "French Knitting" I remember doing that as a child. I also started doing one a few years ago, I am sure I still have it in the shed.

That and the 4 needles I was using to knit a pair of socks with the help of an elderly lady. The lady has passed away now and I only ever knitted the one sock!

On Wednesday I am returning tot he craft group I was attending before I hurt my ankle. Apparently there have been some divisions in the group and there has been a split with a few creating their own closed group. Hopefully the people that decided to have their closed group will be happier than in a larger group with new comers. A larger group can be noisier and less companionable in a way for some people.

I haven't been creative in a long time thanks to depression and pain. So today is the day to try and do something creative!

Thanks for the reminder of French Knitting! I might go to the shed and see what I can find there.

Cheers to you all from Dools

[demonblaster]

💜🦄👼💜

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi, Amanda,Lee, starts, Peppy, Dools and all...

Ive been trying to write out a post to you all, but I’m having trouble doing it i learned my older brother is on dialysis.My heart is sad for him, but my mind is saying I shouldn’t be I am totally confused He sent me a letter and a small package something he took from me when I was younger that I treasured and cried for days because I thought I lost it and that I got into a lot of trouble for oh I’ll just get back to you all soon...

[Guest8901]

Oh poor Grandy, you must be full of so many mixed emotions, and such a difficult thing to work your way through.

I am glad of one thing though ... that you received a formerly lost treasure.

I'm sorry I cant say more Grandy, I'm in a bit of a state myself right now. But thats not for here.

There is no hurry to get back to anyone Grandy .. only when you're able to and feel well enough to do so.

Much love to you

Amanda

[demonblaster]

🤗 same as Mandy darlin

There's other things I'd add but can't here.

Sorry for your sadness and confusion, you have every right to feel how you do. What a cruel person.

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi, Amanda, Lee and everyone.Hi all,

My older brother is on dialysis for his kidneys, 3 times a week...He sent me a ring I received in the mail on Friday..a ring I thought I lost. I cried so hard for that ring, and got into so much trouble for loosing it..my first piece of jewellery ever, my grandma gave me on my 13th birthday..I wore it everyday but took it off at night..one morning after my brother was in my room...yeah...I was crying and I went to school and at school noticed my ring was gone....I remembered I never put it on that day when I got home it wasn’t their. So then I thought I must have put it on and lost it at school...Well that night my brother must have said something to mum and dad because they asked to see my ring...well I copped it big time....All these years I thought I lost it at school...He took it. I can’t believe he kept it for so long. Looking at my ring that was so precious all those years ago to me, I remember my grandma the day she gave it to me....She was so gentle and kind not like my mum...I loved her so much......No more am I going to let him hurt me...No more...
Do you all know what...I was so upset that I rang him today...I told him that im very sorry that he is sick but if he ever contacts me in anyway at all ever again I will charge him which means that his family will know about everything.....so leave me alone... then hung up....I couldn’t stop shaking...I don’t know if I did the right thing ringing him or not, but I feel calmer for the first time since he first contacted me..

I rang my younger brother and he said he was proud of me for doing that....and so am I now....

Love you Deebi....very much...💜🤗🦄..

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩grandy🦄👼

[monkey_magic]

Love your courage Grandy. That would have taken a lot of strength. Proud of you 🙂

[Birdy77]

Such courage Grandy.

You are so strong, despite everything.

Very inspiring.

You can be so proud of yourself.

🌻birdy